Christian's POV

I don't have any energy left for anything other than "Mother?" as I answer the phone and my heart drops when my mom starts talking, she sounds exhausted.

"Oh Christian, where are you?"

"How's Ana? Where is she? I'm right outside about to walk in, where do I find you?"

"Come to my office, I need to speak to you"

"Mom, how is Ana?" I almost shout at her but she hangs up on me after a quick in draw of breath and a "I'll speak to you in a second" .

God, she can't do this to me, what has happened? It sounds like Ana didn't make it and it takes all my strength not to collapse in the lift. I don't feel any better when I see my mother with her head in her hands as I run into her office.

Grace's POV

Oh what a night! It was a rainy night and so there were 4 separate motor vehicle traumas – why can't people drive more carefully when it is raining?!

However the worst by far was young Miss Anastasia Steele, I don't know how she is related to Christian but I hope she pulls through for his sake as he sounded terrible when I spoke to him earlier.

I was supposed to go home but when the call came through that she was coming in, it was determined that the level of trauma was so high that a number of surgeons were required. It was worse by the time she actually came in, she had lost so much blood, there doesn't appear to be a part of her body that hasn't been impacted and we still don't know the full extent of her injuries. We will be looking for blood donors for her for a while if she pulls through because she has a relatively unusual blood type and she is going to need a lot of it. We almost lost her 3 times on the table but she must be a strong character because each time it was her strength that pulled her back and I swear one time I heard her say "Christian" before she fell back into a state of unconsciousness.

I need to prepare Christian that there is still a chance that we will lose her, she has high impact fractures and massive lacerations to both legs, she has a pelvis fracture, it looks like her left leg is broken in three places and her left arm is hanging strangely indicating that some sort of dislocation of the shoulder has happened – by some miracle despite there being arterial damage, she didn't bleed out. She has abdominal damage and it looks like crushed ribs, a punctured lung and possibly other organs have been damaged – it is the intestinal damage, if any, that could cause all sorts of blood poisoning which is probably our biggest challenge.

We don't know if there is any traumatic brain injury but thankfully it looks like the airbag did the trick in that area and hopefully we won't be dealing with a coma and then brain damage – the fact that she spoke albeit without consciousness was such a relief to the treating team.

I was rather glad to see that the blood on her face was actually just from a rather superficial gash under her hair so one small mercy is that this beautiful girl does not have to worry about facial scarring. Who knows whether she would even be concerned with her appearance, her clothes and her minimal makeup indicate that looks aren't her major concerns but she is a young girl and things like that can seriously damage self-esteem.

We don't think there is any spinal injury so hopefully she will recover but it will be a long and painful recovery with a lot of rehabilitation required – something that usually needs mental support and from the information provided to me by Christian, her family isn't close.

I wonder what she is to Christian, I have never heard him so distraught and his tone just then as I hung up on him, well, he sounded plain scared, please let him talk to me.

My door crashes open, oh no, that look on his face – it brings me back to when I saw him for the first time all those years ago.

"Oh Darling" , I can't believe the pain I see in his eyes.

"Mom, is she alive?" he whispers and he looks like he is holding his breath.

"Yes Darling she is alive" and with that his shoulders relax and he remembers to breathe and steadies himself against my desk.

"Can I see her? I need to see her " and as I shake my head, I'm sure I hear him say, "it's all my fault" but as he sinks onto the closest chair running his his hands through his hair, he won't look at me and despite his obvious distress, he doesn't come to me and let me soothe him, the best I can do is rub his shoulder and hope that he will talk to me.

It looks like it takes a huge effort and in an agonised voice he says "Mom, you've said she's alive, but is she going to LIVE?"

"She should darling, she should, she's under sedation at the moment and they will call me if anything changes" I say.

I want to go through all the injuries with him but first I need to know why she is so important to him and I don't know how to ask him when in a strangled voice he asks "Can you tell me what her injuries are? I am paying for everything, surely that allows me some sort of right to know. I only met her today but she wouldn't have had the accident if it wasn't for me, I wasn't there but I'm responsible for the accident".

I can't bear that it sounds like the self-loathing is back and with a vengeance and I feel I will need to ring John Flynn and soon because I can see Christian closing down in front of my eyes.

"Darling, why do you keep saying it is your fault?"

"Mom forget about that, what are her injuries and how can I help?" and I decide that it isn't worth forcing Christian down that track so I set out all her injuries. He grows visibly paler but asks whether he can be tested for the blood type to see if he can help and I know that is one thing I can do that will make him feel better.

After Christian is tested and we wait for the results, I receive the call from the front desk that I have been dreading, Ana's father is here and wants to see her. I ask Christian if he will be coming in to see Ana's father with me and he straightens his shoulders, dons his controlled CEO facial mask and says he'll come and speak to him.

It is then that I find out some more details, I still can't see why Christian believes he is responsible but I can see that Ana's father, Ray, as he asks us to call him, is impressed that Christian has been so proactive – I think he understands that Ana is only alive because of Christian's actions – I don't know if Christian realises that yet.

This is when I find out that on participating in an interview with Ana at 2pm today he had continued working and then received a phone call at 8pm from her roommate asking if Ana had been there as she hadn't returned home. It appears that he was willing to use his security resources to track and find Ana when he could well have just said "yes, she has been here" and left it at that.

With all the facts that Christian can give him of the accident and the recovery, Ray and I both pale as we hear for the first time that the car was actually wrapped around the tree and even Christian looks surprised when he says, he pushed the car away from the tree but doesn't know how he did it. He goes on to say he and Taylor were able to pull away the door and reach Ana and start assisting her. Christian also assures Ray that he will assist in the investigation of the accident and the recovery of the car she was driving.

Ray looks like a lovely man and I can tell he is impressed at the amount of effort Christian has expended, not only to find her but to make sure she receives the best medical support possible and to organise for her mother to be here as well. I can't help but see, just as Christian does, that Ray does not look like he could afford all these medical expenses and my darling son makes sure to reassure Ray that the costs will be covered and he will not accept a thing for it or any cheaper option.

He doesn't mention to Ray that he feels responsible and I wonder whether I will ever find out why he thinks so, but I am not about to bring that up now. Somehow I can tell that Ray wants to ask why he is doing all this but the set of Christian's shoulders indicates that he has spoken as much as he is able. Ray looks again into Christian's eyes and obviously sees something there and decides to let it go for now and just shakes his hand again with a gruff "Thank you son".

Then the on-duty doctor calls and asks if we will be going down to the room to see Ana and with a nod, Ray says "Let's go." It is a confronting sight to see such a beautiful girl attached to tubes, covered in bandages and with monitors beeping and I can see how shattered Ray is when he looks at Ana.

As Ray takes her hand, the beeps seem to calm a little and I am reassured that the poor girl is loved and with support, will pull through.

Whether the same can be said for Christian, I don't know, he looks absolutely shattered and I can't even imagine what is going through his head as he stands and stares, he looks frozen and then I notice something I have never seen before, tears swim in his eyes but as I gasp, he breaks the trance, blinks and rearranges his face back to the mask – my poor boy!