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I felt really bad when I had to get up to use the bathroom only an hour after I fell asleep. When I went back into to bed I lay next to Dimitri instead, so when I inevitably had to go again, I wouldn't wake him up. I was shocked when I lay down I heard him call my name. "Rose, come here, it's fine." He had his arms open but he spoke drowsily. I crawled back into his arms and fell asleep, surprisingly for the rest of the night.
My chest was sore when I woke up, I looked at my shirt and was a little alarmed when's seen wet spots on the front of my shirt. I got up a little to quickly, because I instantly felt whip lash and I woke Dimitri up. "Rose? What's wrong?" I couldn't cover myself in time, and when I seen him realize what he saw I felt embarrassed. "Oh, Rose, it's okay that's normal." He was so calm and he was smiling. "I remember that happened to my sister, don't worry." He got up and quickly found my last set of clothes and brought them over to me. "Go shower, I finish packing, we can get you pump on the way to the airport." He seemed amused by the whole situation.
Just like almost every other time something happened recently, I started to cry. Dimitri laughed and emphasized with me at the same time. I wanted to laugh at myself yet for some reason I was crying. "God, this is so annoying." I wiped my cheeks but I kept crying. "Ugh alright." Dimitri squeezed me in a hug. He rocked back and forth while still laughing t himself.
"It's fine Rose." I could tell he was trying not to laugh at me. I turned and put my head on his chest. I listened to the sound of his heartbeat as I calmed myself down. I rolled my eyes at myself.
"I'm sorry." A little laugh escaped.
"It's fine, but I don't want to shower. I had one yesterday morning, and it's too much work now." He pushed my hear back.
"Well them at least get ready for the airplane." I took my clothes from him, and locked myself into the bathroom. After I took my shirt off I could see the wet stuff coming through my bra too. I changed but I still felt self conscious, even though there wasn't a stain anymore. I pulled my hair up into a pony tail, and the washed my face and brushed my teeth. I helped put the last of our stuff from to bathroom away, and then we were off to the airport.
It was an absolute miracle Dimitri, my father, Adrian, and I got to the runway with no one seeing me. Adrian didn't say anything to me, he wasn't mad but I also couldn't really tell what was wrong with him, so I just left him. When we got on board I immediately found a big chair to sit in. It was a smaller plane that only had one room and a bathroom, but it was still furnished nicely and was way more fancy than was necessary.
Not surprisingly, I fell asleep quickly and didn't wake up until after we landed. I felt myself move, and when I woke up and realized Dimitri was trying to carry me, I stopped him. While I was out I seen Lissa announced as the new queen, and listened to her give a very nice speech. She was happy, but I knew she wanted to see me so desperately, she kept remembering I was on my way back and she would get upset. I was proud of how well she was holding up I front of everyone though.
A few times she nearly lost her cool, especially when reporters brought up me or he baby. When she was back at home she lay in her bed and cried for a while before Christian came and suggested they go out for a while. I was grateful she had him to support her.
We got into one of my fathers cars and Dimitri drove us to a hotel that was a a few miles outside of court. I was absolutely terrified walking in to check in, because I was certain we would run into off duty guardian's, or moroi who recognized me. I clung onto Dimitri's arm and hid my face from everyone. Of course I was just paranoid, because it was empty except for an uninterested looking lady at the check in. She handed us a key without question and then sent us on our way.
I sat in bed, but I couldn't sleep. Dimitri was up all day so he fell asleep easily after I reassured him I was okay. I knew the plan, I knew there was no way it couldn't work now, but I felt uneasy. As if after all this time I didn't know what I would do with a "normal" life. Sometime in the middle of the day, Dimitri woke up, and sat next to me. He wrapped his arm around me. "Rose you need to sleep, at least try. It's going to be a hard day for you, so please."
"I will."
"No Rose, don't lie just to get me to shut up, you need to try." He was in all serious, mentor mode.
"I can't, okay, I'm too anxious, I just need everything to stop. Lissa's about to be crowned queen, and there probably already looking for a permanent replacement guardian, not to mention I'm about to be fucking mother. I'm not ready for any of this, and there's no way for me to be prepared. You know I'm spontaneous and I don't follow order, but that's only because I want everything to go my way. Now everything is out of my control, and I just want it to stop." I felt like I was going to cry again so I stopped talking. Dimitri turned my face toward his and stroked my cheek with his thumb.
"Roza, don't worry yourself, you'll be the princess' guardian and you'll be a good mother. They couldn't replace you, and I seen how you were with Paul, everything will be fine. If you ever get scared, I'll be right behind you." I think he was aware of how cheesy and dramatic he was being because he didn't sound completely sincere. To be fair I was being quite dramatic as well. I wrapped my arms around his neck and lay against him.
"How could you possibly put up with me?" It was a rhetorical question that he answered anyways.
"Because I love you." Neither of us said anything after that, and I eventually fell asleep.
When I woke up I still felt tired and even more anxious than yesterday, Dimitri promised I would have about an hour to nap in the car, but that still didn't help with the complete jealousy that overcame me when I seen Adrian drinking some fancy coffee.
"Seriously!" I groaned as I threw my bag over my shoulders. " Did you have to drink that in front of me?" Adrian smirked and took a loud sip. Dimitri put his arm around me and comforted me while, laughing a little. I appreciated how much I was hearing him laugh and seeming him smile recently, even if a lot of times it was at my expense.
"Honesty Little Dhampir, a lack of caffeine is the least of your problems at the moment." I sat in the back off the car and for once Dimitri actually let someone else drive and he sat next to me. My father was surprisingly not a crazy driver with road rage, and Adrian didn't have many one liners for the ride so it was fine, until we had around ten or fifteen miles left because for some reason I lost it.
I went into full panic mode, and I couldn't really tell you why. I started to cry and at first it was quiet and no one noticed. Soon I began to shake and my breathing started to speed up. Dimitri was the first to see me panic, and he clearly couldn't figure out what was bugging me. He took off his seat belt and slid beside me, but I push at him because I felt claustrophobic and hot. "Rose, what's wrong?!" When he said that Adrian and my father looked at me as well.
My father was never the nurturing type, but for some reason his demand sent me over the edge. "Belikov, man get my daughter back to normal. We can't send her in when she's like this." I began making sobbing noises and shaking so hard a felt sore. I felt the car stop and heard some conversation, but I couldn't process it.
I think I tired myself out because eventually I stopped pushing Dimitri away and I began to breath normally again. He started just holding my hand, then rubbing my shoulder, but after a while I leaned into him and closed my eyes. I calmed down enough and then looked up at the three in the car. "I'm sorry."
"Roza, it's okay." My father looked uncomfortable, so he just fiddled with the car navigation. Adrian looked a little sorry for me, but he simply smiled at me and turned around too. Dimitri ran his fingers through my hair and wiped the tears off my cheek. The car pulled forward and merged onto the road. I didn't move until we were a mile outside of the gate. Once again my father pulled over.
He handed Dimitri a little bag. First Dimitri pulled out a zip tie. I took a deep breath. "I'm fine, go ahead." I turned my back to him and Dimitri tied my hands together. Then he slid me back to my side of the car and put my seat belt on. He pulled a silver stake out of the bag and looked at it. I nodded but he didn't do anything.
"Belikov! Come one we don't have all day." Dimitri cringed but then moved the stake closer to my face. He stopped and then looked me in the eye.
"I can't do it!" I knew Dimitri probably didn't want to scratch me up, but it was just that, a scratch. No one would actually believe this group of people Lissa sent to look for me would come back with me unharmed. Everyone knows I'd put up a fight, no matter how bad my odds were. "Look at her, she already terrified." I refused to see the truth in that statement and kept a straight face. Adrian turned and took the stake from Dimitri, surprisingly he just let him take it.
In hindsight I should have seen it coming, but I was stunned when I seen Adrian swiped at my cheek and felt a short amount of pain to follow. I seen Dimitri was about to completely loose in with Adrian, so I looked at him and forced him to focus on me. "It's okay." while I wasn't looking Adrian took another swipe and cut pretty deeply into my arm. I yelped, but for Dimitri's sake I stopped myself after that. My arm hurt a lot more but I was ready to put on my usual bravado for Dimitri and everyone else that was about to see me.
Adrian put a hand on my shoulder. I nodded at him as if to say, no hard feelings. Dimitri's expression a moment ago would have completed given us a way but he had his guardian mask on. He let it slip for one moment, to kiss me. "I love you." I didn't get to say anything because my fathers patience was wearing thin.
"Let's get the show on the road." We drove the last mile, and I had to try to make myself seem like a total brat who didn't want to be here. I found it funny acting immature because in truth I was like that only a few months ago, but it felt like years had gone by since I was like that. We stopped at the gate, and guardians approach our car.

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