Lissa took a long breath in before looking at me. "Spirit, when I exploded at Tasha, you, you were hurt, your baby could've been hurt. So I wanted to stop the spirit." Me, of course she did it for me.

"You didn't have to do that for me, or my baby. You know me and Dimitri kick ass, this kid can take it." I was trying to make her feel better, but I didn't even get a smile out of her.

"No Rose, no more chances, you've given up your whole life for me I'm not going to do that to your baby too." I felt so bad because she felt guilty and I couldn't make a good argument. I agreed. They come first.

"If you want to stop spirit while I'm pregnant, please do it with anti-depressants." I hated asking her that. She loathes those pills, so much she preferred insanity to it.

"But I need the spirit sometimes." She didn't elaborate but I already knew. She was using spirit sometimes, she drank with Adrian to stop the after affects, for me.

"What are you using spirit on now?" I was trying to keep my calm but it was so hard. I noticed Dimitri looking at the two of us now. He wasn't thinking anymore, he was focused on our conversation.

"Christian" Lissa paused for a while. "He's still sad about Tasha. When I hold his hand sometimes I use a little spirit to make him feel happier. It really works he feels better for most of the day after that. He hates her so much, she took away the last of his family. Christian liked Tasha, and he is so lonely all the time and I" I've heard enough.

"No Lissa, this is not your problem to fix. Christian can do exactly what you did the first time you went on those pills. He can talk to a PROFESSIONAL and fix himself just like you did." Lissa looked even more upset.

"That wasn't fixing the problem that made it worse for me!" A grabbed both of her shoulders.

"It won't be like that all for Christian! Spirit is what made it bad for you, he can do this, please stop." I felt tears well up in my eyes again and the look of Lissa's face showed she was extremely conflicted. She was still hung over but I felt the jumble of emotions in the bond having a war inside her head. Then I seen Lissa look up. I turned slowly making sure to not make myself dizzy. Christian stood leaning in the door frame. He slowly walked over and knelt in front of Lissa. He took a moment before he spoke.

"You did it for me." It wasn't really a question, he continued. "Lissa stop, I'll go get help, I can make myself better. It's just taking more time then I wanted it to. He took both her hands and kissed her on the forehead. "Please stop, please stop." What came out of his mouth next made my jaw drop. "I really want to see a tiny Rose and Dimitri hybrid cause havoc all over court." I heard Dimitri chuckle and I looked at him with my mouth still wide open.

"I don't believe it did I just hear inferno say he wants to see a little version of me. That's almost a compliment." Christian shook his head laughing a little. Lissa was at least kind of smiling. Dimitri came over and helped me stand up.

"Rose I hate to be the one to bring this up again, must Lissa has been drinking for almost 2 months. Her hangover can't explain what happened to you today." All progress Lissa had made vanished.

"What happened to Rose today?" Lissa sounded very frantic.

"Nothing, nothing" I tried to brush it off but Dimitri was not having it. He pulled me a little closer to him.

"She went to get you at Adrian's but Christian did instead. Rose told Christian she was coming home, but she didn't. I found her sleeping on a bench in the corner of one of the gyms she goes to."

"I was just tired, it's okay Dimitri." He groaned a little.

"I carried her to the car, she slept all the way to the doctors office and she slept walked into the doctors office. She started to wake up and she was okay for a while." Lissa started looking relieved that I was just sleeping and I wasn't hit by a bus or something.

"When her appointment was almost over her eyes rolled back and she started kicking and screaming like when she was on the airplane a few months ago." What, why didn't anyone tell me that.

"No I wasn't it was quiet and dark, I was floating on nothingness it wasn't anything like that. And the wards are up that couldn't of happened again." Now I was frantic. I didn't not want everyone thinking I was crazy again. That's how I ended up in this mess. I looked down and rubbed my stomach. I felt nauseous, I pushed Dimitri away and sat in the armchair. It didn't really help. I looked outside and seen the sun setting again. The whole day has almost gone by, I need to eat.

"Who wants breakfast?" Dimitri took my hand again and I heaved myself up. I may have only gained about 15 pounds but it was enough to make even walking awkward. Everyone followed me into the kitchen. I looked into the fridge and see a thawing chicken I groaned. "Who thought chicken was a good idea?" Dimitri smirked.

"Me, doctors orders, eat wholesome food." Christian chimed in.

"I know what I can do with that and he took the chicken out of the fridge and sat it on the counter. He went to the pantry and a moment later came back with an armful of ingredients. "Give me a half an hour. I took a muffin off the little display Lissa made and went back into the living room. Lissa parked her self on a barstool and started talking to Christian as he started preparing breakfast. I sat on the love seat and watched the sun set completely as I finish the muffin. Dimitri sat next to me. I felt his presence but he didn't touch me or say anything for a while.

"I think you should ask the princess to go back on her medications." I turned from the window and looked at him hoping a horrible punchline was coming.

"You're not being serious are you comrade!" I wasn't really looking for an answer. He did response ignoring my sarcasm.

"I've been worried about you all day Roza, our baby could be in danger. Just for a few months, and she's at court she won't need the magic while we are here." I was angry, he just saw how much pain this topic brought Lissa and he was thinking about me. Guilting me about this stupid baby. I gritted my teeth.

"They come first." Dimitri took both of my hands but I pulled them away and turned back toward the window. He turned me back toward him and for the first time I noticed how exhausted he looked. "Have you been up all night, day night, wait.

This nocturnal schedule still confused me after living here all summer. Not to mention years of it at St. Vlads. I haven't been very good at keep in a sleeping schedule I've been taking more naps than full nights of sleep. I've been getting better at it now that my morning sickness was gone. I've been free of that curse for just over a month now. Except right now I still feel something unsettling in the pit of my stomach. I thought I was hungry, but I guess nausea is just something I'll have to deal with for a little while longer.

"I've had enough sleep." I wasn't fully processing Dimtiri's words because I was just inwardly dreading more morning sickness and feeling sorry for myself. "Please just think about it Rose I want what's best for our family." Those words made me feel safe, I ignored all problems at hand and thought about Dimtiri's last words.

"If it makes you feel better comrade." Then I heard a ringing coming from his duster pocket. Dimitri pulled out a flip phone, answered, and turned away from me slightly.

"Guardian Belikov speaking."

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