Ch 16

Elsa

After I told Jack everything about the coronation and then what happened with Anna at the party I couldn't tell what he was feeling. He was too serious, too quiet. Maybe I shouldn't have told him everything, he seemed to have gone completely still after the whole black sand bird issue. Why was that such a big deal? Sure it was kind of odd but Jack was lost deep in thought, I was a little scared of his reaction. If he even did react to what I'd just old him…

E:"Um Jack…? Is everything alright?"

He just stared at me. He had a look of anger and concern at the same time. It was rather unnerving.

J:"Elsa do you remember that night you met the Guardians? And how I told you about Pitch?"

I swallowed hard, although it had been almost four years since that night, Pitch's name still gave me a shiver down my spine. I just nodded and kept listening to what Jack was saying.

J:"That black sand is like Sandy's dream sand, only it belongs to Pitch. It means he's going to attack soon. I need to talk to the other Guardian's about this. We need a plan, Elsa it may be time for you to fight along with us… do you think you're ready?"

I'm pretty sure my eyes were wider than the moon by now. I had just left my kingdom to fend off on its own and he wants me to take Pitch down? No I couldn't do it. What if I made things worse? What if I ended up hurting the other Guardians? What if I hurt Jack…

E:"Jack no I can't I… I'm not ready I…

J:"Elsa you can do it. I know you can! Just look at this castle! If you can build this I know you can-"

E:"NO! You don't understand how I feel! How it feels to have no control over your own body, you don't know what it's like to be locked away. I sacrificed my whole life to save my sister!" I don't know why I was so angry, I just needed to get all this out.

E:"All you know how to do is have fun! To be carefree and just play all day while I had an entire kingdom to care for! Now they see me as a monster and no one cares about me or how I feel…" I had angry tears spilling over my eyes now. Jack just stared at me in disbelief, a single tear escaped his eye. But I took nothing back.

J:" Don't you EVER dare to tell me I know nothing of sacrifice. I gave my life for my sister, while you on the other hand, cowered and locked yourself away. You had a choice and you decided to hide. And you know nothing of responsibility, a kingdoms is nothing compared to caring for the whole world Elsa. If anyone's spoiled it's you!" He pointed a finger at me and walked towards his staff. My tears were like a river now. His words had hit a soft spot and I knew he was right. I got up as he walked towards the front door and chased him.

E:"Jack! Wait no listen…"

J:"Save it Princess. If that's how you really fell about me then the kiss we shared earlier was a mistake. I was a fool to think you actually loved me as I love you, but I can see I was wrong." And with that he flew away. He was gone. The one person to love me for me left me… I was truly alone this time. And it was all my fault. I ran to my room and I threw myself on my bed. I felt so empty and broken, I pushed everyone away no matter what happened. I deserved to be alone.

Jack

I flew as far from the castle as possible. I couldn't believe she'd had the nerve to tell me those things, what did she know?! She was a spoiled princess who knew nothing of real suffering. I decided to land in the middle of the forest near Arendelle, I didn't see where I was going though and I crashed into a tree. It didn't really hurt though, not as much as what I was feeling on the inside…

I felt something on my face and I wiped it away, realizing it was tears. I had been crying and I hadn't realized it, but could you really blame me? The only girl I'd ever loved had practically spat in face. She only wanted me there to make her feel good about herself and what about me? Didn't I deserve a little bit of love or compassion too? I'd gone through a hell worse than she had, she'd only lost her parents while I'd lost more than that. I grabbed at my hair in frustration and let out a scream. I'd stayed there almost the whole day, I wanted to go back and apologize, I knew she'd said those things because she had a lot to worry about but that didn't justify it. I had every right to defend myself didn't I? I stared up at the moon when night came, it was hallway covered by clouds.

J:"Damn it Manny is this why you sent me to her? To have her for a second and then lose her completely? Can't I get some happiness of my own too?!" But nothing, I got absolutely no response from him. I laid on the ground for what felt like hours, and it probably was that long because I started hearing a strange voice call to me.

P:"Jack Frost?"

After about the fifth call I sat up and looked around, I spotted only a few rocks mounted on top of each other that weren't there before,

J:"Um who's there?"

The rock suddenly rolled towards me and a face appeared, it was a walking, living, rock. I'd really lost my marbles….

P:"My name is Grand Pabbie, I'm a troll and no you are not crazy Jack Frost, I am real and Manny sent me to you. It seems you have a lot on your mind, why don't you tell me what's wrong?"

I was a little startled, I knew I could trust Pabbie if he knew Manny but I was still hesitant, although in the end I told him what happened with Elsa.

J:"I just don't understand how she could say something like that, Pabbie I love her more than anything but I guess that's not enough…"

P:"Jack you need to go back and talk to her, she shouldn't be alone if Pitch is near, first of all. And second, anger leads to many things. You were both feeling a lot about what you just told me, but Elsa loves you as much as you love her. Manny has a purpose for you and Elsa together. Your lives are meant to intertwine forever Jack. If you truly love her then keep the promise you made so long ago, but you must decide soon before it's too late…"

With that Pabbie rolled away towards the forest once more. What he said was true Elsa and I needed to talk, really talk. Not just argue and yell and then kiss and make up later. If we were going to make things work we needed to change things. I knew just what I needed to do so I flew towards the castle once more. I could see it in the distance and I willed the wind to carry me faster but suddenly I began to feel really tired. I tried to fight it but sleep seemed like the perfect idea. I felt myself fall to the ground and land on the soft snow, the last thing I remember was his voice saying the words I never wanted to hear.

I win Jack, I always win….