Ok they handed me a second chapter on a plate after 17x04 and a few said they wanted one so I've added a Chapter 2. There's also a Chapter 3 after that Autumn finale so you can expect another chapter over the coming weeks as I try to write away the fear Dick Wolf left us all in! Gona have to suspend a bit of belief time line wise with this one – sorry folks, but SVU reality didn't fit in with my fic ;) *Spoilers are present for S17 just so you know*
6 months later
Dodds walked out and Olivia stood at the door to her office watching him leave. Her eyes were then pulled towards the blonde sitting at her desk, hair pulled up, hands resting on her now prominent bump. She glanced around the squad room to see if anyone else was there and noted gratefully that most had left for the evening. She needed a moment to calm down and the only place she could do it was in Detective Amanda Rollins' arms. Catching blue eyes smiling at her she gestured with her head for the other woman to come into her office. Amanda struggled out of the chair, sighing with relief as she managed to stand. She hated that she'd been made to ride the desk but she knew realistically she couldn't be on the street anymore. It was too dangerous and she knew the stress it caused Olivia every time she went on a shout and she didn't hear from her for a while.
Walking into the newly decorated office, which still smelled of paint she closed the door and walked into open arms, feeling Olivia's head rest on her shoulder, one hand on the side of her bump the other on her lower back.
"You want me to kill him? I know I can only waddle like a duck but I've got good aim"
"I don't doubt it for a second but right now I need you here, right here, for at least the next two minutes."
"Fine but if he upsets you again I'll be forced to take matters into my own hands."
Olivia smiled at the empty threat and the fact Amanda knew she was upset just by the way she looked and her body language.
"I'm ok, honestly. Just sick of the testosterone fuelled, narcissistic, bureaucratic bullshit that goes on in this place."
"My that's a lotta big words in one sentence – he must have really pissed you off." Amanda's hands were in her hair now stroking down and massaging the base of her neck with her fingers. Olivia groaned as she hit a particularly sore spot.
"We need to get you to a masseuse."
"No you'll do just fine."
"Not if this bump gets much bigger. I can barely reach around as it is given the space bubba is taking up"
"I'll lie down so you can reach"
"I'll squash you"
Olivia chuckled into Amanda's shoulder and pulled out of the embrace kissing her cheek as she stepped back, perching on the edge of her desk.
"It'd be worth it."
"Seriously what was that all about?"
"Well apparently we're getting a new addition"
"We knew that already" Amanda said gesturing to her bump.
"Another one. Dodds' son is joining us."
"To spy?"
"As a detective apparently"
"Oh fantastic. Just what we need another Dodd's in the office."
"Starting to think the big boys are spying on me."
"Liv if anything Dodd's Senior is sending Dodd's Junior to keep tabs on me. He's already got me on desk duty. Two encounters with IAB in four years, pregnant with no baby Daddy in sight and a sister still on the run from the feds. Don't worry, it's definitely not you."
Olivia smiled and held out her hand to the blonde; "We're going home. If neither of us are here, they can't be spying and I'd prefer if we were at home when I take advantage of that massage offer."
Amanda laughed and took the outstretched hand and they made their way out of the deserted office to the lift.
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"No that's ok, call any time," Olivia touched the screen and ended the call.
"Collins again?" Amanda asked curling closer to Olivia's side on the sofa.
"Bless him he's trying but he's just not meant to be there."
"Any guy who balks at death the way he does should not be in charge of homicide"
"I agree but Dodd's isn't as open to persuasion."
"That's probably because they're not sleeping with you"
Olivia swatted the arm resting on her leg "How do you know?"
"If I wasn't so pregnant right now I'd kick your ass for saying that."
Olivia bit back the smart retort, she knew Amanda was feeling self conscious about her appearance and being put on desk duty had affected her more than she was letting anyone know. Olivia had seen the look of despair when they'd discussed desk duty and when Dodd's had made it official she saw Amanda's shoulders sag. So she had planned a few hours alone that evening, letting Noah have a sleep over with Uncle Fin so they could have some time alone together.
"I'm hungry, again" – Amanda's exasperated tone had become common over the last eight weeks.
"Well you are eating for two."
"I think I'm eating for four. No way this child can possibly want so much food." Amanda made to stand but Olivia stopped her with a hand on her thigh.
"Cereal?"
"Toast would be good. Have I mentioned how much I love you lately?"
"You only say that because I'm feeding you."
Amanda laughed as Olivia swooped in for a brief kiss.
"Maybe."
"She heard Olivia laugh as she made her way into the kitchen."
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The detective slowly woke to the faint smell of lavender. The room was dimly lit with a small lamp and she was alone. She remembered eating toast and then nothing.
"Dam" she muttered quietly. She realised she'd fallen asleep as they had spoken about Olivia's fears of Dodd's Junior and his intentions.
"Some girlfriend I am" she muttered as she made her first attempt to stand. She generally found it took four attempts from the low sofa in Olivia's living room. She managed it in three and the sigh of relief was huge as she finally shook the last remnants of sleep from her body and went in search of Olivia.
"Liv?"; she called out but go no response. Walking towards the bedroom she presumed Olivia too had fallen asleep until she heard her name called quietly from the bathroom.
Opening the door her breath caught at the sight. Candles were lit, the bubbles were piled high in the claw foot tub and soft music played from a portable speaker on the windowsill.
Olivia pushed away from the sink and kissed the blonde softly, undoing the buttons of her shirt.
"I knew you were tired; I knew you needed to relax. I didn't think you were going to fall asleep on the sofa…"
"Yeah sor…" Amanda was cut off with another kiss.
"No apologising. I just wish I could have done this earlier but someone wanted toast."
Amanda smiled against the taller woman's shoulder as she leaned forward allowing Olivia to open the button on her jeans and push them to the floor.
Amanda discarded her underwear with some help to open her bra and felt one hand on her lower back and one grasp her outstretched one as she lowered herself into the bathtub.
"You realise you're probably gona to have to call the fire department to get me out of here right?"
"Sshhh" just relax", Olivia pulled up the small step stool they used for Noah to reach the sink and sat on it.
They sat for a while listening to Adele singing about love and heartache, the only other sound the swish of water as Amanda occasionally shifted in the bath.
"You're going to have to stop doing that Mand, you know that right?"
"Doing what?"
"Berating yourself. Making fun of yourself for being pregnant. I know it's your defence mechanism in work but here, with me, you're allowed to be pregnant and not have to apologise for it.
Amanda trickled water over her bump and watched it cascade back into the bath. The sensation caused her to shiver.
"I know Liv. I just…. I just can't help but feel like I need to step it up a notch when everyone else is telling me to take a step back"
Olivia placed her hand on the right side of Amanda's tummy halfway down, they'd found recently it was the favourite place for junior to kick at the moment. Just as her hand rested she felt a little thump against her hand.
Amanda rested her hand over Olivia's; "He knows you're here." The look of tenderness and love in the blue eyes caught her off guard and Olivia swallowed back tears that threatened.
"You have to stay safe Mand, for me – for us" Olivia rubbed the small spot and felt another kick against her hand.
Amanda sighed as she sunk further into the bath. "I know, and I will. Desk duty from now on, scout's honour." Olivia had been expecting a fight so she was relieved Amanda wasn't going to fight it.
"Good cause I couldn't cope if anything happened to either of you."
Amanda gripped the hand that still rested on her bump. "Not going to happen hon. We're in it for the long run. You, me Noah and this lil one."
Olivia moved the stool closer to the bath and grabbed some of the body oils she'd gotten as a present for Amanda. She never usually had baths. Amanda called it 'criminal' when she found out Olivia never used the tub in her apartment. From then on they spent at least one night a week using it, separately or together when they had time. Olivia had realised the stress relief benefits immediately and began to buy various oils and lotions to try out. This lavender one was, she knew, a favourite of Amanda's. She took one of her hands and then the other working the oil into her skin. Skimming over her chest she smiled as Amanda's nipples hardened immediately at her touch. She noticed the darkness that flashed across the intense blue gaze as she continued circular motions, massaging the soft skin of Amanda's tummy, standing and using both hands to massage her bump gently. Amanda fixed her with a stare that started a fire somewhere in Olivia's stomach and settled firmly between her legs.
"You need to help me outta this bath now Benson before I injure myself trying to do it on my own"
Olivia didn't hesitate but instead took both hands in hers and pulled the plug watching the water drain away as she helped Amanda to stand.
"You know you really shouldn't have started this in the bath, it's going to take me at least 5 minutes to waddle to the bedroom"
"Stop it" Olivia murmured against her ear as she wrapped a towel around her girlfriend and leaned back to steal a quick kiss.
Amanda looked down at her feet and bit her lip. "I can't."
"Well then I'm going to have to remind you that you are beautiful, pregnant or not, on desk duty or not, falling asleep mid evening or not…" She caught the dirty look the blonde gave her and smiled mischievously."
"Not even a bit funny," but the smile in Amanda's voice belied her purported annoyance.
Upon reaching the bedroom Olivia had rid herself of her shirt and trousers and was standing in her underwear facing the blonde.
"Come here" Amanda opened her arms and wrapped Olivia in a strong embrace. "You are my world you know that right. The four of us, we are going to be a family. Nothing is going to change that. And I hate that we're surrounded by testosterone fuelled, narcissistic, bureaucratic bullshit" Olivia smiled against Amanda's neck as she heard her words back "but we've got each other and the guys have our backs, we're gona be ok hon"
Olivia kissed her neck and up along to her cheek finally settling on her lips watching as blue eyes closed. Talking softly against her lips she asked a question she already knew the answer to "How do you always know what to say?"
"Because I know you as well as you know me"
Olivia had never had that with anyone else, a lover, a partner, a parent. She cherished it. Sitting down on the bed she beckoned Amanda between her legs and rested her head against her bump for a moment, much like she'd done the first time they made love. Lying back, she brought Amanda down with her and they lay side by side on the bed.
Amanda initiated the next kiss and began to knead Olivia's breast as she slipped her tongue into her girlfriend's waiting mouth. The kiss deepened and as Olivia shifted slightly to try and change positions so she was on top Amanda rested her hand on her hip to hold her in place.
"I want to watch you. I want to come with you. Can we try?"
Olivia nodded knowing that as much as Amanda needed to come she needed to feel some control as well, wanted to know she was still needed, still desired.
Hands joined and fingers intertwined as hands moved lower joined together, reaching heat and wetness at the same time. Hazel eyes held blue as fingertips found distended clits. The intake of break was simultaneous but it was Olivia who moaned when Amanda's fingers moved lower.
"Stay" Amanda whispered and Olivia stilled her fingers just as Amanda slipped through her wetness penetrating her with one finger then two. Amanda set a slow pace and Olivia curled her body towards her, keeping her hand nestled between the blonde's thighs, resting her cheek against her forehead as Amanda circled her left nipple with the tip of her tongue.
Olivia hissed as Amanda's thumb made brief intermittent swipes over her clit, never quite giving it the constant stimulation it needed.
"Tease" Olivia muttered as Amanda grazed her teeth over her right nipple sucking it as she sped up the pace of her fingers.
"Fucckkk" Olivia moaned as Amanda added the much needed pressure of her thumb to her clit while she moved up to claim her lips in a searing kiss. Olivia's hips jerked as she fucked herself hard against the hand giving her so much pleasure. A few more jerks and a few more flicks of her clit and the brunette lieutenant was coming hard, her body shuddering as she gripped Amanda's arm. Amanda intertwined the fingers of their free hands as Olivia's hand was moving unbeknownst to her and the slight movement was almost enough to send Amanda hurtling over the edge with her, she just needed slightly more concentrated pressure.
"Baby?" Olivia heard Amanda's voice through the haze of post orgasm and realised she was almost there.
"I've got you, I've got you" Olivia whispered as she began a scissoring motion along Amanda's clit. A few pressured strokes was all it took for Amanda to cum, moaning into Olivia's mouth as she reclaimed it for another kiss.
It took a few minutes for breathing to return to normal as they lay entwined in each others arms.
"Wow."
"Wow is right. You almost left me hanging there Benson, not cool."
"Sorry but you kinda knocked me out."
"Thank You."
"Huh? I think that's my line Rollins."
"You know what I mean." Olivia did but she wasn't ready to admit it.
Reaching up to cup her cheek Olivia kissed her very sated girlfriend and began to stroke her bare back.
"You are the most gorgeous, amazing, funny, brave beautiful, sexy woman I know. This…." Olivia took the hand stroking along Amanda's back and brought it in to rest on the bump, "This just makes you an absolute superstar. You are going to be the best Mom."
A small tear trickled down sallow skin as Amanda returned the gentle kiss.
"This kid is going to be the luckiest kid in the world. He's got the best big brother going and two Mom's who can lock up anyone that gives him hassle."
"You know you've been saying 'he' the last few weeks. Did you find out and not tell me?"
"No I just get this feeling. I know we said we wanted it to be a surprise and I still do, I just think it's a boy. I don't care either way once it's healthy and happy"
"Ditto for his or her Mom" Olivia kissed Amanda's forehead and then took up the position she knew Amanda found most comfortable for sleeping at the moment turned on her side with her knees partially bent, Olivia curled behind her.
"Love you beautiful."
"We love you too hon." Amanda smiled as she felt Olivia's hand rest protectively on her bump rubbing gently.
Their "Goodnights" were simultaneous as they fell asleep.
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A/N: I have to write a continuation of the all finale just for my own sanity so it'll be up in the next few weeks.