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This note's gonna be short, not a lot to talk about. There was mention of wanting more of Lexa's POV in a review and I'm totally down for doing that if more people want it as well. So, is that something you guys would like? Let me know!
That's pretty much it for this chapter. Thank you guys again, so much, to everyone who reviewed. I know I keep saying it, but I really do appreciate you guys and each one pushes me to write more cause I know y'all are waiting for the next update.
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Before:
"I have seen this before, but it is not my place to tell you where. I do believe, though, that this is why you are so familiar to me."
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[Octavia] found it hard to believe at first but, when Lincoln and Raven jumped into little random pieces and filled in blanks that Clarke didn't know, she felt herself more inclined to believe it.
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"Now I would give anything to be able to be with her Lincoln but, like you said to me, I can't be the one to make the first move, not with what I know."
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"You're not alone here, Clarke. We'll figure everything out. You told me that. We'll stop the Mountain before they can even take any of us, we'll figure out why we're here, and we'll get you your girl."
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With every new word the voice spoke, Clarke caught glimpses of an Earth that she had imagined months ago.
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"All in due time, dear one. All in due time. Wake now, I'll be back when I can. You are strong Clarke, and you are not alone." ... The one thing that remained though was the feeling instilled in Clarke. The feeling of peace accompanied with the same symbol she had been remembering since returning.
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She stopped [walking] when she caught sight of a figure against a tree, up a small hill. Clarke tilted her head and debated a moment before making her way towards it. The closer she got, the easier it was to identify who it was.
Now:
She stopped several meters away, wondering what Lexa was doing out on her own this early in the day, before the sun had even risen. Clarke couldn't help but think about how beautiful she looked though, divested of her Commander's gear and war paint, standing solitary in the moonlight. Seeming to be basking in the silent peace of the night.
Clarke took another step and accidentally snapped a branch, breaking the solitude the Commander thought she had as she whipped around, knife at the ready. Clarke's hands were already up though, a sheepish smile on her face.
"Sorry Commander. I couldn't help but notice you out here while I was taking a walk." Clarke shrugged and moved a hand to the back of her neck.
"Clarke." Lexa said shortly, almost surprised. Almost. She put her knife away and Clarke thought that was something; the Commander of the Trigedakru disarming herself in the face of a potential enemy. Because, when it came down to it, she really didn't know if Clarke's people were threats or not.
That didn't mean Clarke wasn't pleased with the action though. No, she was; immensely so. In the small act, Lexa was extending to her a trust that Clarke was sure she didn't show to just anyone.
"What are you doing out here?" She heard Lexa ask and then turned her attention back to her.
"I couldn't sleep." Clarke answered, continuing forward towards where Lexa was standing now that she'd been caught anyway. "I had a weird dream." She offered.
"About the woman in your drawing." It wasn't a question. Clarke looked at her with a brow raised.
"You still won't tell me who she is." That wasn't a question either. She saw Lexa look at her with a sidelong glance and a slight smirk on her lips.
"It is not my place to say." She said. Clarke sighed but smiled softly.
"Didn't hurt to ask." Clarke knew Lexa would deny it if she pointed it out, but the Commander smiled back just as softly as Clarke was doing. "If I can ask, what are you doing out here?"
Lexa didn't answer her for a couple minutes and Clarke didn't push, she just watched her; taking comfort in her presence. She watched her breathe, watched the little movements she made as she adjusted herself and watched her stare at the moon and the stars. She would have felt a little odd if she didn't know that Lexa was doing the same thing. Though less obviously.
"I like to think by myself when I can." She finally said. Clarke nodded, not saying anything more on the subject, and put her hands in her pockets, her fingers starting to get a bit nippy. They both stood in silence, watching the moon fall in the sky. At some point they turned to watch the dark blue of the night light up with the sun's rising hues.
Clarke took a deep breath and let it out, looking at Lexa out of the side of her eyes. The morning was calm, and she knew that soon they would both have to get back to the real world, but she smiled softly.
"Thanks, Commander." She said quietly. Lexa looked at her with a brow raised causing Clarke to smile just a bit wider. "For standing out here with me, for not leaving, for letting me stay; now, and earlier with my friends. Just… thank you." Clarke nodded and held out a hand. She would have… well, she didn't know what she would have done before. Maybe she would have nudged her, checked her gently with her hip and grinned. She would have done something.
But to this Lexa she was practically a stranger, so she settled for a handshake.
Which Lexa promptly forwent and clasped her forearm instead in a warrior's grip. Clarke chuckled and turned her hand, taking Lexa's in return.
"I hope that our people can work together, Clarke of the Sky People. I would hate to have misplaced my trust in you."
"You haven't, not in me or my people. I…" She paused, getting stuck on what might happen when the Ark came down. "There are still people coming down, trying to get to safety down here. I can't speak for them, I don't lead them, but my people that are here now? Once I talk to them, they'll listen." I hope.
Clarke smiled again as Lexa's arm fell from the shake. "And Commander? Just Clarke is fine. Especially now when it's just us." Lexa debated for a moment before nodding.
"Then you may call me Alexandria." Clarke had to do a double take at that. What? Clarke shook herself, she'd deal with that later.
"That's a beautiful name." Clarke said with a smile, tilting her head slightly. Lexa would probably credit her blush to the slight chill in the air, but Clarke wasn't going to point it out. "It's a bit long though. Do you mind if I call you Lexa?" She would probably slip up and do it anyway, so having permission would help. Lexa looked at her, eyes narrowed.
"Why?" She asked. Clarke shrugged and shoved her hands into her pockets again.
"It's a lot faster to say if I need to get your attention?" She joked. Clarke looked towards the sunrise and moved her hands to cross them over her chest. "I don't have a good reason, but-"
"Okay." Lexa said. Clarke was surprised and turned back to Lexa who was mirroring her previous stance, looking towards the east. Her cheeks were still red, though now Clarke was wondering if it was actually from the chill. Lexa wasn't really wearing much that would keep her warm.
"We should get back." She suggested. "People will probably be wondering where their Commander is if you're not there when they wake up." Lexa nodded but stood there. They both did for a little while longer before Lexa spoke up.
"Let's go, Clarke, the sun will rise without our company." She started moving away from their little spot and Clarke smiled, nodding even though Lexa couldn't see her. They walked side by side together back into camp and Clarke stayed with Lexa until they were at her tent. The guard looked at her with an impassive face and Clarke looked back at him inquisitively before Lexa drew her attention.
"Thank you." She said quietly. It was her turn to be confused as to what she was being thanked for. Lexa gave her a short smile. "For staying with me this morning. I do not know why you did, why you are staying in this village, but I suspect it has to do with your drawing. Once you learn of its origin, I would like to talk to you more on the subject."
Clarke nodded. "Yeah, of course, definitely." Lexa nodded and went to walk into her tent, turning back when she was just outside of the flaps.
"Have your friends join me for the first meal. It would be a good time to get to know your people, and for yours to know mine." Clarke just stood there with a smile on her face as Lexa made her way into her tent.
She didn't stop smiling as she walked back to where her friends were and even when she got there and found them all awake, it stayed.
"What's with the grin, Griffin?" Raven asked as she walked over. Clarke narrowed her eyes before sticking her tongue out at her.
"Lexa asked us to join her for breakfast. So we're going to go eat with her, is that okay?" Clarke raised an eyebrow and looked towards the three. Octavia returned the look and crossed her arms.
"Oh? So is that where you were this morning? With the Commander?" Clarke was only worried about Octavia's stance before she started speaking. The way she asked was teasing and had Clarke smiling again.
"I couldn't sleep so I went for a walk." She ignored the way Raven's eyes widened at the fact that she'd gone out alone. "I found Lexa out there, just… standing outside of the village." Lincoln cocked his head and furrowed his brow.
"Why was heda out alone?" He asked, worried about his Commander. Clarke smiled softly towards him. He really was loyal, even if his loyalty to Octavia came first, it didn't change the fact that Lexa was his leader. They all cared about her so much, all of them. Even if there were some who didn't listen to her orders, Clarke had a hard time believing that any of the Trigedakru would oppose her position or hurt her purposely. She couldn't speak for the other clans, of course, but Lexa's people loved her.
Gustus who had gone so far as to poison himself so Lexa wouldn't make what he thought of as a mistake. He hadn't poisoned Lexa who would have been saved, he had done it to himself. Anya who had agreed to take Clarke to Lexa with a shaky alliance after they had escaped the Mountain together, an alliance that would help Lexa and the rest of her people inside of the Mountain. Anya who's second died by Clarke's indirect involvement.
"She just couldn't sleep either, Lincoln. She said she liked to think when she had some time for herself. There was a pretty good view from where she was standing, so I understand why she was there and not just in her tent." Lincoln nodded and gave her a small smile.
"There could still be people out there who oppose her." Raven said with a slight frown. Clarke turned to her and put a hand on her forearm.
"We're both fine, Raven. I honestly don't think any of her people would hurt her and… Even now, I think she'd protect me." Her mind supplied an instance before they'd come back, when Clarke had been attacked by Quint and Lexa had thrown a dagger true, straight through his arm.
"Jomp em op en yu jomp ai op." Attack her and you attack me. She looked on, shocked and relieved at the sudden appearance of the Commander.
"He killed my guard." An accusing look and she was looking at her warrior as he tried to defend himself, tried to say that she was the liar.
"Em ste spichen. Ai gonplei kamp raun em en nou mou." She's lying. My fight is only with her. A loud, thunderous call and electricity in the air, tensions running high at the fear instilled with the one, single noise.
"Yu gonplei ste odon." Your fight is over.
"Clarke?" Raven asked, waving a hand in front of her face. Clarke snapped out of the memory and looked at Raven who had a brow arched. "You okay there Clarke? You spaced out for a second and had a stupid grin on your face." Raven smirked and crossed her arms. Clarke mock glared at Raven to try and distract from the redness that was creeping into her cheeks but answered her anyway.
"I uh… I just remembered something that she said before. I didn't know what she'd said then, but I remember now. She told one of her warriors that, if he attacked me, that he was attacking her." Clarke began smiling again and Raven laughed.
"Yeah, that's the smile. Damn Princess, you've got it bad." Clarke huffed and crossed her own arms, pointedly ignoring Octavia who was smiling mischievously.
"So, when do we go to breakfast with the Commander of 12 Clans?" Octavia asked with a false innocence that had Clarke narrowing her eyes again.
"What are you up to?" Octavia held her hands up and shared a look with Raven that Clarke couldn't help but be wary of.
"Who, me? Clarke, I'm wounded. Don't you trust me?" Clarke rolled her eyes before gesturing for them to follow her as she took them towards the Commander's tent.
They stopped when Clarke did, looking at the same guard from only a little while ago.
"We're here to see the Commander." To her surprise he nodded and stepped aside, no hesitation. She smiled in thanks and walked through the tent flaps only to come to a stop, Raven bumping into her at her abrupt halt.
"What the hell, Clarke?" Raven asked, looking around Clarke at whatever had caused her to stop walking. Her stomach grumbled at the sight in front of her and she grinned. "Sweet." She walked around Clarke and moved towards the table that was displaying all sorts of food. Fruits and meats and something that Clarke thought might be cheese.
Octavia and Lincoln walked in behind her, also moving around her like Raven did. Octavia joined Raven at the table with wide eyes as she looked at everything, neither of them really paying any attention to their host who was only watching Clarke who, in turn, was staring back at her.
Lincoln smiled at the two of them before moving over to the food and pointing out some of the best things to Octavia.
Clarke raised an eyebrow at Lexa who was giving Clarke an appraising look and maybe even a slight smile. She walked towards Clarke when her friends were otherwise occupied, their sounds of delight filling the tent.
"This is a lot." Clarke said when Lexa was close enough. Lexa shrugged and stood beside Clarke, turning to watch the three eagerly try little bits of everything.
"We just brought food to the village. Our farmers are always giving us extra, for me I suppose." Clarke smiled softly and looked at Lexa. "But I don't need as much as they give me, especially not when I get meals from every place I go. You have not betrayed my trust yet, so I thought this might be a good place to begin trying to learn about the people I might be allying myself with."
"We haven't really been free that long, there hasn't been an opportunity." Clarke pointed out, but she couldn't help it. She blushed when the words were out though, to her it sounded like she was ungrateful, but she wasn't. She appreciated this, a lot. But Lexa was putting a lot of trust in people she didn't really know.
"I said before, when we met, that it felt like I knew you; like it wasn't the first time that we'd met." Lexa's gaze never left Clarke's friends. "The same way I felt that is the same way that I feel that I can trust you. The same reason I cut your bonds." Lexa looked at her then and Clarke's blush returned.
"I do not think you will betray me, Clarke. I do not think you want to betray me either." Her brows raised slightly, almost daring Clarke to oppose her. But she didn't, of course she was right. Clarke just smiled softly and extended her hand towards the table full of food.
"I think it's about time we joined them, hmm?" Lexa gave her a short smile before she nodded and lead Clarke to the table. Octavia looked up at the two and caught Clarke's eyes, smiling with a full mouth, her eyes shining bright. She swallowed and Clarke laughed lightly.
"Look at it all Clarke!" Rations on the Ark, while grown in labs as organically as they could be, couldn't hold a candle to the foods laid out in front of them. Real food grown in real sunlight and cooked over real fires. Clarke smiled at Octavia and turned to the setting.
Lexa grabbed for a slice of bread and, what looked to Clarke, like a pepper. She held them both to Clarke, who took them with a confused tilt of her head, before taking the same thing herself.
"These two are good together. Roasted pepper rolled in the brown, spiced bread." She then wrapped her bread around the pepper and took a bite before motioning for Clarke to do the same. Clarke looked at the food in her hands before deciding to follow Lexa's lead and then took a bite.
Her eyes widened as the flavour hit her tongue. Sure she had stayed with the grounders in the previous time, but there hadn't been time for things like this, time for trying what the ground had to offer. They had food, but it was easy food like fruits and meats. The bread had been plain, almost like it had been on the Ark, but with a little more flavour added to it. Clarke had thought it the best they had to offer seeing as the Commander was eating it as well.
She was wrong.
The rest of breakfast was the same, Lexa showing Clarke – and the others – little gems that she said were her favourites. Clarke and Octavia and Raven all told Lexa and Lincoln what they had had on the Ark, that it had been grown in artificial sunlight with recycled water and monitored conditions.
"I can see the usefulness of these monitored conditions for growing foods that we cannot during winters, but the others sound terrible. They could not have been the best for taste." Lexa had commented once it was explained what they meant by monitored conditions. Raven idly mentioned how Finn had brought her food for a long time as her mother had sold the food meant specifically for her.
Clarke smiled softly at the expression Lexa adopted at hearing about Raven's mother's neglect of her child. When Octavia explained how she was raised, the look on her face had worsened and she turned to Clarke.
"I do not think I will like those that follow you down from your home if this is what they are like, Clarke."
"They're not all like that." Clarke hurried to explain. "The reason that Octavia grew up like she did was because she was a second child. Not that I'm saying that's a reason, or that I'm excusing the laws the Ark has. They're terrible and they're harsh. But they were necessary, I guess. With the limited supplies we had… there was nothing else for it." Clarke sighed and shrugged. "I would hope that coming down here would change it. It might not change situations like Raven's, and for that I'm sorry, but what happened to Octavia would never happen again. Children wouldn't be regulated like cattle."
The conversation lightened after that, Lexa asking what the three were interested in. Raven had jumped on the topic and started in on the techno-speak, thoroughly losing Lexa within the first couple of sentences. Clarke failed to reign in her laughter at seeing the Commander's normally stoic face so confused like that. Lincoln had looked on with a smirk, idly popping grapes into his mouth as he watched Octavia and the other two speak as freely as they were.
Octavia spoke when she was done laughing, mentioning how since she'd come to the ground she'd been exploring and trying to learn how to fight, how Clarke had been teaching a group of people back at their drop site how to fight with knives. Lexa had turned to Clarke with a raised brow and Clarke explained that it was mostly for hunting but also to defend themselves if ever the need should arise.
Lexa nodded and then turned back to Lincoln and asked if he would like to train Octavia in their ways of combat. Lincoln stood straighter with a shocked expression, stuttering out, "Heda?" She had nodded again and Lincoln took a minute before grinning and saying he would love to.
Clarke stood with them and only gave her input when it was necessary, observing how the others got along. Lexa seemed to take her trust of Clarke and show it to her people or, at least, people that Clarke herself seemed to trust. Clarke weighed that with how, last time, even though Clarke had told her Octavia could be trusted, she had still put a hit on her. Then she thought about how it had been war time and how Lexa had been thinking, about how she thought one of her generals would try and kill her for showing any kind of weakness.
She smiled softly as she watched them as the hours passed with Lexa getting to know them.
Indra had come in at one point and Lexa's openness had disappeared behind the Commander's mask as she spoke with the woman. Octavia stood beside Lincoln, both of whom were given harsh glares from Indra, and Raven stood close to Clarke as she watched the two interact.
She watched with interest how she closed herself off and spoke in curt sentences. She picked up after a minute or so that Lexa was annoyed with Indra and, if she had to guess, Clarke thought it was because of the matter they were brought here.
When Indra had left, Lexa turned back to her guests and Clarke watched as she tried to regain the easy attitude she had had for the most of the morning. When the others were otherwise occupied, Clarke had tried her chances and laid a hand on Lexa's forearm, smiling softly when the Commander looked at her with raised eyebrows.
"Thank you for this, for showing us all the kindness you have." There was a different meaning beneath her thanks, a slight lilt to her voice as she tried to tell Lexa that even if she couldn't get Indra to believe they weren't as dangerous as the woman believed, the Sky People would appreciate what the Commander had done.
Clarke's smile had widened when she saw the softness of the morning back in Lexa's eyes and moved her hand, ignoring the sudden lack of warmth and the immediate feeling of missing it that followed.
Okay guys! So, some Clexa gems for you all in this chapter. Also, Lexa's a bit peeved at her generals, in case you were wondering why she was so curt and clipped with Indra. Especially now that she's seen the picture that Clarke drew and how they brought Clarke to Ton DC. Not that they could have known she was important, but still.
A little bit of a flashback there and Clarke figuring out what Lexa said before about protecting Clarke and taking her protection onto herself. Also some shared knowledge of the Ark with Lexa, opening up to the Commander. Who wouldn't with that amount of food in front of them. Not that that had anything to do with it, nope, nu uh.
Anyways, that's it for this chapter. Questions, comments and concerns are always welcome in the review box, I love hearing what you guys think.
Have a great week and I'll see you guys Wednesday!
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