Chapter Five
The Next Day...
Leonardo was downstairs with Donatello, they were in Donatello's laboratory talking when Mikey burst into the room.
"Who wants lunch?"
"I do! I'm starving!" Leonardo said as he followed his brother out of the laboratory.
"Donnie? You hungry?"
"Sure...just let me finish this quickly" he continued hacking into Kraang's database. Raphael switched his smashed up and cracked T-phone on.
Dialling Casey Joans...
"Hey Raph."
"Yo Casey can you do me a favour?"
"Um...sure, what do ya need?"
"Three A4 sketchbooks. The ones with 250 pages? They should be about £8 each. I'll pay you back when you come over."
"Sure! I didn't know you liked art! I mean, I've seen you draw it's amazing but wow! What colour books do you what?"
"They're not for me, but for Mikey. He loves orange so can you get orange ones?"
"Sure. See you in about 10 minutes!"
"Okay, thanks mate" Raphael hung up and stared at the cracked up screen. Just then, someone hit him in the back of the head violently. Raphael whipped around to see a frowning, furious looking Donnie.
"W-what? D-Don what's wrong?"
"YOU! YOU LIAR! I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU TOLD MIKEY THAT YOU WOULD GO AND GET MORE SKETCHBOOKS, THEN SAY TO LEO, 'OH I CAN'T BE BOTHERED!' I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN THAT WE COULDN'T TRUST YOU! LEO TOLD US AND NOW MIKEY IS UPSET AGAIN BECAUSE YOU SAID THAT HE WAS NOT WORTH THE MONEY OR THE TIME! HOW CAN YOU LIVE WITH YOURSELF? WE HATE YOU! WE'VE HAD ENOUGH OF THE WAY YOU TREAT US!" Raphael was shocked, confused and extreamly hurt.
"I...I never said that...I haven't spoken to Leo in ages...I d-don't understand..." Donatello could see the hurt and confusion in his eyes as well as a layer of tears. He immediately stopped glaring and tried to hug Raphael but he shoved him away.
"D-don't talk to me...just leave me alone...I know you all hate me...I guess I always have hated me too...for everything I did..." He ran away and sat in his room, slamming the door then taking his phone and replying to Casey's message. Tears falling onto his hands and cracked phone screen.
Casey:
Hey is there anything else that you need me to get?
Raph:
Yeah...if it's okay...
Casey:
It's fine!
Raph:
Okay...a pack of art pencils, paints (water paints), paintbrushes, 2 canvases and a pack of colouring pencils. I will pay you back all that is charged and sorry for the trouble.
Casey:
It's no problem! Will be at your place in 20 minutes.
Raph:
Thank you so much for all of this.
Suddenly, someone knocked on Raphael's door.
"Raph? I'm really sorry about earlier... I know you don't know what you're saying until you say it...I can understand why you tried to deny saying anything." Donatello spoke calmly, but Raphael didn't respond. He didn't even look up from his hands that were still getting covered in tears. Donatello sighed.
"Raph! Really! I didn't mean it! Please understand!
"You meant it. I know you did." Raphael said shakily.
"N-no...please believe me!"
"Why?"
"Because...because I'm telling the truth!"
"Welcome to my world..." Raphael mumbled just loud enough for Donatello to hear. Not being trusted felt horrible. It was like speaking to walls. No matter how much you talk, they don't listen. Don't care. Don't forgive. That was what they'd been like to Raphael for 15 years.
"I forgive you! Just-"
"I DO NOT NEED TO BE FORGIVEN! I DID NOT SAY WANT LEO SAID I DID! I WOULD NOT SAY THAT ABOUT MIKEY AGAIN!" Raphael shouted as he picked up £98.50 from his savings. He'd been saving up for about 13 years. He had about £4,000 or more. Raphael opened his door just before Donatello could stop crying. Raphael seeing his brother with bloodshot and tearful eyes weakened him.
"Raph...is that how we treat you? Never trusting, never listening, never understanding and never forgiving?"
"It's normal for me. It's what I've known since we became mutants. You always hated me. All of you have. I'm used to it! It's all I know. You guys never want to try to understand how I feel! Apart from Master Splinter, but I am not bringing him into this. It wouldn't be fair on him." Just then, Casey and April were at the entrance/exit of the lair. The first thing April did was run to Donatello.
"Donnie! Whats wrong?" Donatello looked at Raph who was paying Casey and taking the large bag of art supplies.
"I...I'm okay..."
"Talk to me! What's going on?"
"I...had an argument with Raph...but...its okay now..."
"So why are you crying? You never cry! You never argue! I'm so worried about you!"
"Okay...it's because I realised how Leo, Mikey and I have been really horrible to Raph all our lives, and I felt alone and upset when Raph wouldn't listen to me...hurt and angry when he shouted at me...I can't imagine my hole life being like that. I believed a lie over the truth. Raph was being honest and I didn't believe him and I told him that everyone hates him but I didn't know hated himself for everything he'd ever done and oh my gosh I'm a terrible brother! I'm sorry...I need to be alone..." He said through tears as he ran to his room.
April sighed and walked back down the stairs and spoke to Raphael about what Donatello had said. Casey saw Raphael's smashed up T-phone as offered to get it repaired. Raphael refused but thanked him anyway. Just then, April looked at the clock on the wall.
"Casey, we better go, it's almost 3:00PM. I need to revise and so do you." April then turned to look at Raphael. "Talk to Donnie...he needs you." April smiled as she and Casey walked out the lair.