After that episode of Legends where everyone had a Christmas themed dinner on the Waverider, I was inspired to finish this. It's two months overdue from when I expected it to be done but here it is nevertheless.
Caitlin and Alex shook their heads after the experience they had just went through. J'onn took a step back leaving the two women who now had a greater understanding of each other.
'That was…trippy.' Caitlin spoke up while at a loss for words on what she just saw and felt.
'Yeah…it was.' Alex agreed. 'Your dad I'm so sorry.'
'Thanks, Alex.' Caitlin replied graciously 'I hope that you rescue yours from that group of homicidal alien haters.' It was odd Caitlin thought that she knew something so personal about someone without having to talk about it, she wondered how much of a society like J'onn's was able to thrive with such open honesty if this was their way of communication. Not wanting the person, or Martian, responsible for her new bond with Alex, Caitlin turned to J'onn who had been observing the both of them talk.
'So uh…J'onn, is there any way you could do the bond with me? I have so many questions about you, your kind and your way of life.' Caitlin practically begged with enthusiasm.
'I'd love to Caitlin but that's ill-advised.' J'onn said reluctantly.
'What…why?' Caitlin asked somewhat disappointed.
'A Martian's brainwaves are ten times that of a normal human's, if I were attempted to do it with you then there is a good chance the strain can send you into a vegetative state.' J'onn explained 'And that's not a good thing for a brilliant young woman.'
Caitlin nodded in understanding disappointed that she couldn't experience J'onn's life through her eyes but respected the potential dangers of his mental powers. Alex spoke up again after a brief moment.
'So, you have superpowers too?' Alex asked mostly out of curiosity.
'Yeah, it actually the reason why its snowing out right now instead of raining.' Caitlin said.
'I know.' Alex reminded given she had just saw Caitlin's entire life.
'Yeah well…' Caitlin began to explain only for Alex to speak up again.
'I also know it scares you, doesn't it?' Alex continued speaking from similar experience 'How its part of you and you that feel embracing it feels unnatural.'
'Hmm kind of like you and your girlfriend, right? Maggie, was it?' Caitlin shot back to which Alex nodded after realizing Caitlin now knew about her life as much as she did with hers.
'Yeah, Mags. She means a lot to me.' Alex said pridefully.
'You hold on to her.' Caitlin advised in a firm tone not wanting Alex to lose her special someone like she lost Ronnie, twice.
'Any ways my situation doesn't compare to yours.' Alex retorted mentioning that Caitlin's situation with coming to terms with her powers was far more serious compared to her situation with Maggie.
Caitlin nodded solemnly remembering Alex saw what she did during her Killer Frost phase a few weeks earlier.
'The worst part was it was all me, everything I said and did was all my actions I didn't have someone else controlling me they were all my own' Caitlin admitted remorsefully hoping Alex could understand given her experience being controlled into nearly killing Kara. Caitlin suddenly felt Alex's hand grasp her shoulder and saw the auburn-haired woman's warm smile of assurance.
'But in the end, you had Barry and your friends to pull you back.' Alex reminded Caitlin.
'And you had Kara and your mother to help you do the same.' Caitlin said in turn. The three drank in silence briefly before Caitlin spoke up again.
'Its just hard to accept that these powers and what come with it are part of who I am.' Caitlin expressed.
'Well if it makes you feel any better, I was ashamed of who I was for a long time.' J'onn confessed as he finished his glass. Caitlin gave him a confused look at what he just said before he spoke up again.
'After I lost my people I lived on Earth for over three centuries. For a long time, humans were repulsed at who I really was so I used my shapeshifting to hide among them. It wasn't until I met Kara that she helped me embrace who I really was and since then I've no longer been ashamed of being a Martian among humans.' J'onn told Caitlin.
'Kara also helped me embrace who I really am and gave me the hope and confidence in coming out.' Alex said as she and J'onn looked over at the glasses wearing blonde alien in question who they saw talking with Barry, Wally and Iris.
'Yeah people like Kara and Barry have that affect on you, with them you feel inspired to do anything and feel comfortable revealing anything to them because in the end you know they'll have your backs.' Caitlin said.
'And now we have yours.' Alex said sportingly as she gestured to herself and J'onn.
'We're going to get some more eggnog, why don't you come with?' J'onn offered as he and Alex walked off, Caitlin followed them with the joyful feeling that she wasn't so alone in her struggle anymore.