Author's Note: I would like to acknowledge in this note that the fan fiction "Paging Dr Steele" explained to me how Elena's pedophilia manifested with Christian Grey and how he didn't/couldn't see the effect she had on him. It really made sense to me and I have used that as the inspiration/basis of what happens in this chapter – so all credit to BronzeGoddess and her story, Paging Dr Steele.

Taylor's POV

Ah shit, the she-devil is trying to get access. I am so tempted to tell her to piss off and leave the Boss alone. I swear, I don't know what hold she has over him but it is evil and I don't like the fact that she was trying to get into Miss Steele's room. Ugh, she looks drunk, just what I need. Who the fuck does she think she is to turn up at this time of night.

I walk to the study "Sir, the situation has moved to the bottom of the Escala escalator. Mrs Lincoln appears to be drunk and is asking for access, do you want me to let her in or tell her to go home?"

I expect him to say "Send her up" and instead a look of anger crosses his face and he says "Who the fuck does she think she is to turn up at this time of night? Call her a cab so that she doesn't hit anyone with her car and send her home. I don't want to see her" and I swear, I'm sure that under his breath he said "I don't want to see her again, I need to understand what the fuck is going on".

Internally I'm turning into a cheerleader squealing "Hallelujah, let me help please, please!" I would be so happy to see the end of that bitch as would Gail, she can't stand her either and I trust her read on people, she is generally right.

Oh I am going to enjoy this little confrontation and I smile to myself as the escalator descends. "I'm sorry Mrs Lincoln, but I cannot allow you up. May I have your keys please?" She is rather surprised and it shows me how drunk she is because before she has a chance to think she hands me the keys and then as her brain catches up, she lunges at me to try and get them back and almost topples over. As I steady her I say "I have organised for a cab to ensure you return safely to your residence, your car will be returned safely for both you and the public," and escort her out as she protests that she needs to see Christian NOW and I respond that it is not possible and just deposit her in the cab and give the driver her address.

I'll deal with her car later when the next security comes on shift, we'll tag team and drop the car off and continue onto our next location.

Now I need some sleep.

Morning comes and I am up at the normal time for our morning run and the Boss tells me we are running to Dr Flynn's offices. Excellent, hopefully the Doctor will be able to get into his head to shake him out of the shitty mood he's in this morning and I need some information and hopefully patient confidentiality be damned, he can tell the Boss about what is going on with Cecilia. The Boss is tearing himself apart about her and I need to know what the fuck I am up against, whether security is still at risk or the fact that she is contained means the issues are at rest.

John Flynn's POV

Goodness, could he look any worse? "Christian, have you had any sleep?" I say as I wave him to the sofa.

He drags his hands through his hair and ignoring what I asked, he carefully chooses his next words like they are taking more effort than normal to express and when he speaks, it is at a volume barely above a whisper. "Tell me why you call Elena a pedophile?" and my mouth opens and shuts like a goldfish, never had I expected him to ask that question. Normally he defends her and can't countenance that word in the same sentence as her name.

So I start gently "Did Elena make you feel special? Like what you did with her could never be spoken about because it wouldn't be special? You have said she says "love is for fools", did she label any other feelings you may have had as superfluous and wasted? Did that stop you from wanting to have feelings so that you internalised anything like that as wasted? Did she make you believe that the world began and ended with her? Has she controlled every human interaction other than your work and family ones?"

For every question there had been a resigned nod but at the last one his head snapped back and he looked at me. His eyes widening and then I see it, the realisation dawning in his eyes and his hands go into his hair and he audibly groans as he gets up and punches his hand into the filing cabinet. "I have been such a fucking idiot haven't I? She is still controlling me, she's still fucking with my head and I'm a fucking grown man. How have I been so fucking stupid? How have I not seen it?"

"Because Christian, it started when you were 15, it became your normal and it overrode the obvious love of your family. They respected your boundaries but while your earlier boundaries had been yours based on abuse, your later boundaries were born out of abuse as well but you didn't see it. Your family thought it was the same abuse so they didn't see it and the only person who knew it wasn't the same thing had manipulated the first abuse into the second and intensified it."

He shudders and for the second time in two days I see him starting to retreat into himself and I don't have Ana or Grace here to pull him out so I have to stop it before he disappears too far.

I ask a question "Has something happened that I have missed?" and he shifts in his seat and looks like he is using all his internal power to answer my question.

He sits with his head in his hands and says "I have some background information as to what happened to Ana when her mother was with Stephen Morton back in 2005. It concerns Cecilia and what might have happened before they came onto the scene. I have every belief that Stephen Morton was molesting Cecilia and may still be doing so."

He continues "I sat there thinking how could a father do that, how could you do that to a child and how could she still be there with him and why did she attempt to use me for his benefit and she didn't have any friends and then why did she go back to him until recently and I came to the conclusion that he must be controlling her."

He looks tortured but continues "As I sat there trying to figure out why someone would do that, I ….I…." and his voice breaks but he summons some strength from somewhere and continues "I realised that that's what Elena has done with me, she hasn't done things for me, she has been using me. All the subs have been provided by her, she controlled all that, made sure we met once a week so she could keep feeding shit into my brain. It's all been about control and me not thinking. I wouldn't let someone do that in business, I never let anyone into that brain space, I control that, no-one gets close and that works in that situation but it doesn't work in life. My personal life is an empty shell."

Again he pauses for a breath and takes it in shakily and he looks at me, his grey eyes darting up to my face and back down to his fingers clenched in his lap "I have seen something in the last 2 days that has shaken every belief I have to the core. Elena led me to believe that the only way I could exist was to be in total control, I had to be the master of everything. I must not show any feelings, to do so was weak. To control I have to dominate and yet in the last two days I have seen something else, you can control others by giving and accepting love. How have I never seen that before? How is that it took a girl I don't even know to exude love and suddenly everyone is wanting to do everything possible to fix the situation – even me.?"

He draws a jagged breath, "It's not control, I don't know what the hell it is but Ana makes me feel peaceful – John, I have never felt peaceful. I. Have. Never. Felt. Peaceful. Not before with the crack whore and the pimp where I was always hungry, dirty and trying not to get hurt. Not with Grace and Carrick where I expected them to discover that I was rotten to the core initially because of the pimp and then because Elena said if they found out about our lifestyle, they would disown me. And since then, the whole lifestyle has been like a millstone around my neck, if anyone found out, I'd be ruined, everything I have worked so hard for would be ruined. Yet when Ana holds my hand and takes comfort by my presence, it's as if nothing and I mean nothing matters – her soul is speaking to mine and mine isn't dark anymore. For the first time in my life I feel peaceful."

He visibly shudders and reaches for the water bottle and takes a long drink and then says "You know when I realised that? When Elena tried to break into Ana's room last night."

And my head snaps up at that bit of news. Elena obviously found out and thought Ana was a threat and how right she was I think gleefully, Ana is the breakthrough I have been waiting for, for years.

He continues with, "I sat there last night thinking, why the hell would she have gone there, why was she drunk and disorderly when she came to Escala to see me. I didn't let her in by the way. And then it hit me, she hadn't controlled the situation, she didn't like that and it spiralled from there and I realised she has been controlling me since I was 15 – basically leading me around by my dick."

"Congratulations Christian" I say feeling quite emotional and realising how much of a toll this must be taking "I think you have made the biggest breakthrough. Did you get any sleep at all last night?" at his shake of the head I am not surprised.

Before I have a chance to say any more he starts firing off questions like they are burning holes in his brain and he really needs to get them all out.

"Has Cecilia said anything about why she ran Ana off the road? Has she said anything about why she has been hanging around GEH?" Why has she been spying on me for the last two weeks? It had nothing to do with Ana the fact that she was hanging around GEH. Why does she hate Ana? Can you ask Cecilia if she had anything to do with Elena? I have a feeling that she was a sub for her. It also appears that she was abused by her own father. Is there a link between Stephen and Elena? Did Elena have some sort of relationship with Stephen? Did they have her together ? Oh My God they must have had her together, I am going to be sick. How old was she?" And he empties the contents of his stomach into the wastepaper bin and continues until he is just dry retching. "Oh god, and she subbed for me. No wonder she is so screwed up."

I have to stop him sliding into self-loathing because at this point, if any of his suppositions are correct, he has been an innocent bystander that has ended up in the car wreck that was well on its way to happening before he was embroiled. So I tell him that I don't have any answers at the moment but he has given me so many leads to work on that soon we'll be able to start investigating all this with Cecilia. At this point, Cecilia has been under sedation since being admitted and has refused to talk to anyone. She is still quite psychotic and it is hoped that she will be willing and able to start speaking today or tomorrow, hopefully before I go away because I really want to be able to ask these questions.

Christian informs me that he has Welch doing some investigations along the lines of determining the relationships between Stephen, Cecilia and Elena. Hopefully between us all we can figure out what the trigger was for Cecilia hanging around GEH and how to proceed so that she is no longer a threat to herself or anyone else. Keeping the police out of it for now would be very preferable.

Christian is looking a lot less green as he leaves but he looks like he could collapse with the weight of everything he has just uncovered about himself and I am actually relieved to hear him say to Taylor, "Let's get to the hospital, they are putting the casts on Ana and I need to be there," and while he really should get some sleep, I am thinking being in the presence of Ana will be his biggest solace and worth more than a couple of hours of tortured sleep.