When I walked in the door I was immediately greeted by a frantic looking Dimitri. "Roza, you can't leave like that, I didn't know where you went or..."

"I'm sorry." My tone was dull and I wouldn't look him in the eyes.

"Oh Roza, I didn't mean to worry you I just..."

"No, it's fine, I'm just going to lay down for a while." Dimitri grabbed both of my shoulders and looked at me. Slowly he brought his hand to my chin and turned my head to face his. As soon as a I looked into his eyes I started to cry. He pulled me into him, and rubbed my back.

"Roza, tell me what happened." I looked at him and silenced my tears.

"I can't loose this baby, I can't." I could almost see Dimitri's heart break through his change of expression. He took my hand and brought me to his room. We sat on the bed and he said things in Russian to me while I calmed down. "I met the couple who were bonded. Your grandmother brought me to them. They answered some of my questions and I talked a little about me and Lissa, but then they told me about their baby. She miscarried after a strigoi attack when she used to much spirit. That could happen to me." Dimitri tried to quiet me but I kept talking.

"Roza you..."

"No, I know you remember that day, with Tasha. There was so much spirit I couldn't even open my eyes and you carried me home from the gym. What if that happened again. Lissa would never forgive herself. I would never forgive myself." Before I had came to Russia, being a mother started to excited me, but now I was absolutely hysterical about everything in the world that could hurt my baby.

"Roza, listen to me, you are different. That won't happen. I won't let it, your going to be okay. Our baby is going to be fine." I looked at him and I nearly believed him. He stood up and took my hands again. "I still have something I want to show you, and I have to tell you something on the way there." I was curious but didn't say anything. I got ready and some clothes that were more appropriate for the weather. I looked at myself in the mirror. For the first time since my baby bump appeared I looked at myself logically.

Every time I was measured at the doctors I was alway 'bigger than normal' but my body was still pretty toned. I wasn't very fat at all, just pregnant. I followed Dimitri up the road his house was on for about five minutes before stopping in front of a little building. I looked at Dimitri with a confused expression. "Don't you remember last night?" I didn't remember anything about a little building last night. He sighed, "Maybe you fell asleep while I was talking with Viktoria." He held my hand and we walked up to the door. "The family that originally built my family home were a rich moroi family that wanted to live on their own. This is where their guardians lived. I could still see the Belikov household but it seemed an unsafe distance for guarding. "Before you say anything they used to have wards so this distance was fine, like the posts near the gates at Saint Vladimir." I smiled.

When we got inside I was instantly reminded of the cabin. A lot of it was wood, but painted white so it was bright inside. There was a living space with a bed in it, a small kitchen and a door on the side. It reminded me of a hotel room. There was a step ladder in the back corner and a trap door. "It's yours if you want it." I turned to face to Dimitri to see if he was serious.

"Mine, why not ours?" He shrugged.

"If you didn't want me here I would just leave you alone or..."

. "No! No, Dimitri what would make you think it wouldn't want you in here with me? Of course I do, I don't just want you, I need you. I don't think I could make it on to own any more." Something I'm sure I would have never said a year ago, but things change and it was true. The first time he left I barely made it by. Now, with his baby, I wouldn't know what to do with myself. I held his hand tighter, leading him to the ladder I was dying to investigate. I grabbed a step right before he pulled me away.

"There is no way your climbing that. It's just a little room, your not missing anything but a little storage. The bed had no sheets and the kitchen had only essential appliances and counters, but it still felt homey. The wood walls made me feel protected, like when Dimitri was first brought me to the cabin. I wonder if it reminded him of that too.

All of a sudden I was sucked into Lissa's mind. She was at a doctors office and she was crying. She was looking at the doctor in front of her in absolute disbelief. "You seen the test it's not possible." The Doctor shook her head.

"Princess I'm sorry, the test aren't right all the time and your blood is always accurate. If you'd like we can schedule you an appointment for an aborsh... " Before she could even finish her sentence Lissa stopped her.

"No, no I can't do that. I'll call when I get home to schedule my next appointment thank you." The doctor nodded before silently walking Lissa to the lobby. Lissa wiped the tears from her face before leaving so nobody could see her upset. On her walk home she zoned out and her mind was running a mile a minute. Until she bumped into Adrian.

"Haven't seen you in a while, cousin... Oh Lissa what's wrong." Lissa shook her head.

"Nothing, I uh just miss Rose." I hated being used as an excuse but I understood why she didn't want to tell Adrian.

"Now, don't lie to me, I can see it in your aura. It's almost exactly like the way Rose..." His voice dropped off at the mention of my name. He looked Lissa straight in the eye and a look of realization washed over his face. He pulled Lissa into a hug. "I'm sorry Lissa, I know this horrible timing. I'm sure this is the last thing you want right before the nominations." Lissa pulled away and looked at Adrian quizzically. "For the new monarch?" Lissa had completely forgotten about that. After the guardians delivered the news. "I was supposed to nominate you." Lissa regained her composure.

"Don't worry I'll be ready tomorrow. How about I come to your house in the morning and we go in a group, if I can get Christian to go." Lissa was saddened again. "Tasha was killed in prison, and now he's just miserable, I've never seen him so dark, he's probably still in bed. I don't know how I'm going to tell him I'm." Lissa couldn't get the word pregnant out, as if saying it made it actually true. I felt myself shaking, and I realized something was happening to me in my own world. Dimitri was knelt in front of me smiling, I rolled my head around on my shoulders because I felt stiff.

"How long was I?" Dimitri took my hands.

"Dont worry only an hour or two. Viktoria brought our bags over, and I went and bought some things." He sat next to me. "So what"s happening in court?" I didn't say anything. I felt like this when I kept trying to find a way to tell Dimitri I was pregnant, but this time I decided to just spit It out.

"Lissa is pregnant." Dimitri didn't say anything for a long while, but as usual when he did talk he said exactly what I needed to here.

"You will see her soon." I felt like I was going to cry, but I had no more tears. There was so much pain in my life, I had run out of tears and I think I've forgotten how to smile. I small movement in my stomach made me remember the things I had left to be happy about. I took Dimitri's hand and leaned into him.

"I only have a month until I won't be able to fly home."

"I know, but Sydney and your father are having information on your trial sent here." This made follow up questions pop into my head. Why would Sydney help my father? Is Tasha murder going to get brought up in my case? However I didn't say anything. Unlike my reaction to nearly everything I was quiet and I didn't do anything.

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