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Otoya instructed Haruka to go to her room and wait for him there. She was intrigued to say the least as to what this plan A was about. Whatever it was, as she got to her room she couldn't help but check how she looked in the mirror. She had been so self-conscious lately that it wasn't even funny. Maybe she should wear make-up… Or at least that's what Tomochika always told her. She had never been a fan of it, but ever since she started dating her boyfriend there hadn't been a moment that went by that she hadn't thought about it. And with that horrible bruise on her forehead the feeling only got worse. But she still didn't know if she should or not given that in one of the magazines where the Starish boys had been interviewed (and that she had proudly made them aware of), Otoya had said that what most attracted him in a girl was a 'natural look'. She guessed that natural and full of make-up weren't quite compatible but still…
Just as she sat down on her bed, still following that train of thought, she heard some soft knocks on the door. She quickly got up and saw Otoya standing outside with a guitar on his hand.
After he came in and closed the door, she asked "Why did you bring the guitar?"
"Oh, because that's plan A: to sing together"
"What? Oh, no… I can't do that… I said it before…"
"I know, you said you couldn't do it in front of everyone… But there is nobody else here, just me… Come on, it'll be just like as if you were alone… except better 'cuz I'll play the guitar" he said smiling.
"… I don't know… What would I sing?"
"Whatever you want, but try to choose a song that I know" he said giggling.
"Okay okay… Ummm… What about… Mirai Chizu?"
"That sounds great!"
After that, he started playing the guitar waiting for her to start singing. When she did, he was so mesmerized he forgot to sing with her. So after not too long, she stopped altogether looking quite embarrassed.
"I'm really bad, aren't I?" she said blushing.
"What? Are you kidding? I totally forgot to join in because I couldn't think about anything but your voice!"
Now she was blushing furiously as she looked down "Re-really?"
"Yes!"
"You're just saying that…"
"No, I'm not! What can I do to prove you that I'm serious?"
She thought about it for a moment, blushing slightly and then she replied "Nothing really… I… I believe you, it's okay…"
"… You don't look too happy about it… What are you thinking?"
She looked up at him and said "Nothing… I just… Why don't we do plan B now?"
"But… Okay. I have to go again then… I'll be right back" he said looking at her as if expecting her approval. When she lightly nodded, he walked out.
Haruka felt silly for acting all sad towards her boyfriend, but all the talking about singing and he convincing her about how good she was, had actually got her really nostalgic. She couldn't help but think about her grandma and all the encouragement she gave her when she decided she wanted to become a composer. If it wasn't for her, maybe she wouldn't have been able to make it.
As she got lost in thought she laid her back on her bed 'I can't take more breaks… I have to make a new hit if I want to stay with Otoya-kun…' She looked up at the ceiling and tried to figure out how she could schedule her work in order to spend enough time with him to be satisfied ('Satisfied? What am I thinking? It's not like I'll do anything weird…' she thought blushing) but still have plenty of time to keep writing songs. It seemed that Shining was still on the "write as many songs as you can so there are more chances to produce a hit" train. It made her feel frustrated given that not too long ago "Maji Love 2000%" had been released.
Suddenly she felt an excruciating pain on her head again. She covered her face with her hands as a reflex and stayed like that for what she thought was the longest time of her life. As the pain became weaker, she felt exhausted. Haruka slowly got up and went to change into her pajamas; she decided that whatever plan B was, it had to wait until another sleepless night.
When she came out of the bathroom, she found Otoya already in her room.
"Oh, you changed" he said.
"… Yes, I think I'm way too tired now… I know you wanted to do plan B, but I think I would just pass out in the process"
"Oh… Don't worry; the whole purpose of the plans was to get you tired so… It's okay… Then… I'll guess I'll go now"
Without verbally responding, she got closer to him and slowly leaned in for a hug. The embrace felt a little too intense. Haruka wasn't really paying attention to Otoya's reaction, but the poor boy was blushing for reasons that he couldn't understand 'We're just hugging! Stop blushing, Otoya!' he thought to himself. In no time, the atmosphere felt a lot warmer, to the point that it made it difficult to breathe. This was the moment that she decided to move her mouth close to his ear and whisper "Don't leave" making him tremble.
"Ha-Haruka… Wha-what are you doing?" he asked nervously.
She pulled away slightly, just enough to look him in the eyes and replied in a whisper "I just don't want you to leave… Can you stay with me for the night?"
"I…" he said looking away blushing.
"Please?"
"Okay, okay… but where do I-" she cut him off.
"Sleep? Right here next to me on the bed"
"I don't know… It doesn't really seem like a good idea…"
"Come on, we already did it once"
"I… Yes, but-"
"But what?"
He sighed and replied "Nothing… I… I'll just go brush my teeth and change… I'll be right back"
As he was walking away she grabbed his arm and pulled him in for a kiss. She wanted to make it soft and sweet but it ended up being just a quick peck on the lips. Sensing how uncomfortable he was, she asked "Are you mad at me?"
"What? No, I'm really happy"
"Oh, yeah? Then tell that to your face"
"Hey, wow. Are you mad at me?"
"Would I ask you to stay the night with me if I were?"
He just looked down in response so she asked "What?"
"I just… if we're going to keep dating like this… I'm gonna have to ask you a favor"
"Umm… yeah, sure… what is it?"
"This is going to sound weird, because I know you're only acting with the best of intentions and you seem to be way more innocent than I am…"
"Wow, what's that supposed to mean?"
"It's not an insult, believe me… It's just… I don't think you are aware of the effect you have in me"
"Effect? What do you mean?"
"I mean uh…" Otoya said thinking 'How the heck do I say this?' As time went by he just kept blushing redder and redder.
"Otoya-kun…" she walked closer to him and put a hand on his face making him meet her eyes "… You can trust me"
"… Okay… umm… you know how 'sleeping together' has a double meaning, right?"
"Uh, yes" she replied blushing slightly.
"Well, every time we kiss a bit too much or lay together on a bed I can't help but think… you know, that… and I know you're not thinking about it and it makes me feel guilty but… Do you know how hard it is to contain myself every time?"
"Oh… I… But, what do you want me to do?"
"Just… try not to make it look like you want that unless you actually do… just try… Because even though I completely respect you and I wouldn't do anything that you wouldn't want… It's hard, and I could use a little help…"
"But why didn't you tell me this before?"
"Because it makes it sound like the only thing I think about is that and I can assure you, it's not… But if you're sitting on my lap kissing me and you push me getting on top of me on the bed… it's a little hard not to think about it, you know? I'm sorry… I… I believe a relationship doesn't need that to become stronger and more meaningful, but I'm only human and… a teenager… my hormones make some decisions that I would rather not, but I really try to stay rational…"
She put a finger on his lips and replied "It's okay; there is no need to apologize… You're honestly the best and I'm sure that I couldn't have dated anyone better. I'll try not to be too blunt next time, but… I have hormones too and sometimes I move without thinking about the consequences, and… I know I said I wasn't ready, and I'm still not, but sometimes I just want to be closer to you and I forget what that implies…"
Hearing that, he moved her hand and slowly leaned in giving her a sweet kiss as he held her head and caressed her cheek. Not too long after she kissed back, he pulled away "Okay, I'll be right back"
Haruka stood there looking at the door after he walked away. It was as if she was frozen. And she wasn't even thinking about something, her mind was just blank.
Some minutes later when he walked through the door wearing his pajamas, she was still standing there. He expected some sort of comment about his ridiculous sleeping wear but she just stared. Otoya got closer to her and waving his hand in front of her face he tried to bring her back to reality. But it didn't seem to work, she was stuck.
"Haruka? Are you okay?" he asked worriedly. He waited for a moment but it seemed that he wasn't going to get an answer so he decided to just go ahead and kiss her again.
Feeling the sudden warmth in her lips and the sweet taste of mint in her mouth, she finally reacted. As she closed her eyes for a moment, he pulled away.
"What happened?" he asked.
"I… I don't know…"
"But… What were you thinking about?"
"Nothing really… I just… I guess I'm just tired"
"Um… Okay? Come on, I'm exhausted" he said pointing towards the bed.
They walked together to the bed and just like the night they started dating, they curled up against each other as they pulled the covers over their bodies.
Not too long after covering themselves, Haruka heard Otoya's deep breathing signaling that he was already sound asleep, and even though that made her want to rest even more, she just couldn't. 'What is going on with me?' she thought. It was pretty weird how tired she was but how impossible it was to sleep anyways. 'I must have insomnia' she thought as she closed her eyes one more time.
After what felt like an eternity, she gave up. 'Maybe I won't get any rest tonight' she thought. 'But I don't understand… First I get completely frozen at nothing and now I can't sleep? Is this because of the hit in my head? No… It can't be… It's not that bad… It really hasn't hurt much since I brushed my teeth… Then what could it be?' Trying to find an answer, she looked up at her nightstand. In there was a photo of her and Starish, taken right after their second concert. They all looked so happy and she could just remember how relieved she felt when it was announced that they had more votes than Heavens. As she reminisced, it hit her: guilt. That was the reason she got lost at nothing and why she couldn't sleep: she felt that all this time she was spending with Otoya and recuperating from her stupid injury was being taken away from her composing and encouraging every member of Starish to give their best.
The longest conversation she had with anyone apart from Tomochika, Otoya and Ringo had been with Ren and she still felt the need to talk to each of the boys. She was deeply worried about how they had taken her relationship with her boyfriend and after having talked to Ren she had only felt more preoccupied. She needed to talk to all of them in private ASAP.
With all of that in mind, finally having figured out her problem, she fell asleep with a smile on her face promising to come up with a solution the next day.
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When Haruka woke up she found it weird how cold she felt. So she slowly opened her eyes and turned around discovering that she was alone. As she looked up at the pillow she saw a little note there. It read: "Dear Haruka: I hope you slept well, it sure looked like it ;) I would've loved to be there with you when you woke up, but I had to work early today. Please be safe and don't hesitate to call me if there is anything that you need (no matter how silly you may think it is). I love you, Otoya" She stared at it for a moment and when the words finally sunk in, she smiled and replied out loud (even though she knew he couldn't hear her): "I love you too" Then she got up and went straight to take a shower.
Before actually getting in, she had to take her bandages off, so once again she stood in front of the mirror as she slowly took them off. She closed her eyes as she did so, but when her forehead was completely uncovered, she had to look. The sight that greeted her wasn't as unpleasant as the day before, and she was glad to say that unless someone hit her in the head, it didn't seem to sting, not in the slightest. Some of the bruises had gotten darker as others lighter, making somewhat of an uneven mirage of colors in her face. It looked pretty weird, but she decided it was actually funny, so the last thing she did before she freshen up was to laugh at herself a little.
