hope this makes up for that delay on chapter 5

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warning this chapter gets really intense

When I opened the door to Dimitri's room I could tell if I was Happy or upset to see what I did. There was a desk with a computer on it with two bookshelves on either side of it. On the other was there was a twin bed and a nightstand. I wanted so badly to come in here to find an office, but there was a bed which meant Dimitri didn't sleep with Tasha. He slept here on his own. There was a dresser sitting at the foot of his bed and a coat stand that at the moment had nothing on it. It was probably for his duster he always wore. I closed the door as quietly as I could and returned to the living room.

Mine mind was buzzing with explanations for why Dimitri would need a room separate from Tasha's. I heard the bathroom door open. I realized I had subconsciously put my hand over my flat subconsciously. Lissa was in a knee length white sundress with her hair up in a ponytail and nude pink lip gloss. She was beautiful.

"Do you like it Rose or should I put on something a little fancier?" She looked unsure of herself.

"You look stunning the way you are. I don't think I could compete." She shook her head quickly as she took my hand and sat on the mattress next to the suitcase. She took the only dress I packed out and handed it to me. It was a strapless violet maxi dress that had a slit that went up to my thigh. She pointed to the bathroom.

"Go put it on, and I'll do your hair and makeup once you're done." Lissa loved dressing me up. I didn't mind, I was happy to spend time with her. I walked into the bathroom and slipped the dress on. I looked at myself in the mirror and saw dark circles under my eyes. I was having trouble sleeping since the attack happened, and since I've been crying so much lately I think it made it worse. I hoped Lissa could cover it with makeup. I didn't want to look like all I've done since Dimitri left was be and antisocial insomniac, even if it was true.

I opened the door and Lissa came over and started to comb my hair. She put my hair in a bun like she had on the plane to expose my new promise mark. She went back over to her suitcase and brought over her makeup bag. When she finished she handed me a mirror and asked what it thought.

The dark circles under my eye were gone and my cheeks appeared to have a healthy glow to them. She did a great job as always. We walked into the living room and sat on the mattresses as Christian came back downstairs. He sat next to Lissa and looked at me.

"Wow Rose, now that you don't look like your part of the race of evil undead vampires you might get to have some fun tonight." Lyssa punched him in the arm.

"Oh don't listen to him you look gorgeous." She was quietly for a moment. "But Rose you can't have too much fun. I don't think you're supposed to drink while you're pregnant." She seemed embarrassed after she said that.

"You guys don't worry about me, I don't think I could have fun, sober or not, if Dimitri is there." I sighed. "I'm going to have to tell him. I'm just worried he won't believe me. I don't want my kid to grow up not knowing who their father is." I felt a familiar burning behind my eyes. I blinked back tears. "I'm not expecting him to drop everything to help me, I don't want his help but I just I don't know. He should know." Lissa took my hands.

"Try not to worry about him. You can tell him when you're ready. And you're right you don't need him you've got us." Christian spoke in a more serious tone.

"You've got us your kid is going to have lots of people who love it." He went back to his usual sarcastic tone. "Unless you get knocked up again then I'm out, that's too much work." I smiled at that. I heard the door open. Tasha walked in and greeted us. I stood up.

"Rose, I never got welcome you at the airport, so welcome." She directed her attention to Lyssa and I "I'm sure Christian has showed you two girls around. Just make yourselves comfortable. I'm going to go freshen up but we'll be out of here before 8:00." She turned around and walked up the stairs.

Tasha was always nice to me but I still hated her. She took Dimitri away from me. It wasn't fair to blame her, she gave him the opportunity and he took it. After Tasha went upstairs Lyssa and Christian went into the kitchen. Before she was out of sight Lissa turned around.

"I'll be right back Rose, Christian and I need to call for a feeding appointment tomorrow." Right now as a transition period when all the feeders contracts were being renewed of they were getting there memory erased before they were sent home. If you don't schedule you can't feed unless it's an emergency since the feeders are so limited. "Also Christian wants to know if you want to get some food before we go." I gave her a smile.

"Alright, tell Christian I said thanks but I'm okay." She nodded and disappeared into the kitchen. I stared at the TV but I wasn't absorbing anything I was seeing. I was deep in thought. It was just then I was full grasping what me being pregnant meant. I felt like I was about to cry. I can't be a mom. I would be the worst mother in the world, not to mention the horrible example my own mother left. I would probably get my kid killed before it could even walk. My eyes were burning and they were threatening to spill the tears I've been holding back since I arrived at court. One tear escaped and it rolled down my cheek as I heard the front door close. I quickly wiped the tear on my face when I saw Dimitri standing at the doorway. I couldn't read his expression.

"Hello Rose." He paused the silence made wish the earth would swallow me up right then and there. I turned toward the TV and wiped my cheek again. "Are you okay?" He didn't sound too concerned. I sounded like a stone hard bitch when I snapped back at him.

"No I'm not okay, but you don't care and I don't want your help!" I was as shocked as he was. I don't know where that came from. I was surprised no one else in the house heard me. He looked at me wide eyed for a moment before he regained his composure. He walked into his room and closed the door behind him. I felt horrible but he deserved that. After what he did to me, a hormonal bitchy outburst was tiny in comparison. I turned back toward the TV trying to keep myself from thinking, but I couldn't and I lost it.

Lissa and Christian came back into the living room smiling until they saw me. Christian just stopped where he was and watched me, I didn't expect much more out of him. Lissa on the other hand practically ran to me. I was lucky Lissa used water proof makeup because otherwise it would have been all over my face. She sat next to me on the mattress and pulled me in for a hug. My own emotions were drowning everything that was coming through the bond. She kept asking me what happened and what was the matter but I couldn't answer.

My sobs slowly faded to little streams of tears that silently slide down my cheeks. Lissa looked at me warily. She took a tissue out of her pocket and wiped my eyes with it. "Rose, please tell me what's happened." I choked on my words

"I-I-I can't…" I was cut off. Dimitri had opened his bedroom door. Lissa turned to him. I was beginning to see the darkness in Lyssa was growing, quickly. I couldn't take it away from her my thoughts were a jumbled mess and I couldn't focus. Lissa's expression darkened.

"WHAT THE FUCK. How many time are you going to hurt her?!" She was standing up but I pulled at her wrist. Lissa shook my hand away and started to walk toward Dimitri. "FIRST YOU LEAVE HER AND NOW YOU DO THIS TO HER!" Dimitri looked confused.

"Princess, I-I nev-didn't do anything to Rose." Lissa looked even more furious than before. Christian stepped in front of her.

"Lissa Calm Down. You Need To Calm Down." Lissa wouldn't listen to him. I tried calling her name but no sound would come out of my mouth.

"DIDN'T DO ANYTHING. THAT IS THE BIGGEST LIE I'VE EVER HEARD." Tasha came running down the stairs. She stood in the doorway unsure of what she should do. I focused on the darkness in Lissa and tried so hard to take away but I couldn't. "YOU WERE HER MENTOR AND YOU JUST TOOK OFF WITHOUT A WORD. SHE WAS CRYING ALL THE TIME. SHE WOULDN'T TO TALK TO ANYONE OR EAT ANYTHING AND YOU JUST LEFT." I wanted to grab Lissa but when I stood up I fell to my knees and saw my vision darkening. I held my head in my hands and I felt someone put their hand on my shoulder. I looked and saw Christian. He knelt down beside me.

"Rose what's wrong?" He seemed a little frantic.

"He didn't do anything, I need to tell Lissa" He shook his head.

"What's wrong with you? You're so pale and shaky you look like you're about to pass out." I didn't know what was wrong with me, but that didn't matter right now I needed to get Lyssa's attention. She was still yelling about something. I felt a twisting pain in my stomach and I yelped in pain. It must have been loud because Lissa and Dimitri both turned to face me. All the color and drained from Lissa's face. She looked horrified. She knelt next to me, she was fumbling trying to figure out what was wrong with me. The pain in my head wasn't going away. I managed to whisper to her.

"He didn't do it" before I was sobbing again. My head was pounding but the pain in my stomach went away. She pulled me close to her.

"Rose I'm so sorry, it's going to be alright. We can stay home tonight we don't have to go out with the others. We will figure this out I promise." I couldn't see her face but I could tell she was about to start crying. I pulled myself together. I felt a little dizzy but the pain in my head was going away.

"It-It's okay Lissa, I want to go out. If I stay here and think too much I would go insane." Christian walked in and handed me water bottle. "Thanks, do you still want to go out?" Christian looked at me for a moment to see if I was joking he was cautious with his next statement.

"Only if you want to, too much stress might not be good for- uh- well. Maybe you should just go to sleep early tonight." I shook my head.

"I'm fine I promise, if I need to I can go home early but if I just stay here I'm going to lose my mind." He gave me a week smile and walked into the kitchen. I turned to Lissa again.

"Do I still look okay?" She gave me a sweet smile and nodded.

"Your makeup is a little faded but not smudged, but don't worry you still look beautiful." I stood up, slowly this time. Lissa stood up as Christian, came in followed by Tasha and Dimitri. Tasha said in a fake cheery voice.

"Well ladies, let's go enjoy your first night at court. You know as much as I hate the snobs that live here there are some nice people. I we see anyone I know I will be sure to introduce you." Dimitri wouldn't stop looking at me. He looked very concerned and confused. Was I wrong earlier to think he dint care at all? Imentall shook my head and forced the thought out of my mind.

Lissa put her arm around me and gave me a reassuring squeeze. We all walked out in awkward silence. I knew this was going to be a long night.

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