Hey everyone hope y'all enjoyed the holidays I was hoping to get this story done by Christmas but stuff happened and well better late than never. Also, amazing news all four CW superhero shows have been renewed so we can expect the girl of steel, the scarlet speedster, the emerald archer and the time traveling misfits back come this fall.

The next couple of chapters will be each told from Caitlin and Alex's point of view I'll be honest I don't think they were my best as it took some trial and error since I wasn't sure how to make the narrative for this. I wasn't even sure if I should have included this version of the 'Martian mind bond' as I wasn't sure how to write it but after seeing how it was done in the movie 'Justice League: crisis on infinite Earths' I got the general idea. Again, I own nothing and this is simply creative writing. There are at least two more chapters and I'll try to have them up soon.

Caitlin, saw she was in a bedroom but it did not look like any room she recognized. The sudden whooshing sound caught her attention as she made her way towards the window. Looking outside she saw as two middle aged adults, a male with raven hair and a woman with light blonde hair approach a younger looking tall muscular man with black hair. While she didn't recognize him, he some how seemed familiar to her especially since he was wearing a full blue costume with red boots, a belt and a cape with an insignia much like Supergirl's.

As she continued to watch the events unfold Caitlin saw a little girl probably thirteen years old come from behind the costumed man's leg and approach the middle aged blonde woman. After a quick exchange of immutable words the costumed man took to the skies and flew away. After he was gone the little girl looked at her from the front yard through the window, then it hit her, Caitlin realized that the little girl staring at her was Kara and what she was seeing was a memory of Alex's most specifically the day Kara came into her life.

There was another flash of white light and suddenly Caitlin saw she was in a living room giving a hug to the middle-aged raven hair man from earlier.

'I'll be back soon okay?' he said reassuringly

'But dad I don't want you to go.' The words being said were not Caitlin's but considering this was another memory being shown to her she assumed it was probably what Alex said that day.

'I know but I have too, its for work.' he tried to comfort and while Caitlin knew the memory wasn't her own she couldn't help but feel a sense of disappointment and worry.

'Make sure you look after Kara and your mom while I'm gone okay? I'm counting on you to make sure they're both alright.' He said continued as Caitlin felt a sense of pride from his words.

'I promise.'

Caitlin then watched as the man headed for the door exiting as the feeling of dread started to over take her

The scene changed again Caitlin saw the blonde-haired woman talking with two men in suits at the front door. The sudden feeling of realization hit her judging from the look on the woman's face as she embraced her in a hug.

'Mom where's dad?'

The woman approached her and embraced her in a deep hug, fighting back tears as she held her tight.

'Oh Alex, sweetheart I am so sorry.' She said as she held back tears while her voice hiked. It was then Caitlin realized this was the night Alex lost her father and while this pang of grief she was feeling was not her own Caitlin knew first hand what it was like to lose a parent.

The scene shifted this time Caitlin was in another bedroom different from the one she saw earlier with a phone to her ear.

'Yeah, I'm fine mom I promise I'll be find at her place, I'll see you and Kara tomorrow, good night.' Turning around Caitlin saw a teenage girl with her brown hair in a ponytail approached her.

'Hey Alex. Is everything okay?' the girl asked worriedly.

'Yeah Vicky its fine.'

'Look I know this is your first time and I just want it to be memorable.' Vicky eased 'If you want to go home I can have my mom…'

'Vic…there's no where I'd rather be.'

Caitlin suddenly felt it the feeling of exhilaration and yearning, she also felt something else a sense of confusion and of shame Alex for some reason was feeling at this particular moment. While she didiin't know why, Caitlin understood on some level that confusion and shame was what she was feeling in regards to the recent emergence of her metahuman powers even more so after the harm it caused to her friends.

The scene changed this time Caitlin found herself sitting in a kitchen face to face with Alex's mother who bore a not-so-happy look on her face.

'What the hell were you thinking? You were suppose to look after Kara and now this happened?!' she yelled in a definite outrage.

'I was in study group! What did you want me to do be her shadow 24/7 every second of everyday?!

'Not only is a student with a broken wrist but because you weren't there Kara nearly exposed herself.'

'Don't blame Alex. It was my fault.' Turning to her left Caitlin saw a familiar looking glasses wearing girl with her blonde hair tied in a bun. 'I shouldn't have let Sandra Swanson get to me. I should have walked away instead of goading her into hitting me.' Kara tried to explain to her adoptive mother.

'Well there you have it! I can't be responsible for what little orphan alien does much less how she reacts to normal life!'

Caitlin felt an all too familiar feeling, unappreciation and neglected. She wondered if it was because of Kara that Alex's mother was this harsh on her growing up that shouldering the responsibility for Kara everyday since she arrived coupled with the death of her father is what made Alex think that her own mother looked down on her much like her own situation. For even if they were from different universes Caitlin could understand the damage loosing a loved one could cause.

The next scene Caitlin found herself on a strange planet struggling against two guards that restrained her. She saw Kara in a strange regal-like blue and white dress with her insignia on the chest and her hair tied in an usual style. A middle-aged woman and man stood in front of her as a twelve-year-old boy in a red shirt stood by her side.

'Life isn't perfect! I know it can be hard and lonely especially for you!'

Caitlin couldn't make sense of this memory but it felt as if at the time, Alex was pleading to Kara in desperation. Caitlin could feel something else, a deep sorrow, a kind she never felt before. Sure, Caitlin had her share of heartbreak especially when she lost Ronnie or when she found out Jay was really Hunter Zolomon, but this was very different. This sadness wasn't Alex's own if anything it was sadness for Kara.

'You have sacrificed and lost so much, I wished you could have had a life with your family but even if you did Kara it wouldn't be this! Because this isn't real and deep down Kara you know that.'

There was a loud explosion and the ground shook under them as some of the people before her lost their footing, as if the world they were on shook. The sort of feeling that was not unlike when STAR labs went through the particle accelerator explosion only on a globalized scale.

'I can't promise you a life without pain and loss because pain is a part of life, its what makes us who we are! It's what makes you a hero!'

Caitlin continued to watch the memory unfold fighting off the guards trying to physically reach Kara only to be held back again.

'You fight everyday to keep people from struggling like you have I know you can remember if you try! Please try Kara because Earth needs Supergirl!'

'Supergirl.' Kara said recognizing as she walked forwards almost as if coming out of a trance.

'Yes, remember that life! With James and Winn and Hank, your friends need you! AND I NEED MY SISTER!'

The ground rumbled again.

'Kara, I can't choose this for you, you have to choose it yourself!'

Caitlin felt a blow to her stomach as a guard sucker punched her bringing her to her knees. She saw Kara grow a worried expression on her face from the action.

'Please come back to us Kara please!'

Caitlin realized now from this, Alex no longer held resentment to Kara like she had before, she could feel Alex held the young alien as an actual sister and from whatever happened here showed as much, that Alex would die on the spot for Kara much like the way Caitlin herself would for anyone on her team.

The next scene changed and Caitlin saw a brunette woman holding a knife to the throat of a large green humanoid creature with a cone-shaped head and red eyes.

'Fear not Martian you will die a soldier's death.' She said

Before she knew it, Caitlin watched as she gripped a strange looking green sword and plunged into the brunette woman's back and out her chest feeling a deep sense of regret as the act was done, sifting though the memory it was because the person that was just stabbed was Kara's aunt and the creature whose life was being threatened was J'onn. Caitlin also felt something else pride, because it was either this woman's life or J'onn's and when it came down to it Alex took a life to save her friend. Caitlin thought to when she went on her rampage as Killer Frost that despite the name and fears Caitlin never ended up taking anyone's life and this sense of regret of doing even if it was to save another weighed heavily on her Caitlin knew that Alex felt this way robbing Kara of one of her only living relatives even if she was an enemy. Caitlin truly hoped she would never have to do that herself one day.

Another light flash and Caitlin then found herself in the middle of a dark alley Supergirl was on the ground at her feet beaten and hurt. Looking at her hands Caitlin saw she was holding the strange sword from earlier, she quickly theorized that whatever it was clearly had a negative affect on Kara and others like her and for some unknown reason Alex was about to run Kara through with it.

'Alex stop!' a familiar voice rang out. 'This isn't you!'

Turning back Caitlin saw Alex's mother with J'onn in his human form looking worse for wear.

'The Martian has protected your mind, who knows for how long by the looks of him.'

There was something strange while the words were Alex's there was something weird about it almost a hollowness to the speech, as if it wasn't Alex who was speaking but as if someone was speaking through Alex. Either way Caitlin continued to watch the memory unfold.

'As long as he has too.' J'onn remarked as his eyes glowed that familiar red.

'Well if only you could've protected Alex's, now her mother has to watch.' Caitlin watched she stalked back to Kara with the sword in her hands ready for the kill.

'Alex, you can beat this.' Alex and Kara's mother cried out again. 'I know you can. You are not going to hurt me and you are not going to hurt Kara, we're a family! Alex you're the strongest of us all, you're father always said that. I know he's watching over you and I know he'd be so proud. Your father believed in you I believed in you too. You're Alex Danvers and nothing on Earth can change that. Come back to us sweetie.'

Caitlin then felt realization wash over her as if she was coming out of a trance.

'Mom?'

She quickly discarded the sword and clicked a switch on the chest plate she was wearing as the older blonde woman embrace her.

'I'm sorry, I'm sorry.'

The words spoken were now that of Alex's and Caitlin could feel the deepest regret for what she had nearly done to her sister. As Caitlin watched the scene she couldn't help but think of when she went to her own mother for help when her metahuman powers got out of control. How when she was on the verge of turning Nigel into a popsicle how her mother reached to her and convinced her not to do something she would regret. For being universes apart Caitlin knew she and Alex weren't so different.

The scene changed this time Caitlin found herself in an apartment building sitting on a counter top drinking a glass of whiskey. A knock on her door caught her attention as she approached the door she looked into the peephole and saw a familiar looking Mediterranean woman on the other side of the door. The door swung open as the woman held out the pizza in a gesturing manner.

'Hungry?' she perked up.

'Yes, come in ignore the pajamas'

'They're cute.' the woman said as she laid the beer on the table and the pizza in her hands. Caitlin could sense from this memory that whoever this woman was Alex had mixed feelings with at the moment. Anger, resentment and yet she also felt something behind it, longing much like the previous memory from before and much like the way she had with Ronnie.

'Its late you got a case or something? Cuz I could use a good old fashion murder right now.' The way it nonchalantly uttered was much like the way Caitlin would say a lie to sugar coat the frustration she had with her powers up until the day Cisco out-ted her powers to everyone on the team.

'I…I didn't come here for work I really needed…' the Mediterranean woman tried to begin struggling to find the words to express herself. 'To see you and talk to you.'

'Is everything okay.'

'Well here's the thing,' the Mediterranean woman started up again 'I almost died…'

'Yeah I would not have let that happen.'

'Yeah, I know that,' The Mediterranean woman retorted with a smile despite the struggling to speak. 'But…it got me thinking… I was so stupid. I…I thought that and…I guess I was kind of right that you came out for me…and that scared me.'

It was here that Caitlin realized what Alex meant when she said she came to terms about who she was earlier, and it was made all the more clearer from the memory she witnessed of Alex with Vicky. This is what Alex was referring to about accepting who she was and this woman she saw rambling before her was the very person of Alex's affection.

'But life's too short and we should be who we are… and we should kiss the girls we want to kiss.' The Mediterranean woman insisted as she gave a knowing look towards her. 'And I really just…I want to kiss you.'

A brief pause the woman crashed her lips into hers and the feeling Caitlin was filled with was one of joy and wholeness as if nothing else mattered but this moment the same way she used to felt when she kissed Ronnie.

Caitlin was amazed at what this experience and she for the first time in a while she truly felt she wasn't alone in her situation of hardship and of accepting herself and she owed that by getting to know Alex Danvers, even if it was through unconventional alien means.

Another bright flash of light filled her vision and Caitlin suddenly found herself back in Barry's living room Alex to her left both of them holding J'onn's hands.