Chapter 4 : Drunk

Hey so here is the 4th chapter. Hope you'll like it! Do you know the word in E for the next chapter ? Let me know if you have any idea that you think match with mine. + let me know what you think for once. :)

I've been said that I don't use quotation marks but the thing is I do all the time. I'm afraid they don't appear or something so if you can see it or can't see it just let me know because I want to fix it.

On a friday Deeks decided to head to his favorite bar with his friends for the night. After an easy case and an easy day Kensi went back to her apartment. They had spend the whole month, days and nights, together and they needed at least one night apart. Of course they like each other presences but sometimes you just need time for yourself. Time to take a bath, watch a chick flick movie, or see friends. Just a little bit of time for your own so you won't kill your partner when he doesn't clean all the mess in the bathroom. That's why Deeks went with his mates to his favourite bar around 10pm. All he did was drinking alcohol and joking around with his two friends from his old job at the LAPD. That was great to see theem again after how it ended at the job when he started to work with the team. It felt like 20 years ago when it was just a few years back but a lot of things happened in his life, in all their lives. He really thought he was part of the talks but it was not really.

Because from time to time Deeks noticed that he wasn't focussed on the stories he was told. It was like he couldn't concentrate on his night. He kept trying to understand their jokes but his mind was full of Kensi's laugh, voice and face. God, he loved this laugh.

And at that moment he realised that he wanted to go to her apartment. He wanted to be with Kensi. His Kensi. Even if it was just to watch a stupid movie because what was important to him was only to be with her. He understood that she represented the place in his mind where he goes when he's hurt to not feel the pain, even when he's not hurt actually. He thinks of her all the fucking time even when they're together. He just cannot stop thinking about Kensi. It's not possible and in fact he doesn't want to.

From the beginning of their partnership and then their friendship he cared so much about her. He was afraid that something would happen to her with their job so one day, a long time ago, he decided to always look after her. Because he wasn't sure that someone else would do it. And if anything woud happen to her Deeks wasn't quite certain that he could ever forgive himself. At first, this kind of bond terrified him because he was used to be alone, to feel alone, to take care of himself and just himself. But when Kensi entered his life, everything had been shaken up. His whole life became a beautiful mess and he didn't want to change it. He loved it too much. He wasn't ready to let her go yet and he might never be. How would you go back to your old life after knowing the only person who can make you genuinely smile ? You wouldn't.

He then said his goodbye to the men who were still talking and laughing and got out as fast as possible. He felt a little bit dizzy after all the drinks he had taken. According to his watch, it was now one in the morning. Great. He wanted to go to her place as drunk as he ever could be. She will just punch him in the arm repeatedly.

His brain wasn't reacting normally and he called out for a cab in the middle of the street. More like yelling and making big moves. There were few people on the streets but the ones who where around him were laughing openly at Deeks. From another point of view he was honestlty like a drunk fool and not having fun by seeing him wasn't an option. Thank God Sam and Callen weren't there to see him otherwise he knew he would have hear about it for the rest of his life. Even Kensi would have been helpless towards the two men from their team. Again, another smile appeared on his face when her name crossed his mind.

At some point he was in front of the door of her apartment. The bar was at least 40 minutes from her place and he didn't know how he did to get there in record time. Either he took a cab or he ran but he sure didn't fly.

Here he was, like attracted to her. He had to admit that having a night separated from her was hard. Harder than he ever thought it would be. Maybe it was due to the fact that their relationship was still new and at the beginning you don't want to leave the other one. Or maybe because he liked her too much and well... he needed her. All the time. It wasn't just for the sex. The very good sex by the way. Because he also loved being with her watching TV while eating take-out. Or just holding her in bed and talking about their day. It was what her prefered. Being able to hold her close because in the OSP they were supposed to be partners and nothing more. Friends at least but certainly not boyfriend and girlfriend. That secret was hard to keep even though they did a lot of under cover cases in the past. Maybe it was related to the fact that they were lying to their friends not random people they'll never see after.

Everything was easy with her. He didn't have to think of a discussion because everything just came out so naturally. He could be truly him and it felt nice to finally be able to be with someone who likes you for you who are. He was really glad to feel this for the first time of his life and he wanted to keep this feeling for the rest of his days.

But anyway, he was there, knocking on her door too loudly. He was even yelling her name to make her reach the door faster. And when she did openend the door he immediately thought how flawless she was, even in pajamas and with tousled hair. He couldn't take his eyes off of her. But who could actually ? Certainly not him.

"Hey." She whispered, just waking up by the too noisy Deeks.

"Aren't you supposed to be with Matt and Luke tonight ?" She said yawning.

"I sooo wanted to see you Fern. Your apartment is in the dark. Why your apartment is in the dark ? Were you sleeping ? Because it's too early to sleep. The night is still yoooung !" He came in turning around, obviously searching for the swith. Vainly. "I want Tequila. Do you have Tequila ? I'm kinda thirsty."

"Ohh I can believe you. Come on we're going to put you to bed now. I think you need it more than me. Or you will in the morning." She laughed soflty before taking his hand and guided him to her room in order to make him sit on her bed. It wasn't a simple task. For both of them.

"You could have come. You should have come because the booze was awesome ! And you would have meet my friends. Next time you're in Fern !"

"We'll see about that when your hangover will be over." She took off his shoes before his jacket and put his stuff on the floor.

She wasn't pissed off at all of course. He looked really adorable when he was drunk but a drunk Deeks meant a couch for Kensi. And this, she didn't think was adorable.

She kissed him tenderly and stroked his cheek before getting up.

"Okay, have a good night."

She switched off the light but before she could even reach the door of her bedroom she heard a slight « I think I love you.» from Deeks. She looked back at him as quietly as possible but he was already fast asleep with one leg on the bed and the other in the air. She couldn't help herself and smiled in the darkness of the room.

Well she might think that too.