Authors note: This chapter has a lot of Pov changes and different scenes, I tried my best to tell you when and where each time, but it might be a little confusing :/ So just tell me if one part isn't clear enough and I will fix it okayy? ^^

Disclaimer: I do not own Deathnote, if I did, Misa would be portrayed as a little less obsessed with Light. Just a little.

L's Pov:

I could hear Matt, Mello and Beyond entering the house, but I didn't acknowledge them as I crouched a few inches away from Light on his bed. My cheek still throbbed lightly, but I didn't pay attention to that. Right now my only attention was on Light.

I knew, I knew a few things.

I knew I pushed him to hard, resulting in the hit that was essentially my fault. I knew that I liked Light a lot that way, it clicked once I kissed him. Really clicked. Before I wasn't sure, but looking back on my attitude, and how I have been treating this situation, I couldn't say no to that.

I knew that I acted irrationally, and so did Light. But the main thing now, is that I knew that this turn of events have shaken Light, and now he is sitting beside me, his head hung as he purposefully put a few inches between us. I had never really noticed how closely we sat in general, until I found myself wanting to sit closely to him again.

For a second time in my life, I watched him sit, drawn into himself, his hands clasped until his knuckles turned white, and his hair covering his face.

After he had apologized to me, he took a long moment to process what had just happened, before he just sat down on his bed like this, only answering my questions with a; 'Just be quiet for a minute, L', that I complied with.

He wasn't taking this so well, and from my view he wanted this badly, but his perfectionist side wouldn't allow it. People at school would surely think differently of him, though only certain ones. Misa would be fine with it, after a while at least, Teru is most likely gay himself, Takada would take it fine as well, and other people didn't matter much. But from Light's view, panicked, he probably thinks that his whole life will be destroyed.

So I am staying quiet, letting him process until he comes to a conclusion, and then I will tell him what I believe. I needed to let him cool down. And it was a good twenty minutes before he did, and even then it was only a quietly murmured 'L' that caught my attention, making me raise my head and turn to face him more.

He still had his gaze on his lap, much to my disappointment.

"Yes Light?" I responded softly, and at my voice he raised his head as well. I was lightly shocked to see that his eyes were teary, and all of his barriers that he usually held up, were gone.

"I, uh.." He trailed off and shifted in his seat, still looking at me but avoiding my gaze. I raised a hand and placed it on his neck, a few of my fingers cording through his hair as I did so, and he let out a sigh in response, before he continued.

"I don't know what to do...now" I nodded, but didn't say anything, eliciting another sigh from him. "You..I like you, and I have for years, but I can't handle it"

"It will be fine, despite what you think, people wouldn't really be that surprised" I offered, and after a couple seconds of consideration he finally met my eyes.

"We can't tell anybody" He stated firmly, and promptly earned a frown from me.

"Yes we can Light, people won't mind at all" I reinstated, and Light scowled at me.

"No we can't, I will do this with you because I want to, but I won't let anybody know, and neither will you" He grit out the words, and I felt a pang in my chest. So now I knew more, not just that he is terrified of telling people of the status that we apparently have, but he's also scared to let me know he cares.

"Light-"

"No" He shook his head, and I stayed quiet, letting him continue. "I want this L, and don't make me say any of those words, okay?" I nodded, perpetually annoyed at his complex "and I don't want anybody to know, so can you do this with me?"

Hide? From everyone? We are in a house of six, and at school, there is only a 40% chance that this will stay hidden for more than a few weeks. He will adjust in time, so I guess it could work, many teens stay hidden for years before they come out together...and its not that big of a deal, as much as it bothers me, I guess.

Light was glaring at me as I hesitated, and one of his hands were gripping the blanket on his bed. clearly, he was scared that I would disagree. I wanted to.

"Alright, Light" I breathed out after a moment, and in return Light let out a relieved sigh.

"Thank you"

"Hmm" I sounded as a frown came to my face, and Light could easily see that I wasn't okay with this. After a second he leaned into me a little, one of his hands resting on my leg.

"L, I know you don't like this, but it won't be forever okay?" In other words he's saying, 'I want this, but its hard for me, so help me' and I could respect that, so I nodded.

"okay"

A light smile played on his lips, before he leaned in and kissed me again. This time it was different though, not rushed, and I enjoyed it much more.

Mello's Pov:

Light and L weren't out of bed yet, and clearly Matt thought is was odd as well because he mentioned it as we walked downstairs. Though I ended up dismissing it, they were probably just skipping breakfast or something..Actually that probably wasn't it, but I could really care less and didn't want to ponder it that much.

"So uh.." Matt paused in the middle of the stairs, and I followed suit with a questioning look, urging him to continue. "I just, are we going to let everyone know? Like at school?"

He looked worried, for which reason I didn't know. He may have been scared of people knowing, or having to hide it. Or maybe he was worried that I was embarrassed about him, but in that case I found it to be ludicrous. Either way, I smirked at him and pulled him down a few steps by the waist, before holding him against me, our faces only a few inches apart.

"In my opinion, we don't have to hide it. If somebody has a problem, they can go get fucked, right?"

This earned a chuckle from Matt, and he landed a peck on my lips, his eyes meeting mine sincerely. "I agree completely"

I grinned in response, and continued walking down the stairs with him, my arms still wound around his waist, but loosely this time.

Downstairs in the kitchen Sachiko was making some sort of Japanese pancakes, which was okay for breakfast in my opinion, and Beyond and Near were in the living room, sitting on the floor and making structures out of books from the bookshelf. Beyond grinned when he noticed us, and waved a light greeting before turning back to the structure of books the two were making. Near ignored us completely, of course, so my attention went to their structure, I'm sure Matt's was too. It wasn't just a waste of space this time, but it didn't even make anything interesting. Maybe it resembled the Tokyo Tower a little...but hardly.

I couldn't help but question it as me and Matt sat down on the couch, though it wasn't rudely, I was a pretty good mood. "What are you guys' building this time?"

Apperently my lack of snarky tone caught Near's attention, as he finally looked up at us blankly. "Mello is in a good mood" He remarked, but didn't answer the question. I scowled at him.

"Well its steadily dropping, so answer the question"

Matt chuckled beside me, and Near shook his head, before turning back to the structure. Then, Beyond took the initiative after placing another few books onto it, and looked up at me with a grin.

"It's the Tokyo tower" He simply offered, before going back to it. I raised and eyebrow and Matt let out a 'huh?' from beside me.

"How?" I questioned. "It doesn't even looks close" Actually it did, considering I was correct in my guess but...it hardly did still.

"Its the base" Near deadpanne, and I caught the sarcastic tone in his voice, But I only huffed and stood up in response, followed by Matt as I walked over to Near. He looked up at me, wondering what I was doing, and I promptly leaned down and flicked his cheek, earning a confused expression from him as he stared at me.

"What was that?"

"I flicked you, dimwit" I told him, mimicking his deadpan as I straightened up and turned to look at Matt with a smile.

"Wanna go to the park before school?"

"Sure" He grinned.

Matt's Pov:

Who knew that everybody else in school would know about us so quickly, not that I minded to much, but it was still a little awkward. Misa, who had greeted us at our first class, quickly caught on, and we took it in stride as she chirped excitedly about how happy for us she was. Then Takada and Mikami came up to us after that class and, with genuine surprise asked us a few questions, before clapping me on the back and saying Mello was a catch.

I had to agree, but the attention wasn't exactly what I wanted.

So by lunch all of our classmates had caught on, along with a few teachers and other students. We did kiss in the hallways a few times, so we weren't exactly secretive either, and even if I felt a little uncomfortable with the PDA, I liked it.

People didn't seem to judge either, they just talked about us a little more than the other couples. I guess for once I was glad we were in Japan, as England wouldn't have been this accepting with it. We would have had to put up with a few haters at the least.

So I was pretty happy when me and Mello arrived at the cafeteria, and sat down by our group of friends that I honestly didn't think we would have when we first arrived in Japan. Let alone, for them to actually like us.

"Hey guys, having fun?" Beyond greeted us with a grin as we sat down, and the greeting was followed by Misa as she handed us two lunch boxes.

"Hey, and yes, actually we have been" Mello told everyone with a rather cocky smirk, and I promptly blushed as I tore into my box.

"I'm sure Matt and Mello are having plenty of fun, in fact they started their day by teasing me, so I don't see why they wouldn't" Near's sarcastic remark came from beside Misa, and I couldn't help but let out a chuckle alongside Mello.

"And how exactly did they pick on you Near?" Takada asked politely, though a smile was on her face.

He turned to her with a frown, "Are you finding amusement in my distress miss Takada?" he spoke pointedly, and takada promptly replied.

"No, of course not Near" She said innocently.

Their banter continued, Near dropping out of the conversation as Misa took to joking around with L, but I didn't pay much attention as I leaned against Mello and continued eating my meal.

I had friends, a home that was guaranteed for the next two years, and my best friend who I could kiss. It couldn't get much better than this, and clearly Mello was thinking the same as he shared a smile with me.

"How do you guys feel about a movie night?" Beyond cheerfully shouted from the bootroom as he came back from wherever he had gone. L gave the hallway a dubious glance, Though Mello was the one who responded, as he came back from the kitchen with a bowl of chocolate ice cream.

"Movies are full of bad actors and plot holes, why?" He spoke as he plopped down beside me on the couch, and not a second later Beyond was in the living room doorway with a grocery bag in hand, and a predictable grin on his face.

"Because its fun, and me and L used to do it all the time" He supplied, while he made his way to the couch and took a seat beside L who was crouched with his laptop.

"L and I" The ravenette corrected him, eyes not leaving the screen, before he continued "and I only ever did it because Roger forced me to hang out with you, and I had nothing better to do"

I perked up at the name, and so did Mello, I noticed. But before we could say anything Beyond was whining to L with a pout. Note that Beyond pouting just didn't suit him, and I wished he would stop.

"But L, you watch that dumb TV series, what is it? Terrace House?- all of the time, and you don't want to watch an actually good film with all of us?" He paused, turning to Mello and I "and you guys don't either, whats wrong with you?"

Mello sighed, "I'll watch a few movies if they're okay, but-" he started, but was promptly cut off by L.

"Roger Ruvie from Wammy's House, yes, we went there as well"

I wasn't exactly expecting L to have noticed our reaction to the name, but I guess it was at least a bit expected, so I didn't say anything about him interrupting. But, he was awfully short about it, and it surprised me. I had noticed earlier that he was in an odd mood, but this was the most that he had shown it all day.

Of course Mello didn't like being interrupted though.

"What is wrong with you today? You've been short since yesterday morning" He grumbled with a scowl on his face, and even Beyond was looking at L questioningly now. L only sighed in response, and didn't answer, so after a few silent seconds of Mello's glaring Beyond spoke up again and redirected the conversation.

"So, movie or not?"

I shrugged, dismissing L's bad mood and responded to Beyond.

"I'll watch a movie, unlike Mello and L I don't pick them apart" I told him with a smirk, and Beyond grinned,

"Alright, I'm going to make some popcorn, and bring out a few snacks-" He stood up with the bag in hand. "Go so if Near and Light will join us, will you?"

I nodded, and with that he headed off to the kitchen. Leaving Mello to question L again.

"Seriously, what is going on with you?"

"I don't want to talk about it Mello, I'm fine" He told us pointedly, and though I didn't believe him, I stood up anyways and pulled Mello and his ice cream with me.

"C'mon, lets go see if Light and Near want to join us"

"Alright" He followed suit as I headed up the stairs, but he still gave L an annoyed look as we left. I didn't bother saying anything, Mello didn't like being told 'no', but he would quickly get over it.

Light's Pov:

Okay, so watching Matt cuddled in Mello's lap as we watched a movie made me feel a little annoyed. But I still didn't want anybody to know about L and I.

Who knows if we will even work out? And as much as I would like to be comfortable around L in public, I can't. People knowing, it made me sick to my stomach, even if they were practically okay with it. I didn't want to be known as 'gay', and I didn't want to be known as 'different'. People would label me, and I wouldn't be able to take it. It would be like before I came here, and I couldn't live through that again. Ever.

So I waited the movie through, meanwhile sitting a few inches away from L, and closer to Beyond. I picked apart the actors, and the plot, and I spared Matt and Mello just a few jealous glances. I was also having an inward battle, because I wasn't exactly happy like this, things with L and I were tense like this, and like this, it wasn't what I wanted.

Which is exactly why I didn't want this to happen in the first place, and now everything is messed up.

By the time the credits were rolling I wanted to end my existence, as I couldn't stop thinking about us. But nontheless, I silently helped clean up the small mess we had made and headed up to my room afterwards, soon followed by L.

As expected, shortly after I got up to our room and sat down on my bed, L joined me. I didn't look at him as the bed sunk under his weight beside me, but I did turn my head in surprise when his arms looped around my waist and his lips pressed against my neck.

We stayed in silence for awhile before he spoke.

"I think we should forget about everybody else, its just us"

Words of advice from L were strange, especially sentimental ones like this. But my response was a nod, followed by and smile as I turned around in his grasp to look at him.

"I love you, you know" It was a fact, nothing super sentimental like that, just a fact. But I did, he helped me when I was younger to overcome my ridiculous fears, and I would never forget him. So in essence, even if I wasn't feeling very loving at the moment, I still loved him.

"I know, and so do I" He stated, before leaning in and capturing my lips. It felt good, a feeling I had wanted all of the time before, and now I had it. So even as tense as things were, I met the kiss fully, ran one hand through his thick locks of hair, and bit his lip in request to deepen the kiss. By which he complied with as his hands made there way under my shirt, and caused me to shiver at the unfamiliar feeling.

L's Pov:

I knew it was coming.

One week of watching Matt and Mello have a fairly smooth relationship, while we hid, was wearing on Light and I both. I wasn't exactly happy, mainly in public, and as much as I would enjoy hiding than not being with Light, it wasn't fair to us.

So at dinner, with everybody when Beyond made a joking comment about how Light and I should 'totally get together' because Matt and Mello are, Light snapped.

"Well its nice to know that you would be so supportive Beyond" He grit out, as he dropped his fork onto his plate and leaned back in his chair with a glare, immediately catching the attention of everybody at the table. "Because that would be such a great situation right?"

He earned a bunch of confused looks from everyone, including Soichiro and Sachiko, and I was about to speak before Soichiro questioned him.

"Light, that shouldn't have offended you, don't be so rude even if Beyond is family"

Light just snorted, before abruptly standing up from his seat and pushing his plate away.

"Sorry, but excuse me, I'm not hungry anymore" His voice was bitter as he walked out of the room towards the stairs, leaving behind a bunch of confused gazes, and it was a few seconds into his absence Until Mello spoke up.

"Okay, what was that?" His baffled voice cut through the silence as he directed the question at me, while I sighed and stood up.

"I'm going to go talk to him" I told them as I stood up, but I stopped when Matt spoke up.

"Are you guys together?"

I paused and looked over my shoulder, I should have known that Matt would figure it out before anyone else... Soichiro gave Matt a startled look when he said that, but stayed silent as he waited for my explanation.

"For a little under two weeks, yes" I suppled, before I left them in favor of going upstairs to talk with Light. I didn't care if they knew now, they needed to, whether Light liked it or not.

I assume they would have figured it out anyways.

Light was sitting in the desktop chair when I got to our room, and immediately he looked up at me, stopping the back and forth motion that he was making on the wheels before I stepped inside. "They know now" He stated more than questioned, as I walked up to him with a nod.

"Yes, they do"

He sighed in response, and went quiet, so I took the initiative and crouched down in front of him, grabbing his hand in the process as I looked him in the eyes. He didn't hide his face this time, just stared at me blankly.

"Light, we need to come out now" His frown deepened, but I continued, he needed to hear this. "Everyone comes out eventually, and it is doing more harm than good to us, to not, and to everybody else who is in this situation too. People are going to know, but they won't care, they will think a little differently of you of course, but knowing you it won't change your position in the world"

He just stared at me with that same blank look and a frown, and I stayed silent until he gave in and spoke up.

"I didn't want anyone to know" He muttered disdainfully, earning a shrug from me.

"But now they do, and its perfectly okay Light. So lets get our acts' together"

"All I ever do is act" He noted, still frowning at me.

"Then drop the act"

"Wow, I wouldn't have thought.."

Takada was almost gaping as she stared at Light and I holding hands, while Teru looked genuinely surprised, and Misa simply smiled. Misa's reaction was a bit unexpected, but it could only mean she somehow knew already.

Right now we are at the front gates of the school, Light and I having found our main school friends just arriving at the gates when we did. Light was nervous, and had tried to let go of my hand, but I kept up and nearly dragged Light over to the small group. Then after we greeted them, they inquired about the clear sign of holding hands, and we came out.

Simply that. It was easier than I thought it would be, that is for sure, to just say it. I thought it might have been at least a little hard for me, but it wasn't bad at all. I could tell Light wasn't comfortable though.

He was tense and his hand was a bit sweaty, even though he kept on a polite and slightly embarrassed face for them.

"Well, I don't mind at all you two, though it does surprise me" Teru chuckled, and he had the most friendly smile on his face.

"Well, thank you, I wasn't so sure how you would react" Light's reply was simple, polite again, and he smiled lightly. But as soon as the reply was finished Misa came up to him with smile and clapped him on the back.

"I'm glad that you told us" She chirped with a grin, and I couldn't help that think 'yes, she had to have known for awhile, if only by a hunch'. "We wouldn't want you two to be perpetual closet cases now would we?"

Light gave her an interested look, as if he couldn't believe that she was fine with it, but nodded gratefully. "Yea, we wouldn't want that Misa"

"Well.." Takada gave a polite cough to catch our attention, before she pointed to the school building. "We should get going, class starts in a few minutes"

"Four minutes" Light smiled reassuringly, "But don't worry, thats plenty of time"

Beyond's Pov:

The auditorium was busy, as expected. Today, much to the surprise of most of the students, two scholarships were being announced. It surprised me as well, and I don't think any of the teachers knew that this was going to happen until today either. It just goes to show how unprepared even the best of schools can be.

I was sitting beside Matt and Mello, Near having gone off into a corner somewhere saying that; "It is much to crowded in here for comfort" so he was going to be somewhere on the sidelines watching, and L was a few seats away. I couldn't see Light from where I was, but I am certain that he is somewhere around here too, just out of view.

As we waited for the announcer to arrive at the stage, Matt and Mello chatted idly, and though I'm sure they didn't mean it, they were practically ignoring me. So I was getting bored and fidgety, shifting unconsciously in my seat every few seconds and paying a large amount of attention on the cherry wood ceiling. I wish Near had stayed with me, and now I was seated beside a rather chubby kid, who smelled faintly of popcorn and kept trying to talk to me. I ignored him.

It was approximately fifteen grueling minutes of pretending not to hear the kid, before the school's principal came up onto the stage, tapping the mike in a vague order for everyone to quiet down. It was only when most of the crowd calmed down that I heard Mello's hushed and almost frustrated; "We'll talk about this later" and turned to look at the two inquiringly. But I was only met with a dismissive shrug from Matt before Mr. Omori began to speak.

I blurred out most of it, not caring. I knew that L and Light would be the ones getting the scholarships, so I didn't need to, and soon enough L was called onto the stage, and once he was up, quite predictably Light was called.

I should have noticed L's unsure expression when he was sitting down before, but now I really did now when no one stood up to enter the stage. L's eyes clearly scanned the crowd, and rested on me eventually, asking the silent question of; if I knew anything. But I could only shake my head, slight worry and memories lacing my thoughts.

Light's name was called again, before L spoke quietly to Mr. Omori, and after a few of what seemed to be questions, Mr. Omori turned back to the mike.

"Well, it seems Yagami Light isn't here today, so for now we will only assign the first scholarship to L-"

The ceremony continued without Light, and L put up a small speech of thanks before hurrying over to us. I noticed Near catch up with him partway down the stairway, and asking a few questions as they shuffled through the seats, until they arrived by us. Immediately Mello straightened up to question L.

"Where is he?"

But L only shook his head, gaze drifting to me, and solidifying my suspicions. "I believe Light-kun panicked because of his recent outing, and has left the school grounds" His voice was solemn, a little worried, and he was slouched more than usual.

"Okay, so he probably just went home right?" Matt spoke up this time, him seeming a little more worried then his boyfriend, but more confused than anything. He was most likely thinking something along the lines of 'Why would Light, being so composed in general, miss the scholarship ceremony just because he was upset?'. It was reasonable, as they didn't know Light so well as L and I.

"No, and I'm betting we are going to have to go find him before he does something exceptionally stupid" I mumbled "Last time he snuck into a bar called the Blue Note and got beaten up, so.." I trailed off in the explanation, Leaving Matt and Mello to give me a baffled look. It certainly wasn't expected of Light to act this way, but it happened here and there, and when it did, from experience I knew he would get into some sort of trouble.

L sighed, "Yes, but luckily that place closed down last year, so he can't go there anymore. But I'm going to have to go find him, and without the Blue Note he will go somewhere else.." L spoke with an unusually downcast tone, and he appeared to be irritated as he straightened out his posture a little. I didn't blame him for feeling irritated though. "I'm skipping the rest of school and hopefully I won't have to contact Soichiro, so help me find him if you want" He finished, and looked at Matt and Mello inquiringly.

"We'll help, I don't care about missing classes" Mello spoke up, and Matt nodded in agreement, earning a grateful nod from L.

"Alright"

Authors note: Ack! A whole day late! I'm such a failure...x_x well anyways, I only got inspiration for this at the last scene, so I don't know how good this chapter is :( Sorry guys. Aside from that, Light really is compulsive isn't he?