I honestly think that I stopped breathing. I'm pretty sure they kept talking, I saw their mouths move but i didn't hear any words. I wasn't concentrating on anything but what had just been said.

"Sorry you want me to come and live with you?" I asked, blinking my eyes.

Mum laughed "Of course we do. Madi and i have missed you. We want us all to be together again, like its meant to be"

I turned to Austin "I take it you realise what you are getting yourself into. Soon there will be two more mouths to feed, are you sure you will be happy with two babies coming?"

Austin put his hand on mine "Trust me nothing would make me happier."

It did sound good that I would be with my family again but it didn't feel right to move away from Jack, Jerry, Milton and Jerry. I don't think I would be able to go through with it.

Not knowing what else to say, i didn't say another word. On one side I do want to go and stay with them because at least I have my mum and Madi back but on the other hand I didn't want anything to change. I still had my self concious yapping on about the monster who we definitely can't trust. And I didn't want mum and Madi to go through that again. Austin definitely doesn't need that going on. Nobody does. But at least Jack and I are on our guard.

"Mummy look at the pictures i drawed for Kim" Madi said pointing to her mini gallery on the wall "Look there's Austin, you, Kim and me happy"

I smiled. I had missed everything about my little sister but her pictures the worst. They always made me smile no matter what she drew. "I love every picture that you draw Madi you always make me smile"

She came over and gave me a hug.

"Excuse me"

Madi 's face lit up without turning round.

"Hi princess how are you?" Jack asked bowing to her.

Madi giggled. "Do you do this to Kim?"

Jack shook his head "Not as much as I would like"

"Well do it" Madi said. "Kim love you"

Mum took Madi's hand and pulled her out of the room "I'll get us some cake"

Austin shrugged his shoulders and followed them.

Milton hugged me. "How are you hunny?"

I shrugged my shoulders "I'm bored waiting for the doctor to discharge me"

Jack kissed the top of my head and pulled me into his arms.

I sighed. "I'm scared Jack. I'm scared that he's going to come back and he's going to do something to me. I don't think we can trust that he's going to stay away"

Jack kissed my neck. "We all hope that he will stay away. We'll just have to be on our guard." He sat up "Have you thought about where you are going to live?"

I shook my head.

"Then its sorted come and stay with me" Jack said

I shook my head again "No i need to go home"

"hey isn't that where...i mean won't you have mem...?" Jerry asked.

Jack clapped him over the head. "Jerry!"

I slowly stood up, my hand on my back. The babies were definitely growing bigger and heavier. Every time i moved my whole body hurt.

"Kim what are you doing?" Milton asked.

"I have to pack" I pointed out as Jack gently guided me back to the bed "i have nothing ready"

"No you're not doing it we will" Jack said.

I bit my lip. Jack had his determined, stubborn look. I knew every time that I saw it that it would be pointless to try and argue. I made Jack promise me that he would empty the drawers as I hardly trust Jerry to be sensible enough to go pack my underwear. "Be careful Jerry!" I snapped as he almost knocked over a bunch of flowers that mum had brought yesterday in an expensive vase.

I rubbed my head. It was actually giving me a headache sitting here doing nothing, just watching the guys pack away the few belongings that can actually look at without being reminded of something bad. It felt weird that Jerry was actually helping me.

I stood up and stretched even though it was difficult. I walked slowly around my bed so I could sit down at the window. My stomach churned, but because of everything I couldn't know what was causing it, a bit of everything I suppose. I needed fresh air, I needed to breathe it in and to clear my thoughts so i opened the window as wide as I could.

I traced light patterns on my stomach, daydreaming about what my babies will look like, what their personalities will be...

"I'm bored" Jerry said. Behind me i could hear him switch on the TV.

"...all lining up outside Saint Mary's Hospital to get a picture of Kimberlie Crawford when she is eventually released from the hospital after two weeks of being hidden from the public eye"

I looked down into the street below. I felt sick straight away, thousands of journalists and photographers had lined the streets below waiting for me. Now I didn't know how I could leave the hospital especially if I had questions waiting for me.