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Chapter 31 - Sarah Redemption.
It was cloudy...
The sky was completely grey, yesterday was sunny and warm, today it was cloudy, grey and cold...it seems the sky can totally tell just how miserable I feel, I was right here, sitting in an old well inside of a park on a cloudy day, there were a few pedestrians walking here and there, but they were in a hurry, they wanted to finish their business and hide from the incoming rain, yes, it was going to rain, I can smell it in the environment, I grew up smelling the same scent, back when I was a child and my problems were more simple.
The Bilgewater Union, more commonly known as simply Bilgewater, wasn't such a good place to be risen, I remember my father always locking the door and holding a gun every time he went to sleep, I remember my mother making guns for a living and I also remember the day when everything changed, he came looking for the powerful guns my mother crafted in her workshop, he said he would come for them later, a year after that he came back, not as the little man I first saw, he had become a ruthless monster with no regards to everyone else, he wanted the guns without paying a single coin, my mother thought otherwise, in the end, everything went to hell, he killed my mother, my father, he shot me and then, just to spite the memory of my mother, he destroyed the guns and burnt the workshop where my mother spent half of her life, building weapons and creating a legacy, I lost everything just because a pirate didn't want to pay a few coins for a pair of stupid weapons.
I still remember the heat in my face, the amber in front of my eyes, the sharp pain in my chest and the corpses of my parents, but I lived to fight another day, I lived so I could destroy the son of a bitch who took everything away for me, I lived to become a force of nature, I lived to become Miss Fortune.
For years I planned my revenge, I killed, I hunted, I lie, I deceived, I betrayed, I made them fall for me, I made them remember my name, I made them shiver in fear, I made them dig their own graves, and pull the trigger on their own guns...I am not a saint, my hands are as dirty as theirs, my soul is tainted with the blood of my enemies, my nights are filled with nightmares and my days are simple colorblind dreams where nothing seems to matter, I lost everything...and for my revenge, I was willing to do anything.
Certainly, I don't have many good memories of Bilgewater, but it's the place I was born, it's not patriotism, I simply want a better future for the coming generations, I know there is still hope for the isles filled with pirates and fishermen, but the future looks bleak, I might as well end their suffering before it even starts, but I don't want to give up just yet, I want to believe there is something more for me than just the destiny for a bounty hunter...hanged in the middle of the streets of Bilgewater...funny thing...I think I did that one time...although I can't remember anything about that poor bastard...he wasn't that important, I suppose...
-Hey, baby, Wanna have a good time?
Are you serious? Of all the things that could have appeared before me...it had to be a bunch of chaste fools trying to score on a lonely woman sitting in a well...I'm not surprised, city boys are idiots after all, Piltovians live their lives without giving a damn about the outer world, in this pitiful city made of steel and broken gears they live in luxuries getting fat and enjoying the easy life...I despise them...simply because I had an awful life and they didn't...I was a bitch...but at least I knew how to be a good bitch...
-Sorry, boys, I'm waiting for my man - I said with the most stupid tone I could muster.
-Aw! He left such a fine woman by herself?! come one, babe, come with us, I promise we will satisfy you better than him.
For Nagakabouros sake! Do I really have to go through this? It's pretty easy actually, I just have to find a bigger man than them, make puppy eyes and ditch him once I'm far away from them...If only I had Shock and Awe with me...
The name of my weapons only brought burrowed frustrations and traumas to my mind...I knew Bilgewater wouldn't survive another Harrowing, we were extremely weak thanks to our internal quarrels, we need help, I was so desperate I would lick anybody's ass in order to get a few more guns and soldiers, but there were no viable options, Ionia was out of the question; after the fiasco with Noxus even my head had a bounty, Demacia was a lost cause; Last time I tried to reason with them one of the generals ran after me spinning like a mad ballerina yelling justice and other idiocies, I was currently trying to gain the favor of Freljord; but the queen is a psycho so I'm never making business with her ever again...unlesss I want to be decapitated by her guillotine...
There is a saying around Valoran we all learn to respect, one way or another, blunt, but effective; "never trust in a Zaunite or a Noxian"...I was an idiot and didn't listen...and now once again...I lost everything...and all because of...him...
-Peace...
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You got to be kidding me...
Behind these goons he was standing there, making some weird peace pose over his eyes, he was wearing the same clothes again, a white shirt, a light blue hoodie, a pair of black pants and light blue sneakers, he wore that every day, he was a strange individual, his natural chocolate like skin only highlighted his unusual golden hair braided in a ponytail with a jade headband, but the most redeeming thing about him were his eyes, shiny violet pupils surrounded by a pure darkness...those eyes couldn't belong to a human...well, he wasn't a human after all...
-UH?! - One of the goons walked towards him and tried to look down on him...the goon tried since he was pretty tall - Do you have a problem, Kiddo?!
-High levels of hostility - He said spreading his arms at the sides - Proceeding to the next level - He then spins in a circle - Weird...this was not supposed to happen - He tilts his head to look at the goon - I messed up, I apologize, let me start again - He once again stands in front of the goon with the peace pose - Yay, peace, yay, pe...
-ARE YOU PICKING A FIGHT WITH US, UH?!
Well, it was to be expected, normally he acted like a curious child chasing after shiny things...but today he was acting strange...I mean, he is a weirdo...but not this kind of weirdo...something must have happened...probably something related to that night...
And here comes my misery again...
Fucking hell...
-Boys, you have to forgive him - I intervene - He is not exactly normal.
-A friend of yours?
-More like a responsibility...
-Well, tell him to go fuck himself...
I sighed in frustration, how do I deal with this?
-Excuse me, bro, are you molesting Sarah? - he asks one of the goons.
-And what if we are? - The goon taunts flexing his muscles...for a midget, he seems rather strong...maybe I should go with them and have some...
-OH, DARN!
From nowhere he slaps the goon into the ground as if the goon was nothing but a piece of plastic, then he proceeds to look at the other goons wickedly.
-OH, DARN! OH, DARN! OH, DARN!
It was a slaughter, those sturdy looking teenagers were completely destroyed by a crazy man slapping them into the ground as he yelled something stupid, I could only watch in complete shock, wondering if I had finally lost my mind...No...to be honest, this isn't the weirdest thing I've seen...there was this one time where I found myself trading a talking flying squid for a mermaid ...now that was weird...Still, those goons seemed quite wounded...I better stop him before he kills someone...
-VEL'KOZ!
He stopped and slowing turned towards me, he then tilted his head little...and once again did that weird peace pose...
-Yay! Peace! Yay!
-Whatever...could you please stop hitting those fools?
-But...they were molesting you... - He explained tilting his head again...okay, a human neck is not supposed to tilt that way.
-That may be right, but you are going to kill those goons if you continue...
Vel'Koz starred at me for a moment and then he nodded.
-I understand - He said quietly - I will properly apologize to this...goons - He walked towards one of them who was just getting up - Dear goon, I apologize for my beha...
-FUCK YOU!
I heard a loud smack and I saw his glasses fall to the ground, although his head was slightly tilted to the side thanks to the punch, he seemed completely all right, almost as if he didn't feel the impact, he simply stared at the goon with cold indifference.
-WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU? - The goon said backing off, scared - I'LL FUCK YOU UP! - he said taking off a shiv out of his pocket.
Well, I had enough... I had enough of this retards... I had enough of my misery... I had enough of this world... But above everything else... I had enough of him... I had enough of those scary eyes, of his naive attitude... I had enough of him... I rushed towards the goon, grabbed his hand and dislocated his whole arm in a single swift move... I was an expert at this, I did it many times back in Bilgewater.
The goon screamed in sheer pain, clutching his limp arm, trying uselessly to fix his arm, the other idiots stared at me in horror, I was used to it and didn't bother me, what is a mere bug to a monster like me? The idiots felt my growing wrath and left without looking back... And once again I was alone in a grey sky...or that's what I wanted to believe.
-That was hardcore.
I sighed in frustration, he was just there, staring at me with his blank expression, I simply couldn't figure him out... At first, I thought he was a foolish monster, but he proved me wrong... He was something else... But I couldn't tell what... And that scared me.
-What are you doing here? - I said picking up his glasses and placing them on his face - Piltover is a dangerous place if you are careless - I couldn't help but caress the place where he was punched - does it hurt? - I asked concerned.
-No - he shrugged - I didn't even realize he attacked me, he was just that weak.
I couldn't help it... I couldn't stop looking into those inhuman eyes of his... I couldn't help but get lost in their mysterious energy... He was a monster... A monster of the void disguised as a human... But I couldn't help it... It was too late for me... I've been corrupted by him... And there was no way out for me... I was a fool...
I sat once again in the well under a grey sky and the memories flooded my mind again...
There's a saying everyone in Valoran learns one way or another...
Never trust a Zaunite or a Noxian...
I was desperate... I needed allies... I trusted that bitch... All I had to do was pull the trigger... All I had to do is betray him... I did it... No loose ends... That was her answer... She threw me in a fucking cell like an animal... But that wasn't the tragedy... My crew and I managed to escape...
But...
They left me behind...
Just like I left you in the middle of the sea...
I couldn' t help but laugh... They betrayed me for you... They betrayed me for a monster... Then... Just what am I suppose to be then?... I had no hope... They sold me as a slave to Zaun... But I didn't care... I was determined to live... I was determined to survive... But I was weak and alone... Just like that night when he took everything away from me... I silently waited for my end...
But you came to me again...
Despite everything, I've done to you... You saved me... A monster like you saved and forgave me... Then... What am I suppose to be?
-Are you okay? - he patted my head.
Ah... He is looking at me... Worried about me... I can't stop the happiness in my heart... This is what I wanted...
I remember walking in the streets of Piltover, looking for a bar... And I saw him with the enforcer... He was smiling at her... That night, the alcohol tasted like nothing...
I remember being invited by a handsome man... I don't remember his face but I remember an amusement park... I saw him with the Starchild... He was smiling at her... I ditched the guy and walked aimlessly into the city...
I remember meeting Cho'Gath in the city, he invited me to a party... I accepted... He was rich and if I was in his good and drunk side he would probably buy me a new ship... I saw him dance with his wife... He smiled at her... I remember going to the bathroom... I couldn't tell... The tears were clouding my sight...
I didn't care about the ship... I didn't care about Bilgewater... All I wanted was his smile... I wanted him to smile at me... I wanted him to say kind words to me... I wanted to be part of his world... But I had no right... I simply had no right to stand by his side...
-I'm fine - I said trying to smile - I'm just a bit sick...
-Can I help you?
-No... No one can help me...
I wanted his smile... But the guilt was eating my heart... On that night I just wanted to be alone... I went to the rooftop... And he was there with his wife... I couldn't help but stay and listen to them... I should have run away... I watched as he tried to convey his feelings one last time... And then she was gone... He fell to the ground and cried in pain... Calling for her... And all I could do was think... He was feeling miserable... He was weak... So maybe I could... Take him for myself... And force him to be mine...
If he is a monster... What exactly am I?
The sound of a thunder stopped my train of thoughts, once again I was right about the rain... it's the only thing I'm right...
-Hey, I think we should find some cover it's going to... - But he wasn't paying attention, he was looking at the sky, his eyes filled with excitement - Hey...Are you okay?
A lighting illuminated the sky followed by the roar of a thunder, small drops of cold water began to fall in my head... He closed his eyes and left the rain to bathe his being, his always cold expression slowly turned into a smile... He was enjoying the rain... He rose his hands into the sky, trying to reach it... And before I knew it he was running around... Laughing like a child... He was laughing...
-It's amazing! - He said approaching me - I never knew the rain felt this way, It's cold! - He laughed - Come on, Sarah! - He said pulling me away from the well.
He took me to the center of the park, running and spinning around me as he laughed and enjoyed the rain... He was my wave, my shark, my demon in the dark, the blue tide pulling under his mighty grasp... My soul, my heart... He was pulling everything apart... He was destroying my barriers... He was walking in the clouds of the unknown... I couldn't help but chase after him... He would never be mine... He would never say those kinds words for me... But in these fleeting moment, it's just him and me... And that smile is mine... Just for now... But that's enough for me...
I pulled him into a hug, he seemed quite shocked but he didn't refuse my advances... He was being kind to me... I'm sorry... I'm sorry but... I'm just that kind of woman... I looked at his eyes, the smile still on his lips... I'm so sorry... But I can't help it...
I just love you that much...
-Sarah - I heard him say in the rain - What's wro...
I kissed him, my eyes were closed so I couldn't see his reaction, for a blissful moment it was just us, in this water prison, the gravity disappeared beneath my feet and I felt like a cloud in the air... He became my everything... I'm so sorry... I know I shouldn't have done this... But I can't help it...
If he is a monster...What exactly am I?
I dared to open my eyes... he was looking at me shocked... But he wasn't pulling away... He was kind after all... Or maybe he just didn't know what to do... And once again I was back... standing in the world outside... caught up in a love landslide... Stuck still and colorblind... hoping for a black and white... But he was here with me... allowing me one last dream... I felt his arms close around my waist...
He was kind after all...
I don't need your kind words... I don't need a date in the amusement park... I don't need a ring in my finger... I just need to be by your side... I just need to know you'll be there to smile for me...
I just need to know...
Are you gonna be my love?
If he is a monster... What exactly am I?
I know the answer...
Standing in the world outside...
I'm a shark in a love landslide...
Preying on a shining star...
Wondering if you will ever be mine...
Shark - Oh Wonder.