When I woke up Lissa and my mother where sitting at the little chair I was supposed to say something so they knew I was awake but I decided I would rather just listen to their conversation. It looked like my mother was scolding Lissa.

"You said you weren't going to do that again. You said you were sober and we believed you!" Lissa looked like she was crying. "Vasalisa if there is something wrong we can help you but don't do this. Rose is my daughter, and I've never been there for her! You know how destructive she is. Look at her situation right now, and now look at Rose. She's grown up so much. When was the last time she's done anything stupid?" Ignoring the reason I'm probably here, I haven't really been doing anything with my life, and I've been miserable. Lissa didn't say anything to my mother. I rolled over so I was facing both of them. They looked at me and sobered up whatever expression was on their face. Lissa didn't move but my mother came up to me. She cupped my face in her hands. "Don't do anything dumb like that again."

"Where's Adrian and Eddie?" I was surprised at the amount of attitude I said that with but I wasn't mad at myself. My mother looked a little stunned but answered anyways.

"Eddie had to go back to work but he said he would stop by later. Adrian is in the waiting room with Dimitri. He was very insistent saying you wouldn't want to see Dimitri." My mother and Lissa looked very confused, but I made a mental note to that Adrian later. "Dimitri seemed to agree for some reason..." She trailed off and Lissa stood up and grabbed my hand. I open the bond and see a mix of confusion and anger. Lissa was angry at herself but she didn't seem to understand something. I completely shocked both of them when I asked.

"Can it talk to Adrian." I cleared my throat. "Alone please."Lissa and my mother looked at me puzzled. "Please." They both stepped out of the room wordlessly, and a few moments later Adrian came in.

"How are you feeling Rose?" Adrian came over and took my hand. I pulled it away, not to be mean just to show my intentions. "Has us a bit worried, letting you blood pressure go up so quickly." That's what happened? I decided to ask about that earlier.

"Thank you, for keeping Dimtiri out." Adrian shrugged.

"Honestly wasn't that hard, he didn't argue at all. He just sat there all sad. It was really a horrible thing to watch." I sighed.

"I'm going to have to talk to him soon." I started to feel nervous. Adrian pulled up a chair. "I don't know what I would even say to him." I know what I am thinking but I don't know how I would tell him." Adrian scooted closer.

"just start telling me what's going through you head and we'll go from there." I started rambling all the things that came to mind until felt drained. "Oh well this is tricky, I understand why you can't forgive him, but you have to try. Rose, you can't help it you love him but, if you can't forgive him your going to be miserable." I sat for while in silence, absolutely horrified at the honest truth just dumped on me. He was right and I hated it.

I spent the past 6 months telling myself if I force myself to, I can get over him. I wouldn't love him anymore, but no. Dimitri is my freaking soulmate whether I like it or not. "Adrian can I you get him." Adrian looked at me for a second quizzically. He nodded his head and left. I watched Dimitri walk into my room at the exact time I realized I had no clue what to say to him."Hello Rose." He came to the side of my bed but he didn't touch me. Dimitri seemed to look scared. I didn't say anything for a while so he continued. "Adrian said you wanted to see me." I sat quiet for a while longer. When Dimitri looked like he was about to leave I cleared my throat.

"yes." He looked at me silently asking for me to continue. "I did, but I have no idea what to say to you, I just kinda feel like I need to tell you something." Dimitri looked at me confused and a little sad.

"Why don't you just tell me what you are thinking." I blurted out exactly what I was thinking.

"I love you, and I don't know how to forgive you, but I want to, but I can't, because, because well I can't, and it's annoying, and getting in the way of..." I couldn't finish my train of thought. Because Dimitri interrupted me with a hug. It was a little awkward because of the needles in my arms and my baby bump but it felt much different than the one from last night. It felt safe.

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