Jack

"Come sit down with me" i begged with Kim.

She had been on her feet for two hours just pacing up and down the small hospital room, without saying another word to me.

"Please Kim" i said.

She blinked a couple of times like she was waking up from a dream. "where are the others?" her hand rested on her growing baby belly.

"outside" i said "i wanted to speak to you alone"

"Why?" Kim said.

"You're scared Kim" i pointed out "You won't admit it to anyone else but me"

She sighed, a single tear rolled down her cheek."You are right like always" She came and sat next to me on the edge of the bed. "Jack i honestly don't know what the future holds. I don't know what it means for any of us especially with..."

I knew what she couldn't bring herself to say, the monster, the idiot whatever you wanted to call him. I knew that he will always plague her mind, a never ending nightmare that will always haunt her day and night.

I smiled a smile. A smile that I save only for Kim because i know it can always make her smile. "No matter what I am always going to be here for you"

She rested her head on my shoulder and cried. I put my arms around her and said no more words. No more words needed to be said.

"i'm scared Jack I am really scared" Kim admitted. "i don't want to leave the hospital now but I know i will need to"

Sam slowly opened the door to the side of us and motioned to me. I shook my head.

Sam pulled the door to behind her. Kim is the most important person in my life right now. There is no way I am going to abandon her when she needs me the most.

"Kim would you agree to come back to my house?" i asked. "come stay with me. I don't want you to be alone"

She didn't move not even an inch, she didn't even make a sound. She could have been statue if I couldn't see her breathing.

"Kim one night okay? If you don't feel safe we'll check into a hotel or something.." I said.

She burst into tears, soaking my shirt. Eventually she cried herself to sleep.

I nodded to Sam as I played with Kim's hair gently.

"She's not coping" Sam said.

It wasn't question. It was an observation. Kim was definitely not coping with the babies or with the media or any of this at all. I guess being shut in the hospital was like being on a break from it all. It was almost like a holiday but

without the nice relaxed feel.

I shook my head and kissed the top of her head "No i think she's breaking inside. In truth I think the babies are the only reason that Kim is still here with us"

Sam smiled weakly "Jack the photographers and the journalists have all left now it might be a good idea to make a move, they could come back"

I shrugged my shoulders "i don't have a clue what Kim wants. All she said that she wanted to be safe but I don't know how to make that happen not without knowing where he is"

I thought about it. But one thing stuck in my mind. The happiest I ever saw Kim was when she was in the dojo, having fun being young like she was meant to. Maybe i can remind her of all the fun we used to have together with everyone else at the dojo.

I finally made up my mind. I lifted Kim into my arms and followed Sam out to her unmarked police car. "Kim's staying with me"

I just hope that I have made the right decision and Kim won't hate me for it later. Or at least if she does hate me for it I hope she can forgive me because I honestly don't know what I would do without her.

Kim

Every time i close my eyes he is there. Every time I hear a bang he is there. Even though I know he isn't. It's like my mind likes to play tricks on my mental well being. It's not healthy living in the past mother made that very clear when she left. I only wish that I could have found the same strength to follow her lead so none of this ever happened.

The nightmares wouldn't exist. I would be able to sleep.

But there is a positive i have two healthy babies growing inside me.

I woke up smiling for the first time in a while. The last thing i remember is crying on Jack's shoulder in my hospital room and now I wake up in Jack's bedroom in Jack's comfy bed.

I swear this is the first time that i have woken up happy and without serious backache. The only person I can thank for that is Jack who is sleeping soundly beside me with one arm draped over my shoulder.

I did have the nightmares, ever since it started I have had non stop nightmares but every so often i dream about the babies and how they will turn out.

I need to return there. I need to find peace and there is one thing that I need to do before I can move on with my life.