Christian's POV – Friday 22 July 2011

Now, standing at the door to the red room, I know what I need but more importantly, I know what Ana needs, the darkness that has shrouded our world has been out in the open in the last few days spreading it's awful tentacles so I need to cocoon us within Ana's light, her love, our love needs to be reaffirmed.

"Baby, I need you to know that everything in this room has gone from before, everything that was in here when I made my worst error of judgement is gone, everything and I mean everything is brand new. I meant to tell you that the other night when we slept in here but I was just concerned about how scared you were. Now I need you to understand me, know that everything has been selected so that you will enjoy it and you have nothing to fear." I rush out, anxious to reassure her that there is nothing tainted, that everything is for her.

"Christian, please believe me that I know that you love me, please believe me when I say I trust you in here but thank you for buying new things," and she scrunches up her cute nose, "That was making me feel… um… icky."

"Icky? Well, I wouldn't want you feeling icky, Baby, sticky perhaps but not icky," I laugh at her guilty pout but still don't make a move into the room, truth be told, I am so scared of the memory of my error that I wonder if I will ever be able to truly enjoy the room again, even if I focus solely on pleasure.

"Before you fall asleep on your feet Christian… " Ana nudges me, bringing me back to the present and I sweep her up into my arms.

"Topping from the bottom, Missy," I say with a smile, I don't need a submissive, but I will control everything from here on in. "Baby, in case anything gets intense, normally there would be safe words, yellow and red but just say Stop, that's it, just say stop, I need you to tell me if I scare you in anyway."

"You won't." She says simply and it stops me mid step and she shrugs her shoulders, and says a little more forcefully, "You won't." and I know I need to read her body like I've never read a woman's body, she doesn't know the extreme pleasure she could experience and today isn't the day for that, just a taste perhaps to have her begging to come back in on a calmer day.

"You baby have no sense of self preservation and yet you don't know how high you can go, if anything scares you, especially me, you just say stop," I repeat again.

"I get it, I promise," it's no more than a whisper against my ear and I push the door shut behind us, it's self-locking so no-one will be able to disturb us, for some strange reason I suddenly wish I'd thought to bring Ana in here in the very early days when everyone kept interrupting us.

Looking down at my beautiful girl in my arms, I watch her as her cheeks redden and she says, "I looked up BDSM and.." I don't let her go any further as I need her to understand something really important.

"Baby, no BDSM today, we're just going to have at best, some kinky fuckery, that's all."

She splutters at me as even the tops of her ears turn pink, "What? What did you just say?"

I can smell her arousal even as she looks embarrassed and so I smirk down at her as I lay her down on the satin sheets, in terms of what I have done in this room, today will be the tamest ever but it should be enough to drive the demons away for both of us, for a little while anyway.

"Kinky fuckery," I say as I bury my nose in the sweet spot between her breasts and looking up at her as I move one hand down and gasp, "Oh baby, you are so ready and I don't want to be in here long today."

Here goes nothing, just as I start to move away, Ana pulls me down and her lips on mine are begging for my response and I can't deny her, I could gladly just curl up with her but I want to blow her mind, obliterate the evil so I pull away, whispering against her lips, "Naughty girl, I love you but let me take it from here. I am going to blindfold you and put some headphones on, turn the music up so that your brain is forced to focus on touch and can't rely on sight and hearing, are you going to be ok with that?"

The sound of her breathing, ragged, as she tries to control her body, just spurs me on and I take the opportunity to lean in one last time while she can still see and nibble on her lip before she invites me in and I drown in her love for another moment then reluctantly pull away.

"Are you ready?" and at her nod, I slip the blindfold on making sure to fondle her face as I do so that she can feel where I am, my hands move down, slowly undoing her shirt buttons, as I push it over he shoulders, she shrugs out of it while keeping one hand on me to ground herself and when she reaches for my shirt despite being blindfolded, I decide that I might as well, tonight is new for both of us.

Pulling her up against my bare chest, the small tremors I can feel in her body are not fear but anticipation as she reaches down between us and her skirt and my pants fall at the same time and she smiles against my chest as I gasp at the vision before me. The sexiest lacy thong I have ever seen on Ana and I have to run my hands down and around and then it's Ana's turn to gasp as I breathe, "Oh Baby, this thong and those suspenders, lucky I didn't see them earlier…"

A little wriggle and I lift Ana back onto the bed, gently arranging her so that her body is within easy reach and comfortable but asking her to lay as still as possible. I need to show my appreciation for her effort and I place the headphones on carefully to increase her suspense and then quickly place some items within reach. Without being able to see and hear, her other senses will be heightened and while I want to bury myself in her and am starting to regret my plan, I know we'll get there sooner rather than later.

Taking a feather, I touch her gently on her nose and as she wriggles it and then her lips settle into a smile, I know it will be ok and slowly start, brushing her as she shivers but then I switch it to a feather boa and having tantalised for a few minutes, I drape it so that any slight movement tickles her, almost touching those now pebbled nipples but just slightly off. I can see her wanting to move her hands but she slides them under her bottom and I marvel at her control, each touch has her lips parting and the small glimpses of her tongue are driving me wild. It's obvious that the anticipation is heightening for her but I try to make sure she relaxes, brushing my lips over hers and gently taking her lip out from between her teeth and with my touch her shoulders relax and she settles again.

I can't help myself and bury my nose where I can see the moisture marking the lace and Ana shrieks in surprise and I cringe, her pelvis is in no way healed and if I hadn't caught her legs, that movement would have lifted her off the bed and I decide that the next time we are in here, her legs will be in a spreader bar but I don't have one at the moment, "You need to lay still Ana," I growl and she all but whimpers in frustration but nods, the music isn't loud enough to stop my voice, just hide my movements.

Tracing the soft skin of her inner thigh with my lips, lightly nibbling, I run my hands up and down the silk stockings thinking how, for my eyes only, Ana is transforming into a sexy little vixen and hopefully she is feeling beautiful too, starting to feel better about herself. Dragging my thoughts back to the feel of the stockings, a plan forms for another time, now I make my way down to her ankles, light breaths alternating with kisses on her ankles, and then lifting her calves onto my shoulder, a light nibble on the back of her knee and her unwitting moans have me so hard I have to work hard to concentrate.

Reaching up, I would like to tear the lacy silk off her but I have developed a liking for this pair so I gently move it aside and sliding in a finger, her body grabs hold and I groan at the same time as Ana moves trying to gain some friction. There is nothing to be done but to lay her legs back down and undoing the suspenders, I slide down the scrap of silk and continue kissing up her inner thighs. Massaging one thigh while kissing the other, I keep moving, as I nip her closer and closer, I stroke, nip and then massage until my hands and mouth reach their goal.

Knowing that Ana will be anticipating the next move, I decide on surprise and quietly lift myself and take one nipple in my mouth and roll the other gently between my fingers and her "ooooh" is accompanied by a gush on the fingers I thrust in at the same time, blowing on the nipple and paying attention to the other in the same way is accompanied by another whimper and swapping my mouth for my hand, the effect is immediate and lapping to clean her up, I may be wearing a Cheshire like grin; my baby is soooo responsive.

"I want you, now," is the whisper and I don't know if she meant to say it out loud and when her hands move up as if to remove the blindfold, I quickly grab them and kiss the top of each hand before slowly taking individual fingers in my mouth, sucking on them, while grinding against her, her warmth whispering the same words to me and when she starts to whimper, I can't wait any longer.

Slowly sliding into her, such a look of peace floods her face that I almost unload at the expression of love but I try to stick to my plan, slowly working myself in, gently rocking then pulling out and flicking her sweet spot with my tongue and then rocking gently back in and moving my mouth back up to her nipples. Her hands are now on my back, her nails digging in as I alternate, driving her higher, each withdrawal harder than the previous as her body calls me to come home.

Her squirming is driving me crazy and suddenly, looking at her face, I can't bear it, my tiredness hits me and I don't want her waiting any more, I want to hold her, have her holding me, to make everything disappear so with one last gentle blow and suckle, lapping and licking, I position myself for a final push and I reach up, lifting off the blindfold just as I push in deep, deeper than ever before and watch her explode, feel her explode around me, pulling me in, shattering me apart, her eyes pools of gratitude as I collapse down on her, the one place I feel totally safe.

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Authors Note: Just a warning, this is a busy period for me so the updates will be a little further apart. Sorry.