CH 40

Elsa

Everything felt like a dream, the world around me just seemed too bright. Too sunny.

Suddenly I saw them, my parents. That's what gave it away, maybe it would be like then one I'd had with my mother when I knocked out.

I felt my body run towards them and a few seconds later we were embracing. True, I had just seen my mother but I still missed her dearly. And my father…

He still looked the same as the day he left on that treacherous trip. Still just as regal and proper as ever, yet here he was. Hugging my mother and me, in tears. I had rarely seen him lose such control over his emotions, the last time I remember him seeing him like this was when the incident with Anna happen.

K:"Oh Elsa…" He said as he cupped my face in his hands and cried. "I am so proud of you…You did your best sweetheart."

E:"Thank you dad…I love you both so much…" I said in between gasps of air. I don't think I had ever cried so much.

In the back of my mind I felt like something important was missing from my life but… I couldn't quite put my finger on it…

Q:"Come on sweetheart, Lets go…" and my mother took my hand and we walked off into field of flowers.

Jack

Her hand went limp in mine and at first I thought maybe she just passed out again. Or maybe she's asleep.

Yet something in the back of my mind kept telling me I was only fooling myself. A nagging voice kept whispering she was gone, so I leaned my head against her chest and listened carefully.

There was no sound.

J:"North…" I whispered at first, my voice cracked and tears formed in my eyes once again. "North!"

I called out a little louder as I shook Elsa whispering for her to wake up, tears were now spilling rapidly from my eyes.

"NORTH!" I screamed out of desperation and fear for the worst. At once I heard the doors slam wide open and confusion everywhere.

N:"Jack what is it? What-" I don't know what he saw, but suddenly he cursed in Russian and he pushed me aside. I fell to floor hard, not caring if I was hurt. The pain in my chest was far greater than any physical pain I could ever endure.

After a few minutes North called out to me but before the words were out of his mouth I already knew what happened, I didn't need his assurance.

N:"Jack… I'm sorry…"

It was too late. I was already flying out of her room. I don't know where I was going, but I couldn't stay there. I couldn't see her now lifeless and dead corpse.

It was my fault, had I not distracted her during the fight… I should have protected her like I promised, I was so blind! How did I not see what Pitch was doing to her?!

It wasn't until I almost crashed into a huge rock that I paid attention to where I was. I was about a mile or so away from her castle.

I couldn't even say her name.

I flew further up the mountain and inside her secret getaway.

It was still just as beautiful as when she had first built it, just as strong and unscathed.

Unlike her. I'd lost the woman I had ever loved the most.

I reached her bedroom and that's where it really hit me. Everything that had happened the past couple of days. I was so blind and stupid I had missed all the signs of what she was going through.

Before then I had a feeling she was going through something, that night we spent together seemed too… rushed. Too perfect. Looking back now I knew it was because she had little time left and she wanted to make her las days as Elsa last. She knew what Pitch was doing to her.

I was too focused on other things to see it. I should have asked her what was going on. I should have said or done something.

And now she's gone forever.

I fell to the ground once again, my heart war yearning for her presence. For one more touch, one last kiss…

As I looked at the ground through my tears I saw something on the floor and examined it closer.

It was little black specks of… dust maybe?

No it couldn't be.

There wasn't much dust this high up, it was always snowing on the North Mountain. Then I realized it was Pitch's sand and I felt something burn deep inside me. I was furious. If anyone was to blame it was Pitch.

He tainted her, filled her sweet innocence with darkness, fear, and death.

And then I saw the moonlight outside too. That only made me angrier.

J:"I asked you for ONE thing Manny! And you took her away!" I yelled, but received no answer. "You…you t-took her…" and I fell, crying.

Crying harder than I ever had in my life. Crying out for the only one who held my heart.

Almost a month had passed since she left us. Her funeral had a huge event, since she was the Queen. They paraded her in a box all through the town, is what I saw from the Ice Castle.

I didn't dare attend her funeral, I couldn't bear to see her like that. So cold, and lifeless…

It didn't suit her personality, yet even in death I'm sure she looked just as beautiful and regal as always. Anna's coronation followed a couple of days later and then her marriage to Kristoff. It served to lift the town's spirits after losing their beloved Ice Queen.

I didn't visit the other Guardians either. They all tried to cheer me up but after that first month I assume they gave up. I heard nothing from them, and I never tried to reach out to them.

It was as if I never knew them, my life went back to how it was before I met them. To before I became a Guardian. Sure I still visited all the children, especially Jamie. I tried to keep myself as busy as possible. But my heart ached, like a broken bone that never completely healed. Every night I would visit her castle, the only memory I had left of her.

I never visited her tombstone either. When she died, a part of me died with her, and I could never get it back. Not even 100 years later.