Disclaimer: I do not own any part of Rosario Vampire. I am merely twisting the creator's vision into my own dream. If the supernatural, sexuality, or violence is offensive to you, then you should not read this.

Chapter 78

"Thank you for telling me this," Moka said to Ruby. "Now you better get back before Tsukune wakes up."

"Yes," Ruby said with a bow.

Moka watched the witch leave before going back in side. She went to her room, careful to close the door without slamming it. Moka was in a cold rage. Ruby had just told her how Tsukune had spent the morning, and why. Ruby was furious. She was angry at Ruby for what she had done with Tsukune. She was angry at Tsukune for what he did with Ruby. She was doubly angry with him because he had been hiding a problem from her for the past week, when not only would she be willing to support him, she would have been happy to be with him in the way he needed. Moka was also angry at herself. She had been around Tsukune all week, and while she could tell something was bothering him, she had not bothered to find out what. Moka had trusted Tsukune to tell her anything, and had forgotten about his pride.

"Tsukune, you stupid…" Moka said, close to tears.

Moka felt miserable. Doubt clawed at her heart. Kurumu had been there for Tsukune when he needed to be pulled away from his responsibilities and made to rest. Ruby had been there for Tsukune when his inner youkai was tearing him apart, and had given herself to him to satisfy his needs. I was true the Kurumu was being a good friend, and that Ruby was only doing her duty as Tsukune's servant, but Moka was Tsukune's girlfriend and lover. She should have been the one to be there for him. Moka made her way over to her bed and sat down. She hugged a pillow to herself and wrestled with her doubts.

Moka loved Tsukune, she knew that to the very center of her being. What she always questioned was if she was worth the devotion that Tsukune showed her. He had stayed at school so she would not have to be alone. He had supported her and done his best to protect her, sometimes even from herself. He had surrendered his humanity, his very life to protect her, and when she had tried to kill him, he had forgiven her. When she had tried to walk away from him, to give him one more chance at a normal, peaceful life, he had come after her. Now that he was firmly trapped in her world, a world of blood and death and violence, she was letting him down.

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Tsukune was embarrassed when he woke up. After his second round with Ruby, the stress from the previous week and the fact that Tsukune had been awake for twenty four hours caught up to Tsukune. He had fallen asleep beside Ruby on his bed. It was the rumbling of his stomach that woke him up in the early afternoon. Tsukune sat up on the bed, remembering very clearly all that he had done with Ruby, and saw that he was still in his under shirt and boxers. To add to Tsukune's sense of embarrassment, his boxers were stiff in the front and he was protruding from them like a turtle. He ground a little as he swung his feet to the floor and stood up. Tsukune could tell what happened in his room by the scent alone. Before he could get to the bedroom door, Tsukune was awake, and he could feel his youki growling.

Tsukune gave a frustrated sigh. After all that he had done with Ruby, his youki was still not back down to normal. Tsukune felt a flash of anger, he had betrayed himself, first by giving in to his desires, and now by still not having his self control back. Tsukune stood in the doorway to his room for a moment, clinching his fists and trying not to growl and punch the wall. It wasn't fair. He didn't want to turn into some kind of depraved ogre. Tsukune held up his wrist and looked at the Holy Lock with a sigh. He wondered if his poorly controlled youki was a sign that it was failing.

"Master?" Ruby said, seeing Tsukune up and awake. She had been checking in on him regularly all day.

"Huh?" Tsukune looked up at her, his train of thought broken for a moment. "Ruby!"

Tsukune' felt his jaw drop and his body clench at the sight of Ruby. His servant was almost dressed in one of his under shirts. She wasn't much shorter then Tsukune, but her body was more slender. If the under shirt covered her modesty, then it was only by the barest margins, and only until she moved quickly in any directions. The effect was more provocative then seeing Ruby naked. Tsukune's raising desires were in conflict with his raising sense of guilt. While Ruby had dressed to display her body for Tsukune to see, she was also displaying the marks Tsukune had left on her skin. There were dark bruises on Ruby's upper arms, neck, and shoulders. One side of Ruby's face was puffy. Tsukune wilted, his shoulders sagging and his head drooping forward. He felt disgusted with himself.

"Master," Ruby approached him. "What's wrong?"

"I'm a filthy pig," Tsukune said.

"Master, no…" Ruby tried to protest. She saw that Tsukune was back sliding into his dark mood again.

Tsukune didn't wait to listen to Ruby. He pushed past her and went into the bathroom. He felt disgusted with himself and just dirty. He stripped down quickly, intending to wash himself. hoping to rid himself of at least some of his filth. As he washed, Tsukune tried to think. He was frustrated that his inner youkai was still restless, even after his indulgence with Ruby, but he was feeling better. If he felt better after being with Ruby, twice, but not all the way back to normal, then perhaps he should have Ruby couple with him until his self control was restored. Ruby admitted that she would be glad to help him.

Tsukune dumped cold water over his head. That was wrong thinking and he knew it. If Ruby really was fine with being Tsukune's play thing, that was all well and good for her, but Tsukune had still been unfaithful to Moka. Tsukune had to take responsibility for his actions.

"Ruby," Tsukune called as he came out of the bathroom.

"Master," Ruby quickly came to his side.

"After I dress," Tsukune said, trying not to look at Ruby's nearly naked body. "I will be going to see Moka." He blew out a sigh. "I need to tell her what happened."

"Master," Ruby said again. "You don't have to…"

"I do have to," Tsukune cut her off as he pulled on clean boxers. "I have to take responsibility."

"But, master," Ruby said. "I already told her."

Tsukune paused in the act of pulling on his shit. He turned and looked at Ruby, his face was flat, but his eyes were hard. He blinked once then very slowly finished putting his shirt on. Ruby was suddenly very scared

"You told Moka," Tsukune said in a dangerously soft voice. "You, told Moka, that you and I…"

"Yes," Ruby said. "I knew that you would want her to know the truth, and you needed to rest."

"Ruby," Tsukune said, still moving slowly as he finished dressing. "I want you to go to your room, and think about what you did very carefully."

"I'm sorry, master…."

"Go," Tsukune said, cutting her off. "And unless I call for you, I don't want to see you until tomorrow."

"Tsukune, I…"

"Go!" Tsukune barked.

"Ep," Ruby jerked in surprise at Tsukune's anger and ran from his bedroom.

Tsukune finished dressing and then headed for the front door. He needed to talk with Moka more then ever. When he opened the door he was surprised to see Moka standing with one hand raised, as if about to knock.

"Moka, I…"

*Smack*

"Tsukune you idiot!" Moka screamed at Tsukune. "What were you thinking?"

"Moka, I…"

*Smack*

"Do I mean that little to you?" Moka planted her hands on Tsukune's chest and pushed, forcing her way into his house, hardly sparing a though to slam the door closed behind her. "Why would you do such a stupid, selfish thing? After all that we have been through, I thought you trusted me. I thought I knew you better then this."

"Moka, I…"

"A week!" Moka screamed. "You let it go for a whole bloody week! Tsukune you can't be stupid like that. You are too important to me. I love you, Tsukune. Please trust me to keep loving you even when there is a problem." Moka stood for a moment, red faced and breathing hard, glaring angrily up at Tsukune. "What have you to say for yourself?"

"I, uhhh," Tsukune was dumbfounded.

"Ruby told me everything she knew," Moka said. Her voice was still hard, but she wasn't screaming any more. "She told me that you have been acting strange all week. I heard that you were having trouble controlling your inner youkai, from her. And then I hear, from her, about how you used her to work off your extra youki." Moka threw herself against Tsukune and hugged him tightly. "Why didn't you tell me, Tsukune?" Her voice was starting to shake.

"Moka," Tsukune tried to talk. He put his arms around her carefully and tried to gather his thoughts. "When it started," Tsukune said. "I didn't think it was anything important. I thought I would feel better in a day or two. I thought I just needed to improve my self control."

"Tsukune, you idiot," Moka said without looking up from Tsukune's chest.

"I'm sorry, Moka," Tsukune said. "If I had come to you, then maybe things would have been different." Tsukune sighed. "I'll see if the Board Chairman can replace the Holy Lock. If he can seal my power so I'm safe to be around others, I'll leave school."

"Tsukune, No…" Moka looked up at him then, here eyes were filled with horror. "Why? Why would you leave?"

"If I stay," Tsukune said. "I will only end up hurting you again." He shook his head "I'm becoming a beast. You were my girlfriend, being with you was foolish, but wonderful. It was something I thought we would do someday, after graduation, when we got married. But it happened and I was so happy to be your lover. But it's all over now."

"Over? Why? Tsukune, what did I do wrong?" Moka started to cry.

"You didn't do anything wrong," Tsukune tried to comfort her. "But how could you want to stay with me after what I did with Ruby? If I don't learn some self control, it's just going to happen again. I'm not worthy," Tsukune said with a sigh. He put his hands on Moka's shoulders and pushed her back from him. "I can't have a place in your life after something like this."

"You made me a promise, Tsukune," Moka said with tears in her eyes.

"I'm not good enough for you," Tsukune said, stepping back from her. "You'll find someone better suited…"

"No. I don't want someone else," Moka tried to reach out and embrace Tsukune again. "I want you."

Tsukune tried to keep Moka back, to hold her off until he could get her to see that he was not good enough for her. He put his hands up and Moka tried to knock them aside. It was a feeble fight of swinging arms, until Tsukune's hand connected with the rosario, knocking it free.

"Tsukune," Inner Moka grabbed for him "What have you done?"

"I'm sorry," Tsukune just deflated. Inner Moka would see the reality. If he was lucky, she would kill him now and save everybody the torment of him turning into a monster. "I failed. I'm not good enough…"

Tsukune told Inner Moka the whole story. He told her what happened that started the problem. He told her what he had tried to do about it. Tsukune told inner Moka what had happened just that morning with Ruby, and how that had not been enough to truly solve the problem, just reduce it temporarily.

"Tsukune you are a fool," Moka scoffed.

"I know that now," Tsukune said. "That's why it's probably best if I left…"

"Quit being a fool," Moka shook Tsukune. "As if I would let you leave… That's not what I'm talking about. You think I don't know what it is to want? To need? You are a part of my world now, Tsukune. You have to let go of your foolish thinking." Moka gave Tsukune a shove that sent him backwards. He fell on the low table, breaking its legs. Moka stood over him.

"You wee a fool by not coming to me as soon as you had a problem," Moka said. "You want us to believe that you will be there for us, but when you need help, you want to take it all on by yourself. That's selfish and stupid both. As for what you did with your slave," Moka sniffed and made a dismissive wave. "That is what slaves are for. I've told you as much before. Beat her or bed her, it doesn't make any difference. She is no more important to me then your pet dog, so long as she knows her place."

"But I…"

"Silence," Moka cut Tsukune off. "Tsukune you lovable fool. You made an oath to me, and I am not going to let you run away just because you feel sorry for yourself. I know what it means to hunger for something, and what I hunger for is you. Stand up."

Tsukune scrambled to his feet. Moka grabbed the front of his shirt with both hands and pulled him close. She licked her lips then gave Tsukune a tight grin.

"Now quit being a fool and think," Moka said. "I am a vampire. I want blood. I need blood. Will you give me your blood Tsukune?"

"Yes," Tsukune answered, turning his head a little to offer his neck.

"Do you understand that any blood will do?" Moka asked. "I could take what I need from anybody, but it is yours that I want. Will you still give it to me?"

"Yes," Tsukune said firmly with a nod

"That's right," Moka said. "Your blood is mine. But what is I want more then your blood. Would you still give me what I want?" She let go of his shirt with one hand and used it to grab his groin firmly. "What if this is what I want. Would you give it to me, Tsukune?"

"Moka, I…"

"Yes or no, Tsukune," Moka demanded. "Will you give me what I want?"

"Yes."

"Then why did you think that I would not give you what you wanted," Moka let go of Tsukune. "Why would I not give you what you need? You gave me your life, Tsukune. I intend to do what I can to make it last a long time."

"But…"

"Tsukune," Moka said. "If I was in danger, would you save me?"

"Yes," Tsukune thought it was a ridiculous question.

"If you had to die to save me, would you still do it?"

"You know I would."

"Do you love me?" Moka asked, her voice and eyes softening a little.

"Yes," Tsukue nodded. "Yes, I love you."

"I love you too, Tsukune," Moka said. "You seam to have forgotten that fact. I love you and I would do anything to help you."

"Moka, I…"

"That's enough," Tsukune

Moka reached out and took hold of Tsukune's shirt again. This time she pulled him close and kissed him deeply. Tsukune was feeling off balance and mentally worn down, so he didn't resist. His inner self, however, responded quickly. Tsukune embraced Moka and kissed her back, even as his inner self grew more restless. Moka could feel the struggle deep within Tsukune. She pushed him back and gave him a hungry, predatory smile.

"Now you are going to give me what I want," Moka said, before pulling Tsukune to her again.

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Ruby huddled on her bed, crying. She was scared and hurt and wasn't sure what to expect next. She had never seen Tsukune so angry. He had acted as if Ruby had betrayed him. She did everything she could for him, and didn't understand why he had been so angry with her. Ruby felt herself tremble as she remembered the look in Tsukune's eyes when he had banished her to her room. His warm, caring brown eyes had turned hard and threatening. The fact that they were his normal, human eyes, free of the streaks or flecks that appeared when his inner youkai was empowering him, made Tsukune's anger all the more scarry.

Tsukune had told Ruby to go to her room and think about what she had done. Ruby thought over her actions over and over again without understanding why Tsukune was upset with her. She thought Tsukune would understand her actions. He was usually so good at understanding other peoples feelings and needs. Ruby realized that she needed to think about what had happened from a different perspective. Right about then she welcomed the mental exercise to help distract her from what was going on in another part of the house.

Ruby had heard Moka come over, and then she heard the yelling. Ruby didn't know what to think, and tried not to listen. And then she felt the flare of youki that told her Moka's seal had been removed. A loud crash from the front room made Ruby jump. It wasn't long after the crash that the voices stopped. When the voices returned, Ruby blushed.

Ruby could tell by the sounds what was happening. She felt a stab of envy, but was glad that Tsukune and Moka were not fighting. To distract her from listening to the couple, Ruby tried to focus her mind on understanding why Tsukune had been so angry. Oddly enough, it was hearing Moka's vocal response to what Tsukune was doing to her that helped Ruby understand.

When Ruby had gone to Moka and told her what had happened, she was thinking in the role of the dutiful servant carrying a message to her master's friend. What she forgot to consider was not only Tsukune's desire to be responsible, but how Moka would see things. Ruby's report to Moka was almost the same thing as telling her that she was an unsatisfying girlfriend and lover. Ruby might as well have been bragging, by being the one to tell Moka what had happened.

Ruby understood what she had done wrong, and why Tsukune was so angry with her. In the morning she would apologize to Tsukune. She wanted to go and apologize right away, well maybe after Tsukune and Moka were done with each other, but Tsukune's order had been to stay out of his sight until tomorrow. Ruby sighed. Tsukune knew her too well sometimes. Sending her to her room was a harsh punishment. Not only would Ruby not be able to see Tsukune, to receive his attention, but she would not be able to serve him. Tsukune had not had anything to eat all day, and Ruby would not be able to cook for him. She was failing her duties as a servant. Ruby decided that was the worst part of it all. She had let Tsukune down with her thoughtlessness, and could only continue to fail in her duties until the morning came.

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Moka found it infinitely entertaining to have Tsukune serving her. She was sitting in a shirt borrowed from Tsukune at the hastily repaired table. The seal lay on the table beside the pot of tea while Tsukune worked in the kitchen. Moka smiled as she enjoyed the situation. Her body felt wonderful, with her own desires satisfied for the time being. Tsukune had also admitted that his inner nature was restored to its resting state. Moka took it as proof that she was a better lover then Tsukune's little slave girl, who had tried twice as hard and had achieved less success. Although Moka would have been willing to continue if Tsukune's stomach had not growled as if he was starving. Tsukune had admitted then that he had not had anything to eat in a day.

Moka had thought that her time with Tsukune was at an end. Her one failing, Moka knew, was her lack of cooking skills. At home, before she had ever put on the seal, servants did all the cooking. Since that time, she never had the interest to force herself into awareness to learn to cook though the outer Moka's eyes. Tsukune had surprised her then by offering to cook a meal for them to share.

The meal was a simple one. Tsukune had made use of the food on hand that he knew how to cook. Tsukune had started with some left-over steamed rice that he suspected was meant to be made into rice balls. With that as a base to work with, he chopped up some vegetables. He found the soy sauce and oil and pulled out a skillet. While the oiled skillet was heating up, Tsukune whisked up some eggs.

Moka had been surprised by Tsukune's cooking skills. Truthfully, she had been expecting instant ramen. Instead, Tsukune had served up a good fried rice. Tsukune and Moka sat together at the rickety table and shared their meal. Moka ate her fill, and noticed as Tsukune downed twice as much. After they ate, Tsukune dutifully cleaned up the table and the dishes.

"Tsukune?" Moka asked as Tsukune sat back down to share tea with her. "How is it that you are so good at housework, when you still make your home in your parents house, and have a servant at school?"

"I didn't have a servant until half way through last year," Tsukune reminded her. "And there were times when I had to cook at home too."

"Oh?" Moka was interested in hearing a little more about Tsukune's life outside of school.

"When the school was closed for repairs," Tsukune said. "My mother's sister-in-law was expecting her first baby. It was a difficult pregnancy towards the end. My mother had to go and stay with her to help out for a couple of weeks. My cousin came by on the weekends, but most of the time it was just my father and I. I thought that if I took the time to learn a little more cooking skills, I would be better able to take care of myself when I came back to school."

"Heh," Moka reached out and flicked Tsukune between the eyebrows. "You're so serious. I love that about you."

"Moka," Tsukune said. "As long as I have you here, could I talk to you about something?"

"What is it?" Moka wondered.

"I was wondering about what to do after we graduate," Tsukune said. "I still don't have any career plans, and its getting a little late to still be making up my mind."

"It is good that you want to plan for the future," Moka said.

"Do you have any suggestions?" Tsukune asked.

"You will have to find your place, Tsukune," Moka said. "There is no easy path if you truly want to succeed."

"That's what I thought," Tsukune sighed.

"I have faith in you," Moka said. "You have survived when other would have perished, and you have thrived when lesser people would have fled."

"Thank you."

"Now," Moka finished her cup of tea. "Are you done being foolish?"

"Yes, Moka," Tsukune nodded.

"And if this ever happens again, you will come to us for help, wont you?"

"Yes," Tsukune said. "I was stupid to keep something so important to myself."

"Good," Moka stood up. "Let's go."

"Go where?" Tsukune asked, rising to his feet."

"To your bedroom," Moka said, grabbing the front of his shirt. "I'm not done taking what I want from you." Moka pulled Tsukune behind her as she headed for the hall.