When I woke up I felt Dimitri still holding me but I felt a headache. I blinked few times, I was once again seeing the little black shapes in the corners of my vision. I became aware of the barrier I put up, and once again tried to restore it. I got up and heard Dimitri call my name. I turned to face him. He looked at me for a moment before, I shook my head to reassure him everything was fine.

I went to the bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror. Everything was definitely not fine. I was pale and covered in a cold sweat. The darkness in my peripheral vision wasn't going away no mater how hard I tried to forced it to. I splashed my face with cold water, then I went out and sat on the bed. I looked out the window in the front to really look where were. A RV park of some sort, but not surprising because of the time of year, it was almost empty.

I seen movement in the trees almost as quickly as my stomach began doing back flips. 'Fuck'

Regretfully, I quickly turned around to wake up Dimitri. Before I even said a word he was sitting upright. I don't know what my face showed but he knew something was wrong instantly. He stood and cupped my face in my hands. "Roza, stay here. Do not leave the RV." Right behind him I seen a figure approaching the RV slowly.

"No Dimitri! Drive! There are too many of them." I don't know why, but Dimitri didn't question me, he seemed to have just understood exactly what I was saying. In a second he was in the drivers seat. He started the engine at the exact moment there was a loud bang on the side of the motor home. Dimitri sped out of the lot, leaving me barely enough time to get in the passenger side seat.

Once we were out of the trailer park, Dimitri began to drive normally again, however he was still cruising right above the speed limit. I relaxed a little but the nausea wasn't going away, and the darkness in my vision was still dimming my sight. I seen a busy freeway about a mile down the hill and knew if we got there we would be safe. I heard a creaking noise above my head, and my heart stopped. I heard Dimitri take a sharp intake of breath, telling me heard it too.

A body slammed onto the windshield, I was surprised the glass didn't shatter. The beaten figure, looked up and stared right at me with its glowing red irises. I winced as the car swerved and I seen the strigoi slide, but he held on tightly. Dimitri swerved again just as the strigoi was regaining his grip. We jumped a speed bump. I nearly fell out of my seat, and I instinctively clutched my stomach. I could tell we ran over the strigoi by the second bump we hit that completely threw me out of the chair. "Hey comrade, why didn't you ever give me stupid zen lesson about seat belts." Sarcasm was evident in every word I said, Dimitri was not amused.

He looked at me worried but I told him to keep going, that strigoi was out for now but not down for the count. Plus the number we drove from in the first place was unclear. We had to get on the road. Slowly I stood up and went over to the bed. I crawled to the middle to make sure I wouldn't fall off and tried to will the pain to go away. The black shapes were leaving, and my nausea disappeared, but for some reason that jump in the road made my head spin. I didn't realize I was groaning until a while later we stopped moving and Dimitri came and sat on the side of my bed. "I'm sorry Roza."

"No, no, you did the right thing." We both knew I was right, but he didn't like seeing me uncomfortable. I'll admit that one fall made me see like I was throw like a rag doll but it was going away. Dimitri lay next to me so that he was looking right at me.

"I'm sorry about everything. For leaving Saint Vladimir, for getting you in this situation..." I knew what he was going to say next so I stopped him.

"Stop, it takes two to tango, comrade. I'm fine!" He sat up and I seen him take his shoes and socks of and then his duster. He rummaged though the shelves and threw a shirt and sweats at me. He went into the little bathroom I was sure he wouldn't fit in. I finally took off my orange jumpsuit. I felt gross but I was too tired to shower. Dimitri came out in a set of sweats similar too mine. He sat on the bed next to me.

"You should try to sleep Rose." I knew sleeping would have been good for me but I was't tired. Our getaway made me wide awake and restless.

"I'm not tired. Maybe we should go buy some food." I said pointing to the fridge. He shook his head. I knew there was no way we were going to find a grocery store open at two in the morning, but it was somethings to do.

"Maybe in the morning." Dimitri looked unsure of what to say next. So I tried to start the conversation.

"Can I tell you something... Something a little weird." Dimitri gave me a look telling me it was dumb asking him, of course I could. "I'm excited." Before he had to ask I explained. "about the baby I mean." He looked surprised. "I know I thought this was going to ruin my life but, I don't know. It might be fun." I felt embarrassed, it was a thought that recently came into my head. After I accepted the fact I was going to be a mother before even my mother did, I started to think about it. Dimitri was smiling, a rare, big, genuine smile. "Imagine a little me causing chaos, your going to have two of me to deal with." I laughed.

"Or, you might have two of me teaching you those zen lessons." My laughing stopped.

"If you asked me a year ago if I could have two of you I would have wanted that... But now, now I don't." He looked confused and hurt. "If this baby looked like you or acted like you, and you left again, I couldn't look at it." Dimitri looked like he was just hit by a truck. I felt bad for making him feel bad, but I was being honest. The idea that I would be left alone with this baby haunted me. It took Dimitri a while to come up with a response.

"You still, you think I'm going to leave." I couldn't tell if it was a statement of a question. He didn't seem to know what to say.

"Well last time we were the closest we had ever been, and you just took off. Now I just don't want you to do that again, I can't let myself do what I did again. I have more than myself to think about." Dimitri just watched me for a long time. I found looking at him very uncomfortable but I had no where to storm off to except outside. "I'm sorry, I just can't get rid of that feeling no matter how hard I try to trust you, I always remember that..." I couldn't voice what I was thinking. It was probably better he didn't know, it would make the situation a million times worse.

"What Roza?" I mustered every ounce of self control I had, but I proved worthless because I started silently crying as soon as I started talking again.

"When I found out you left without telling me, I went to my room and then I cried for a while. Then I went to the school clinic to get out of class, on my way out I stole pain killers. I wine to me room and I took a lot of them. I don't even remember how many. I took the steak I found in your locker in the gym and I started playing with it, and I don't remember what happened." I didn't dare look at Dimitri.

"I remember waking up kind of, and seen blood everywhere, and Adrian yelling at me, and Lissa was crying. I woke up again to Lissa wrapping my arms, and Adrian healing me a little. I told them it was because you left, but only Adrain figured out what I actually meant. I still don't really know what I did. You'd have to ask Adrian." I rocked on the bed uncomfortably. "He won't tell me what he saw because he doesn't want me to even remember to amount of darkness he seen.

I was completely shocked by Dimitri's response. He pulled me toward him, and kissed me. It was fierce and harsh, as if he was making up for all the times he hadn't been able to do it before. Just like in the cabin, I was even more surprised when I automatically reciprocated. Dimitri cupped my face in his hands. I pulled away to breathe but neither of us leaned in again, I just looked at him, inches away from his face. For the first time since I moved to court, believed with my whole soul, he would never leave me again.

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