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Matt's pov:

I stepped out of the classroom at the signal of the bell, just behind the rest of our class, with Mello behind me. It was unusual, for me to be the one in the lead, that was for sure. Usually Mello fell into place in front of me, and that was just how it was.

But lately everything had been changing, it seemed. Mello was running through an unusual amount of inner drama, day after day. Though one day he would be happy, another he would be quiet, and hanging around in the background until something important distracted him.

I didn't understand, at first I had thought it was just stress, but now...I didn't know, and as an old habit of his; if I asked, he wouldn't feel the need to tell me anything at all. It was irritating, and I couldn't figure it out. I even went as far as asking L, but he wouldn't tell me anything. By that, I mean he surely knows, but won't tell me for whatever reason.

What could be going on that is so distressing?

I quickly dumped my books in my locker, before waiting for Mello to place his inside of the compartment neatly, as per usual. When he was done he stood up, running a hand through his hair briefly as he turned to me. His blue eyes meeting my own the second he did. His expression was of a deer caught in headlights for just a moment, as if I had just caught him doing something he shouldn't have been doing.

Nodding behind myself awkwardly and attempting to dismiss the expression, I gestured for us to go to the lunch hall with a; "Lets go"

Mello nodded, coming up beside me as I began to walk.

"I'm sorry" He mumbled to me halfway down the hall, earning a sideways look from me.

"I don't even know what you apologizing for" I told him pointedly, but not harshly, I didn't want to aggravate him, but I wasn't exactly happy with his mood either. He only nodded in response, continuing to walk down the hall with me. Other students were speed walking past us, hurrying to get to the lunchroom with boundless amounts of chatter. So the half of the walk me made, most of the students were ahead of us.

It was when we were just about to enter the lunchroom, that L and Light came up to us from the crowds. Light carrying a bag in his hands, while L's were empty. I raised an eyebrow at the duo, but could barely open my mouth to question what they were doing before they came up to us hurriedly. L grabbing my sleeve lightly, and pulling me in the direction we just came from with an ordered; "Come on".

I followed them compliantly with a quizzical expression, glancing behind myself briefly to see that nobody from the lunchroom had seemed to notice us. At least we weren't going to get in trouble for whatever we were doing, but still, exactly what were we doing?

Mello seemed just as clueless as he kept with us, and when we took a corner into one of the more quiet hallways and slowed down, he was the one to question L and Light.

"What are we doing?" He almost snapped the question, irritability evident in his tone.

This caused Light to turn and look at us, his eyes alight for once, while L continued walking ahead "L got a key to go onto the roof" He supplied, still walking hurriedly.

"Yet we are clearly not allowed too, so he stole it?" I questioned exasperatedly, though I wasn't going to turn back, It sounded interesting.

Light only nodded, and took up a light jog for a second to catch up to L, at this, L turned his head to look at us "You don't have to come, but you should".

I nodded, and with a glance at Mello, who didn't appear completely adverse to it, grabbed his hand and caught up with the two teens ahead of us.

After a quick walk up a few flights of stairs, we arrived at the door to what was apparently the roof. We waited a moment for L to fish the keys out of his notably oversized jeans, before he unlocked the door and with the sound of creaking hinges, opened it. Causing sunlight to float into the stairway, along with a light breeze.

"Here we are" He told us while holding the door open. Me, Mello and Light both exited onto the flat, shortly followed by L. The roof was windy, though surprisingly clean, I would have thought a few puddles and trash in the corners, but the most mess was just a few leaves floating around.

"Come on, I can't carry this forever" Light stated, walking ahead of us and towards a wall, angled in just the right way so that the wind was only a breeze.

I followed, and sat down on the cement beside Light where he was pulling lunch boxes out of the bag. We were soon followed by Mello and L, as L took a box for himself and settled down with it. Mello was looking around the space for a while, and I got the feeling that he quite liked it up here, then he spoke up.

"Do you guys come up here often?" He questioned L, but it was Light that responded.

"We used to a lot when L first came here with Beyond, but we haven't for almost a year" He supplied, while pulling the seal off his lunch box. I nodded, picking up a box and handing it to Mello before grabbing my own.

"So, you've never gotten caught?" I questioned them, meanwhile struggling to open the plastic seal on my own box.

"No, we haven't" L responded this time, "You see, Light was a brat when I first came here, and this was a good place to knock some sense into him" L spoke with amusement, while Light was sending him a glare.

Mello snorted. "As expected, and he still is" The blond scoffed.

"I don't know what you're talking about" The offended teen denied, a frown on his lips "I'm a nice person"

This earned a smirk from L, and from the look on Light's face he knew just what L was going to say. "Says the kid who set up firework traps all over my room when I first got here" L complained, "It took me hours to disarm all those, it was quite rude"

"Oh shut up, you weren't supposed to find them, if you had just stepped on them you could have been saved from the trouble"

"Huh" L sounded disbelievingly, before picking up a slice of raw fish from his lunch box and eyeing it with distrust. "Anyways, you know I don't like fish Light-Kun, why did you get me this one?" He questioned, meanwhile Light was giving him a narrow eyed glare. L payed no attention to Light's look, instead opting to stare at the piece of fish with scrunched features.

Eventually Light gave up with the glare and responded, "Whether you think so or not, only eating sweets isn't good for you" He said, turning to Mello and I "Wouldn't you agree?"

Mello shrugged, and I knew exactly what was crossing his mind, for once in this day. Seeing as Mello wasn't going to, I responded "L's pretty healthy considering, so in my opinion it's fine" I told him, and caught the mildly pleased expression on L's face as he set his box down.

"At least somebody has some sense, unlike Light-Kun" He said, and at that Light huffed.

"Okay L, your jabs are just getting annoying now" The brunette told him, and to my surprise L nodded in compliance.

"I will stop then"

"Good" Light looked pleased, but also a little curious at the compliance at well. Nontheless he continued eating, his gaze going over to Mello and I. "So what's going on with you two anyways? I can't seem to figure it out" Mello tensed up beside me, as the question was mostly directed at him, but I as well didn't know how to answer.

It seemed like L was going to say something, noticing my discomfort. But before he could, a voice interrupted us.

"Light! What are you doing up here?" All of our gazes jerked towards the roof door at once, a last minute reaction of panic on our faces. Until we realized who it was, as the blond began walking over to us at a quick pace. Of course L had thought it unnecessary to lock the door.

"You're not allowed up here" She scolded, her hands finding a place on her hips as her lips formed a pout.

"Misa, how did you know we were up here?" Light questioned calmly, though he had an undertone of annoyance in his voice.

"I saw you walking down this way- and I thought that we were having lunch together" She complained, While Light sighed exasperatedly and stood up to face the girl.

"We have lunch everyday, its not that big of a deal" The brunette reasoned, earning an upset look from Misa.

"But-"

"Misa, I get to spend some time with L alone you know, my world doesn't revolve around you" Light looked irritated, the most I had ever seen the teen since I had gotten here.

At Light's tone Misa looked upset, and a few tears streaked down her cheeks as she stared at him disbelievingly. "But Light, we're together, I thought you wanted to spend time with me" She reasoned quietly, and I got the feeling that even the oblivious girl had an idea what was going to happen. I sure had a good feeling, even though I really didn't think Light would actually do it.

Light let out a sigh, while raising his hands to Misa's shoulders and staring her right in the eyes.

"Misa"

"Yes Light?" The words were barely audible.

"I can't do this, I'm not in love with you so-" Misa looked helpless, it was the best way to describe it, but she was also almost angry. Sure enough, the girl couldn't believe that Light was actually dumping her. "I'm breaking up with you"

In one swift movement Misa pushed Light away, turning around on her heel and stomping across the roof, all the way to the door. We all watched the scene unfold, L looking curious, Mello bland, and Light almost relieved it seemed, though a little shocked with her reaction as he stared after her. Misa paused by the door, her hand on the handle as she tensed her shoulders.

"I hate you, Light!" She shouted in a pitched voice, clearly one choked with sobs, before she swung open the door and slammed it behind her. Light just stared after her for a moment, before his shoulders went slack and he walked back to his previous seat, flopping down on the pavement as if a weight was just taken of his shoulders, or added.

"I knew you didn't like her, but I didn't think you would actually dump her like that" L commented dryly, earning a simple huff from the other teen.

"She's to clingy, I'm tired of putting up with her" He told L as he picked up his lunch box, "She'll get over it eventually, it's fine"

L nodded, though it looked like he was trying to figure something out. I didn't know what he could possibly be trying to come up with, Misa was, like Light had said, way to clingy. I would have dumped her by now, that's for sure.

"How long have you and Misa been together?" I couldn't help but voice the question as Light raised his head.

"About four years, and even before then she was pretty well infatuated with me" He drawled as he picked up a small sushi roll, while I only nodded in response, going back to my own lunch box as L and Mello started up a conversation about last week's tennis match.

Mello's Pov:

I finished up the last few questions on my history exam, before slamming the book closed with a sigh and shoving it back into my bag. With a glance out my bedroom window, I realized that I had lost track of time during my assignment, and that it was getting late.

Currently everyone was either in their rooms or downstairs, Matt being downstairs, which was quite frankly, why I was up here in the safety of my, or rather, Matt's and I's room. My supposed crush on Matt had been the only thing on my mind lately, every second I was thinking about how nice he looked, how much I wanted to hold him close to me, how I wanted to kiss him..but then I realized I would have to be the luckiest person in the world for those fantasies to be real.

And now Matt knew something was very wrong, as well as L. Just, Matt didn't know what it was, and for that I was almost glad. But then again, maybe things would be easier if he knew..No. If he knew, things would just be so awkward.

I let out a long sigh as I let my gaze trail around our room, Matt's side was messy, with game cases thrown everywhere, cords, clothes and blankets that trailed onto my side, while mine was perfectly neat. I felt like I was choking when I thought of him or his belongings, it was the best description, and I hated that feeling.

What would it be like if I didn't have this crush? Is this what Misa felt like about Light? Or rather, still feels like? I felt bad for her, and I usually saved emotions like that for Matt and only Matt, but now I was overflowing with emotions, so I didn't blame myself in the least.

I brought my hands up to me face and let out a groan, I hated emotions so much in that moment. Silly things that caused drama, pain, and misery, but could be so wonderful. I couldn't help but think; love like this, its either wonderful or miserable, and right now I was in the latter.

Letting out another pained sigh, I stood up from my bed and exited my bedroom, noting that Near was still in his room playing with toys. Somehow he got away with pretending to be home sick from school, just so that he could build the Eiffel tower out of paper. If I wasn't already going through so much, I would have ratted him out, but I really couldn't be bothered. It was kind of amusing anyways.

Downstairs Matt and Beyond were talking about school, nothing in particular, girls of course, studies, and my tennis match, which was a failure if you ask me.

"Hey" I greeted as I walked into the room, catching Matt's attention right away, and Beyond's bored one as I approached the couch.

"Hey, whats up?" Matt replied.

I shrugged "I was just finishing up some school assignments" I told them as I rested my arms on the back on the couch inbetween the two. "From what I can tell all you guys are talking about school, so I'm not gonna bother asking" I drawled in a bored manner.

Matt chuckled at that, "Yea"

Beyond, who was fiddling with his finger nails until now, looked up at me then "Hey, Mello, who do you think would be a good match for Matt in school?"

I promptly frowned at him, I couldn't help it. Beyond was asking me who my -Crush? Love? Best friend that I wanted to kiss, would be a good match for?

Of course Beyond noticed the sudden change of expression, and though I was glad that Matt couldn't see it from this angle, it didn't mean that I wanted Beyond to acknowledge it.

"Whats wrong?" The older teen questioned, earning a shrug from me.

"Nothing, I just thought of something" I told them as I stood up straight, "Um, I'm gonna go watch a movie on my laptop I think" I stated unsteadily as I began to make my way up the stairs again. I could feel both Matt and Beyond's confused gazes on my back, and I was sure my face was red, my heartbeat was certainly beating out of my chest, that was for sure at least.

Whats wrong he asks? In that second it crossed my mind, however slightly, that I could have told them then, and if I had? Well I didn't know what would happen, I had a feeling it wouldn't be good though, I was almost certain that Matt didn't feel the same way about me.

when I reached my bedroom, I slammed the door behind me and promptly fell onto the bed, letting myself land face first into the already crumpled comforter. I couldn't breath, but right now I didn't care, not breathing would be fine price to pay if these feelings just went away.

It was then that I heard the creaking of floor boards and tensed up, easily recognizing Matt's footsteps. He had a habit of walking on the fronts of his feet, making his footsteps very silent, almost like Near's, and undeniably recognizable. If I wasn't already suffocating from the fabric on my bed, I would have held my breath anyways. He was coming here, obviously noticing something was wrong.

Something? Funny, because it seemed like everything was wrong at this point.

"Mello?" He questioned as he opened the door and walked into the room "I'm getting worried, you've been off all month and its only getting worse" He didn't seem perturbed that I didn't react, he probably expected something like that from me anyways.

I felt the bed sink down under his weight as he sat beside me, and cringed. He was too close, I could feel how warm he was, and it was almost painful at this point.

"Mello, look at me" His voice was firm now. "I really doubt you can breath like that" He sounded a little worried now, and that was right, my chest was constricting painfully and my throat was starting to hurt. Complying, I lifted myself up from the bed and moved into a sitting position, deciding that the position was to painful. At that, I had my back still partially turned to him as I started breathing again. It felt better to breath than to not, of course.

"Mello, you have to tell me, now, and there is no getting around it" He demanded, and I believed him. I had avoided his questions all month, even Matt, the usual pushover, could be the most stubborn person in the world if he wanted.

I opened my mouth, wanting to tell him so badly, but also wanting so badly not to, to just avoid it.

"Um-" I only noticed then, when I got that syllable out, that I was crying, my throat was constricted and my eyes watering. I hated this...

"Just say it, please"

And now he was begging me, Matt begging me, in all his seriousness.

"I-" I turned my head to him, looking at his face through my bangs. Concern was painted over all of his features, and I couldn't help but feel bad, the things racing through his head right now. He was probably imagining the worst possible scenario's, maybe I had cancer, maybe I killed somebody, maybe I joined a gang..

I put my hands to my face, letting out a choked sob as I did so, in response he put his hand on my back. I tensed up at the action, but I was more distracted with the tears falling into my hands in that moment.

"Mello-"

"I love you dammit!" I yelled, my voice cutting off into another round of sobs. Promptly I felt Matt's hand withdraw from my back, and many thoughts crossed my mind, along with a plummeting feeling that could be accounted to..Fear.

Matt's Pov:

He loves me? Well of course he loves me, we're best friends..

Oh.

I froze. Surely he didn't, the teenager who was crying in front of me right now, crying his heart out, he couldn't love me in that way, could he? I removed my hand from his back, somehow it just felt wrong to touch him, like I was..I didn't know, but that was my first instinct.

We were best friends, this had to be some sort of joke? Right? We have been best friends since we were little, not attracted to each other at all.

It didn't make any sense, it had to just be a crush. But then he was acting this way over a crush? I knew my deduction was wrong, Mello was smart, he wouldn't be acting this way over just a small crush, And the way he said it, he could have just said; I like you. But he went for love...

No, he can't love me like that. We're best friends..Not..No...

Slowly, like I was almost glued to the ground I stood up from the bed. Mello was less crying now, and more shaking uncontrollably, but that hardly processed with me. I felt like everything was a cloud, foggy, I couldn't think.

Mello couldn't love me, he just couldn't. It was wrong, so wrong, I didn't feel that way about him at all.

"You-" I paused, staring at the floor almost listlessly, "You can't do that"

I needed out of here, I couldn't breath. I couldn't be in the same room as him right now, let alone the same building. I needed out.

I didn't really think about it as I rushed out of our room, downstairs and into the bootroom. I grabbed my jacket, and slipped on my shoes sloppily, barely registering Beyond and L's inquiries as I rushed out the door.

He can't.

That is the only thing that went through my head as I flipped open my phone and scrolled through my contacts.

My heart was racing, and I felt like crying, I didn't know why. Maybe it was because Mello was, maybe it was because I couldn't love him, or maybe it was because it freaked me out. Nontheless I found Misa's number and dialed her up.

I just couldn't be around Mello right now.

L's Pov:

Me and Beyond both stared at the now closed door that Matt just rushed out of, silent for a few moments in confusion. Though I was piecing together what must have happened, I was still quite shocked nontheless.

Beyond was the first one to speak, his usual sarcastic tone in place, though it didn't go without a tinge of concern. "I'm assuming you know what just happened?"

I nodded, but offered no further explanation. A second went by, before Beyond got irritated at my lack of explanation.

"Well, are you going to tell me what just happened? Oh wise one?"

I shook my head disdainfully, about to explain, when a crash sounded from upstairs. I instantly clued in, and stood up from my seat, shortly followed by Beyond who was looking a mix between annoyed and curious. Another crash sounded, and I made my mind up as I began to hurry up the stairs, followed by Beyond.

"Mello?" I questioned when I reached the door, placing my palm over the handle and preparing to open it.

"Go the fuck away!"

"what happened?" I persisted, sharing a concerned glance with Beyond, and vaguely noting that Near and Light were now standing in the hallway beside their bedroom doors.

"Like you don't know already! Just leave me alone!" The blond shouted from the other side of the door, and in reaction I dropped my hand back to my side.

"Alright" I agreed, turning back to Beyond and the others, letting out a sigh I began to walk over to Light, where he was still positioned by our door.

"Hey, aren't you going to tell us what happened?" Beyond snapped, irritation crossing his features as I glanced back at him.

"You'll figure it out eventually" I told him, before proceeding to enter my room, sharing a knowing glance with Light as I passed him.

Mello would cool down eventually, and Matt would come back in a few days at the most, I was certain of that. I was just more concerned about what would happen afterwards.

Authors note: Well Matt's just mean isn't he? Anyways, please tell me what you think, last chapter got zero reviews and I can say I was a little disappointed :( If you like it, it would be most appreciated if you even just commented with a smiley face :) And thank you to everyone who has been reading so far! You're support helps a lot!