Author's Note: Once again I have sucked at updating so there's two chapters up tonight to try and catch up as quick as I can, school has been taking up a lot of my time and it'll only get worse after Christmas so my goal is to have this story finished by then. I'm aiming for two chapters a weekend now, and after finally overcoming my writer's block with this first chapter I feel a lot better about the rest of the story. So for now I just wanna say thanks to everyone for reviewing, favouriting and following the story even with me being so bad with updating. Again I'm so sorry and I hope you guys enjoy these chapters. Please review and let me know what you think!

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"What?"

I cringed away from my mother's furious tone, suddenly thankful I had met her in the middle of the boardwalk, she was terrifying when she was angry.

My hands hadn't stopped shaking since I got to the boardwalk, it was so easy to be confident the night before in my decision to stay here, like it wasn't going to affect the rest of my life. Now that I was here and telling my mother what I had decided, suddenly my confidence had dwindled and I had to try and keep my nerve.

I forced my voice to remain strong as I repeated what I had just said, "I'm staying here. I don't want to leave."

She stared at me in disbelief, "Are you crazy? You're just gonna stay here with Max and those boys and let them destroy your life?"

"They're not destroying anything, it's my choice to stay here. I'm not letting them destroy my life."

"Bryn you don't understand what you'll be giving up, you'll lose your freedom and nothing will be your choice anymore. You'll become a vampire and Max will have complete control over you- forever. Can you honestly say you want that?"

I shrugged, "It has it's downsides I know that, I know what I'll be giving up. But running away isn't going to make me any happier either. Have you been happy all these years that you've been running from Max?"

"Yes." She answered quickly, I gave her a doubtful look to which she narrowed her eyes, "I was happy knowing I did the right thing."

"And you did." I assured her, "But this is different Rachel, this is my life and mine alone, I should be able to choose how I live it."

"I don't understand why you would choose this life, never when I gave you up did I think one day you'd actually choose this for yourself." Rachel said quietly, shame flooded through me and for the first time I realised just how disappointing it must be for her. She gave up everything for me when I was born and here I was throwing it back in her face.

"I'm sorry." I began, "I don't know what to say-"

"Did they talk you into this?"

My eyes widened,"No!"

"So you made this decision all by yourself?"

I shrugged, "Well I talked to Dwayne and-"

"So he talked you into it." She interrupted.

"He didn't talk me into anything!" I cried, reigning in my outburst when I noticed a few heads had turned in our direction, "He just helped me realise this is my decision and I shouldn't let what anyone else wants influence me."

"Oh he's really helpful." She remarked, sarcasm heavy in her words, "Don't you understand he's just doing what Max wants? Playing with your feelings?"

"He's not." I defended, he would never do that, "I decided this by myself, please just accept that this is what I want."

"What if in a few years you decide you've made a mistake? When the fun wears off and you realise this life's just long and lonely?"

"I won't be alone."

She shook her head, "You might be some day. There's no guarantee especially not where those boys are concerned. You may find in a few years you don't want to be around them anymore and where would that leave you?"

"That won't happen." I answered automatically, but my mind couldn't help turning at her words. Centuries were a long time to live together, "And I could always find you too, I know it's been lonely but just because I'm staying doesn't mean we can't see each other, right? Max won't find out, the others haven't told him you've been here these past few weeks, I could just keep it a secret."

Her expression saddened, "It's not that simple, Bryn. I'm sure Max would be used to that from them, but it wouldn't take him long to guess what you'd be keeping from him. What have you to keep secret except for me? If he ever found out, we'd probably both be dead."

"But this isn't fair, I can't see why I can't be with them and still see you. I mean you're my mother, there's so much I want to tell you and ask you, you can't tell me that after tonight we can never have any kind of a relationship?"

"That's how it has to be." She told me with a helpless expression, "I know it's not fair but none of this has ever been fair. I wish I had kept you with me so you would have never met these boys, I was too careful and it ended up being my biggest mistake."

"It wasn't a mistake Rachel, I'm glad I met them."

She sighed, "I'm not, they'll ruin you eventually. I can't make you see that now and I know that, I also know I can't drag you out of here by force."

I smiled weakly, "I'm sure you could."

"I'll wait here, until the boardwalk closes. All I ask is you take some more time to think about this. If you decide you still want to stay then I'll leave as soon as everywhere shuts for the night, if you decide you want to leave then you come back here and meet me. Okay?"

"Rachel you need to leave-"

"I've stayed this long I can stay a few more hours. Promise me you'll think some more, okay?"

I chewed my lip, "And if I still choose the same thing?"

"Then there's nothing more I can do."

I told Dwayne I would meet him by the railings when I had finished talking to my mother, but when I got there he was nowhere to be seen. Either he didn't think I'd be here this soon or I had taken to long and he had wandered off, either way, I was grateful he wasn't here. I had only a few more hours to make a decision, and some time to myself would be needed.

I knew being a vampire wouldn't be easy, killing people and drinking blood were things I tried not to focus on, I could only assume I'd get used to them after a while. My first kill would be the hardest, or so Paul had explained, making the conscious decision to make the full turn would take a lot of willpower, but once I had it'd never be that hard again. He even said after a while you look forward to it, enjoy it even, it was hard to understand as a human but once I was one of them it'd make sense I guess.

Giving up life as a human would be giving up being normal, no family or kids, no nine to five job every day. I couldn't go out during the daylight anymore, and no matter how much I loved Santa Carla I knew deep down we'd have to leave some day, maybe Max will decide to move and we'd all be dragged along. But I'd still have the guys, that counted for something.

But I wouldn't have my mother. Could I do that to her after everything she had done for me?

It was apparent I was running out of time, the crowds on the boardwalk were beginning to dwindle. And with all the deliberating I had done, I still wasn't able to change my mind. My mother had been just fine all these years without me, and now she wouldn't even have to worry about me anymore, she'd know I was happy. And there had to be a way for me to see her, this wasn't going to be the end. It wasn't.

I finally lent off the railing to turn back and go back to my mother, to tell her I had thought more about it and to say goodbye. I jumped in surprise when I turned only to meet Dwayne's gaze, a relieved sigh leaving my lips. The automatic smile on my face at his presence dropped a second later when I noticed he hadn't returned it, his face held no expression.

"Is everything okay?"

When he didn't say anything in response I looked down, my eyebrows creasing when I noticed he was carrying something.

"Is that my bag?"

He was holding the large bag I had been using to keep most of my stuff in, I had only laid a few random belongings on and around the four-poster bed I had claimed ownership off while staying in the cave. He had another bag on his shoulder on the other side, again mine. I stared at him in confusion.

"Here." He took the bag from his shoulder and put the strap over my head so it rested on my shoulder with my bag hanging on the other side. He took my hand and put the handles of the larger bag into it, judging by the weight there was lots in it.

"What is this, Dwayne?"

"It's all your stuff." He answered, before I could even ask why he packed all my stuff for me he spoke again, "You have to leave, Bryn."

I was sure I had heard him wrong, "What?"

"You have to go find your mother and leave."

I stumbled over my words not knowing where to begin making sense of this, he was telling me to go?

"Where did this come from? What about last night?"

"I made a mistake last night, I shouldn't have filled your head with all that crap. It's selfish for you to stay with us Bryn."

"Selfish?" I echoed, cursing the hurt in my voice.

"Yeah, this whole thing with you has just gotten us in more trouble since it started, and it'll just get worse if you turn. If Max ever found out we had let you meet your mother and not told him, we'd all be dead probably. We don't need that."

"He won't find out, you don't have to tell him anything. And I didn't mean to get you into trouble, if I did then I'm sorry-"

"We can't keep Max in the dark forever Bryn, he can find out at any time. You don't understand how any of this works, you don't get how complicated things are now because of you. And it'll just get worse when your mother leaves, Max will want to know why we didn't find her in time."

"Just tell him you tried but she got away, she managed to get away from him, didn't she?"

He shook his head, "He's not gonna let us off with it, there was one of him and there's four of us, and he'll find out eventually what really happened. If not from us then from you, you won't be able to keep anything from him."

"Yes I will." I argued.

"No you won't." He said deliberately, "He'll find out and then who knows what will happen, he could kill us all, and we don't deserve that. We never asked for any of this."

I threw my hands up, "Neither did I! It's not like I knew anything about Max and my mother when I met you guys, hell I didn't even know you what you were!"

He gave me a pointed look and I looked around to make sure I wasn't attracting too much attention, the last few crowds of people still walking around had taken no notice, so I turned back with a sigh of relief and reminded myself to keep quiet.

"Like I said, there's already been too much trouble for us since this started. We're not going to keep taking this unnecessary risks, it's not our job to look after you."

I was once again taken back by his change in attitude, not to mention his cold tone. It was like he was a completely different person, or more like he was when I first met him, hard to read and completely confusing.

"I know it's not your job, and to be honest I didn't think it was a job." I replied, trying to keep my voice even.

"It's starting to be. We don't need any new members, it's worked fine these past few years with the four of us and I think it's best it stays that way."

I folded my arms, "So you speak for the whole group now? Is that what Paul thinks as well?"

He snorted, "Bryn you are not the first girl Paul has ever taken a special interest in, fair enough you've lasted a lot longer than the others but that's only because of Max. Paul probably would've killed you himself by now had Max not told us to keep you happy."

I flinched at the thought of Paul wanting to kill me, "I don't believe you, Paul's my friend."

He smirked, "Paul's a vampire, Bryn. You humans are nothing but food and entertainment to him."

"Liar." I snarled, "What is wrong with you?"

His expression was vacant, bored even, "I finally came to my senses. Now it's time for you to come to yours. " He made a move to take my arm and I backed out of his grip.

"Don't touch me." I warned, his eyebrows creased and he dropped his arm, we now stood two feet apart but it felt like miles."Dwayne this isn't you, what happened?" I asked a few minutes later, he avoided my eyes and looked behind me instead.

"Nothing happened." He said through clenched teeth, "I had some time to think and I changed my mind, and you need to do the same. It's not going to work out if you stay here Bryn, you and I both know that."

I laughed, "Dwayne we have no idea what will happen, stop talking like you already know things won't work, because you don't know. Alright?"

"I know that you need to do right by your mother and leave with her. After all she's done, you owe it to her to leave."

"That isn't fair you can't use her as an excuse, she's got nothing to do with this."

He laughed, "Bryn if it wasn't for her you'd probably have been turned into a vampire years ago, she made sure that didn't happen. So you can either go with her and pay her back for everything she's done or you can stay here and undo everything she's sacrificed for you."

"You can't expect me to leave and be miserable the rest of my life, never getting to come back here or see you guys, I don't want that."

"You won't be miserable forever, you'll move on." He said, a little softer but it didn't help much. A tear slid down my cheek and I brushed it away quickly.

"Will you?"

He clenched his jaw and I regretted asking, dropping my eyes to the strap of the bag that had slid down my shoulder slightly when I lifted my arm. I lifted it back up higher on my shoulder and dug my nails into the leather as I chewed my lip.

His hand prised mine from the strap and laced his fingers through mine, "Come on." He said gently, tugging my hand a little as he took a step backwards.

My legs followed automatically, I kept my eyes on the ground and let him lead me, where to I wasn't sure. His thumb stroked the back of my hand soothingly, it was all I could focus on as we continued to walk.

When he finally stopped I looked up to see we were back at the carousel, and my mother was still at the railings were I had left her. Still putting herself in harm's way for me.

Her eyes flickered between me and Dwayne before dropping to the bags I carried. She offered me a grim smile and stood straight, inclining her head for me to come towards her. I went to move and remembered I was still holding Dwayne's hand.

When he didn't release my hand I looked up to see him watching me with an unreadable expression, this would be the last time I'd see him if I left.

"You never answered my question." I said quietly, he sighed and looked towards my mother for few seconds before he turned to face me. His hand finally left mine but the loss of contact was brief as his hand touched my jaw a few seconds later, running along the bone and his thumb brushed my cheek.

I let my eyes drift closed and my hand reached up to curl into the leather of his jacket sleeve. I felt him move and his cool cheek pressed against mine, his lips by my ear.

"Never."

In one fluid movement he was gone, walking away without looking back. I watched him walk until he mixed in with the crowd and I couldn't see him anymore, my breath left me in a rush and a sob broke from my chest.