Ch 17

Elsa

Since Jack left I was alone with my thoughts, I'd been so rude to him. But he was only making things worse. I put my hand on my chest and felt the snowflake he'd given me, and I remembered all the time we'd spent together. The times I felt I couldn't control my powers and he expressed the utmost patience with me. How he'd kissed me with such passion… I needed to find him and talk to him. We both had been wrong and right but we needed to fix it soon. I got off the bed and was about to leave when something black covered the handle. It was black sand. I freaked out and started to back away but I tripped. I felt the sand crawl up my leg and towards my face. It started talking to me, the voice was both high pitched and low, like a mix of multiple people. But it was very calm and soothing and terrifying. I was about to let out a scream when it covered my mouth.

Shh Ice Queen, my plan is almost complete. Soon you and I will rule together. Nothing will stop me! Just let me rule your thoughts, let me in that pretty little mind…

I started kicking and thrashing around hoping to get loose but the sand grabbed my arms and my other leg and pinned me down. I felt the sand that was covering my mouth go down my throat I almost choked on it and I wanted to puke but it kept going and the leftover sand left me alone. I sat up startled, I didn't know why I was on the floor, I just remembered I needed to find Jack and talk to him. I got up and I heard the knocking on the front door… it was probably Jack. It was time to talk to him and apologize for being a jerk. I was ready to let him in, I ran down the stairs but what I saw startled me. It wasn't Jack who came back. It was Anna. I watched her for a few seconds and then she called out to me. I heard a little voice in my head but I ignored it, it felt familiar…

A:"Elsa? It's me Anna…!"

She walked towards the staircase and almost slipped.

E:"Anna?!" I didn't want her to fall, but mostly I was curious as to why she was here. She looked up when I called her name, she seemed startled and confused to see me.

I stepped out of the shadows from where I was hiding with a smile on my face. I'd missed her.

A:"Whoa…Elsa you look different…It's a good different!" she said, and kept looking around the castle. "And this place is amazing…"

E:"Thank you, I never knew what I was capable of…" those words reminded me of Jack, and thinking of him brought an even bigger smile to my face.

Anna looked at me again and she began to take a step onto the stairs.

A:"I'm so sorry about what happened…If I'd have known…"

Uh oh… she began getting closer. It wasn't her fault, none of it was. I just wanted to protect her and the kingdom. Tell her to leave you'll only hurt her…said that voice in my head once more.

E:" No, no it's ok, y-you don't have to apologize…" I started walking backwards, trying to get away from her. I didn't want to hurt her again, what if this time I couldn't control myself? "Buy you should probably go…please…" That was a lie, I was so happy to see her. Why was I pushing her away again? I couldn't control my actions, the words came out without a second thought.

A:"But I just got here…" she said in a hurt tone.

E:"You belong down in Arendelle…"

A:"So do you"

E:"No Anna I belong here alone…" I said with a slight chuckle. "Where I could be who I am, without hurting anyone" I leaned against the railing of the staircase on the balcony. Anna just looked at me as if trying to choose the right words to convince me to go back with her. Don't listen…the people will think you're a monster and kill you if you go back…

A:"Actually about that…" she'd gotten my attention, I could sense things were about to get worse. She was about to tell me when the front door opened once more and somebody was talking, or counting numbers. Wait counting?

E:"Wait what was that..?" a snowman ran in the room.

O:"Sixty! Hi I'm Olaf and I like warm hugs!" He waved a small, branchy arm at me and kept running to Anna. Something inside me stirred, I remember making Olaf but he was alive…

E:"Olaf…?"

O:"You built me… remember that?"

E:"And you're alive?" This day just crazier as it went first talking black sand and voices in my head, now I'd made a living snowman?

O:"Um y- I think so..?" He opened and closed his little hands, probably thinking I was dead serious. I looked down at my hands, realizing my power was far stronger than what I originally thought.

A:"He's just like the one we built as kids…"

E:"Yea…" I looked at them, and felt so happy. Maybe I could go back to Arendelle and make things right. What happened had been an accident after all. They tried to capture you and turn you in… they called you a witch and said you were dangerous… I could hear Anna say something but the voice in my head was louder. And if you lose control? Remember last time you hit her? What if this time it's her heart…I gasped and walked further back.

E:"No…I can't… Goodbye Anna" I turned and wrapped my arms around myself. I couldn't be near her again.

A:"Elsa wait!"

E:"No I'm just trying to protect you…"

A:"But you don't have to protect me I'm not afraid!" I ran up the stairs and I could hear behind me saying something but I couldn't hear it all. The voice kept drowning her out, it got louder by the second.

A:" ...You don't have to keep you distance anymore…For the first time in forever we can fix this had in hand…You don't have to live in fear… I'll be right here" We'd reached my room, the sun was setting. She needed to leave. I turned to her.

E:"Anna…Please go back home… your life awaits…go enjoy the sun and open up the gates!"

A:"Yea but-"

E:"I know you mean well…" I put my hands up and backed away further. "But leave me be" I walked to the balcony and I could hear her follow close behind. "Yes I'm alone but I'm alone and free! Just stay away and you'll be safe from me…" She tried to grab my arm but I pulled away and ran back inside.

A:"Actually we're not" I turned back to her. What did she mean?

E:"What do you mean we're not?"

A:"I get the feeling you don't know"

E:"What do I not know?"

A:"Arendelle's in deep, deep, deep, deep snow…" she said wincing. It's too late Elsa you can do nothing to stop the storm inside you…

E:"What?"

A:"You kind of sent off an eternal winter everywhere…"

E:"Everywhere?!" I saw the snowflakes come down from the ceiling. Let it out Elsa… be free!

A:"But its ok you can just unfreeze it!"

E:"No I can't I don't know how…" I started panicking, I ran away to keep everyone safe and I'd still failed.

A:"Sure you can! I know you can…" Her words reminded me of Jack. Jack… where was he? You pushed him away remember? He doesn't love you as much as thought… The snowflakes picked up and began to swirl around us. "You don't have to be afraid"

E:"I'm such a fool I can't be free… there's no escape from the storm inside of me…"

A:"We'll do it side by side… together. We'll reverse the storm together!"

E:" Oh Anna please you'll only make it worse!" I ran my hands through my hair. I was at a loss for what to do. I could go back and fix it, we could do it together. No you can't you're not strong of…

E:"You're not safe here…"

A:" If we stick together we can do it…" The storm had gotten a lot stronger, I could barely see Anna. She was getting closer to me. I needed to make her leave. "Elsa we can do it!" NO YOU CAN'T! The voice shouted, I hugged myself again and let it all out.

E:"I can't!" and a blast of ice surged out of me. I heard a small whimper from behind me and saw Anna on the floor. Suddenly a blond guy came running through the door.

K:"Are you alright?" he was really concerned about Anna but who was he?

A:"I'm fine…" She said in an angry voice.

E:"Wait who's this? It doesn't matter you have to leave and get away from me…"

A:"Wait I know we can fix it together"

The castle was crumbling, just like my soul. Why couldn't she understand there was no fixing this?

E:"How? What power do you have to stop this winter?! To stop me…?"

This time the guy spoke up, looking up at the ceiling in concern. It would be a quicker death…What?

A:"No I'm not leaving without you Elsa!"

E:"Yes you are!" I didn't want to kill her but I could at least make her leave. I created another snow man this time it was bigger, stronger. It picked them up and took them outside. Once more I was alone, more than I'd ever been. When Anna showed up I thought we could fix this but there was no hope… I was useless…