The rain was pounding on my body as I ran, I had no clue where I was going much less where I wanted to go I just wanted to get away from the staring eyes of everyone seeing my melt down. I have never lost it like that why is this happening to me why can't I control the dreams they seem to be getting worse every time I sleep I see them. So angry with me for not being there blaming me for their deaths. Maybe it was my fault maybe I should be the one dead. I am forever haunted by their faces, tormented by the guilt of just breathing. The rain started to slack off the farther I ran. this feeling I as getting though was all to familiar and I didn't like it. the feeling of being watched or followed has always bothered me but after that day so many months ago it has gotten worse. The though t of someone following me or watching scared me I noticed that I had started running faster and it was getting harder for me to breathe.
' why... why is this happening to me? Does everyone think im some freak now? why do i care I wouldn't even have met them or anything had my family not been slaughtered. Maybe im not ment to be around anyone i don't want anyone to know that im the last one of my family i was lucky to get away should I have run? If I hadn't ran could my family still be alive? The number one question that has bothered me was why me why my family and what do they want.'
falling to the ground chest heaving with each breath that i took from the excessive running. my legs were burning how far did I run where was I? I realized for the most part that I had run with my eyes closed not truly knowing where I was running but just trying to get away I didn't want anyone to know this horrible dirty secret about me that I had tried to get away from for month that keeps haunting me even when im not sleeping. when I open my eyes I realized where I was and I froze. I started to get dizzy from the lack of oxygen that my body wasnt getting cause I had started to hold my breath. when I finally took a breath everything started to get clear again. how could this be how long did I run and why did I run here. i was trying to get away from my past not run right to it. the grass was unusually high in the yard and weed were everywhere. The walk way up to the door was barely visable. What used to be my beautiful home is now one of a nightmare to me. It was still raining lightly now not as hard as it had been when i was running. with luck i fumbled around to an old flower pot that at one point was home to a few lovely lillies now withered from savere lack of care. under the pot was a house key. My mom hid the key under there for me and Sota that way we could always get in if we lost or forgotten our own key. my hands were shaking as i tried to put the key in the lock it took me at least three trys. when i opened the door the smell of stale dust and what seemed like cleaner smacked me in my face. it had been at least six months since i was last here. Being inside my house never scared me or made me uncomfortable but now i really wanted to leave i thought i would always want to come home but now that im here all i can do is see death. As i walked farther in the cleaner smell got stronger it was coming from the kitchen.
' I highly doubt the lights are on but i guess there is no harm in trying.' as i walked around the corner to what would be the living room i started feeling on the wall for the light switch. click nothing. walking into the hallway just on the other side of the living room was a small closet where we kept all of our supplies like extra toliet paper or paper towels sheets things like that. Last time i was in this closet mom had me put the flashlight back up it had just got new batteries days before all of the horrible things happened so with luck i can find it agian and get some clean cloths out of my room.
After about a minute or to i retrived the old mag light out of the closet and i started looking around my house with what light that i had. Dust had collected everywhere all over the tables and pictures even the sofa had dust on it. I started up the stairs to my room the stairs creeked and it made me jump i never noticed that the step made that noise maybe it was because no one had used them in so long. i made myself walk forward at the top of the stairs i headed down the short hallway to my left was Sotas room as i walked passed i felt the strange urge to open the door. just to see if all of this really was a dream maybe he would be there playing with some new toy or playing his video games. i made myself walk on the next door to the right was my mothers just ahead at the end of the hall was mine. As i opened my bedroom door i notive that my room was covered in dust also and that what ever i had left in my dresser and closet are going to smell dust but i would have to say that is better then being soaked to the bones and cold. I changed into an old pair of shorts that i had left and a tank top that i got when we went on vacation the logo for the resort that we stayed at was writen in bright green letters. i sat on the corner of my bed and started thinking.
'I wonder if Rin's freaking out? I hope she isnt worried about me, what about Shippo and Ayme and Koga i wonder if they are looking for me. would they find me? If they do what would they say. would they stop being my friends because of my past. all these questions and no way to find out unless i tell them or they find out what if they blame me too, and the new guy he was trying to wake me up i wonder what he thinks about me now. ugh i dont know what to think anymore. im even more worried about starting actual school tomorrow cause the school that we are supose to attend ive been going to since i was a freshman im in 11th grade now. i really dont want to go but i guess i have to if i want to keep the promise to my mom and graduate. good thing i still have a uniform looks like im staying here tonight .
I shook the covers on my old bed and dusted the uniform off. then i set my alarm clock like i did anyother time and layed down the only difference is i was alone now. as i layed there i cried and cried till i fell asleep there is no telling what follows me in the morning.
(I do not own Inuyasha or any other characters mentioned in this story just the ideas and plot are mine and mine alone. thank you to everyone who has left a review and im really glad you like it so far im trying to get as many chapters up as i can. sorry it has taken so long but heres chapter 9 and 10 should be up in the next day or so. Thank you for your comments glad you enjoyed it ) NINJAPRINCESSIVY