I woke up to harsh whispers outside of my- where am I, I thought to my self, flinching back in the bed my breathing turned rapid and I must of let out a whimper because, quite suddenly, all conversation stopped and the door knob turned.
There stood the most beautiful boy I've everseen. Golden all over. Gold skin, gold hair, and gold eyes.

I didn't trust him.

I sat there shaking, eyes wide as I stood at the figure across the room who seemed to illuminate the room, all on his own. Pulling up the covers to my chin I clenched my fists in the thin, rough fabric and scrambled to the corner of the bed where I knelt cowering. Whimpering

Suddenly he grinned. ''Ello there! My names Jace and you are Clarissa. Maryse has told us all about you!' He reached out one hand and I flinched. He frowned and I, in anticipation for the beating I would surly get from this boy, turned my head away and pinched my eyes shut. Keeping out everything and every one.
'I'm not gonna hurt ya' Clary, she said you'd be scared but... but your like a beaten and broken animal. what happened to ya''
'JACE WAYLAND SHUT UP OR I SWARE-!' Another male voice interrupted Jace then I heard a familiar voice shush them both.
'Be quiet, the 'ole lot of you! your scaring her. Jace I'm not joking!' Coming over to me, her expression softened and she slowed her pace. 'Clary, Hun, will you come over here? They won't hurt you I promise.'

I nodded.

Skirting around Jace, I slowly made my way to Maryse. she pulled me to her chest crushing my broken wrist. I flinched. 'Clary, sorry Hun' she loosed her grasp and I reluctantly moved away, tears falling from my eyes.
Suddenly a girl came running into the room stopping short when she saw me. 'Your awake!' the baffled expression surprised me. how long was I out for? 'You was out for two days! jeez! you scared Mama!'
hearing the familiar way she talked about her mother, the amount of love in it, brought fresh tears to my eyes

'Aw Izzy! you made her cry! com'ere!' Goldie- Jace was approaching me arms open.
seeing me flinch the girl-Izzy teased Goldie, 'Aw she don' like ya' Jace! Big blow to ya' ego right there!'
'I'm wounded you would think me to insecure as to believe my ego would have shrunk!'
'shut up both ya'. Clary do you want anything to eat?' I shook my head. 'Wrong thing to say, do you want anything to 'drink'?' I didn't answer.

'Izzy get her a cup of milk, and don't dilute it either.' Right then a dark haired man walked in.
'Your wasting expensive stuff on one of the posh twats that had me whipped in the park?'
'Alec, she never even left her house. She doesn't get involved she has her own things to worry about! So don't go accusing her!' Maryse, always there.
'Yeah, how fat something will make'er! what colour suits her best!' I flinched. 'Mama, ju-'
'Alec, shut up!' Maryse defended.

Handing me the glass of milk Izzy just carried in Maryse told everyone to go and get something to eat and she came over to me and gave me a pile of clothes and an old cord to tie at the waist of the trousers apparently. 'Clary I'm going to be in there with the rest of them. when your dressed call me and I'll help you into there, okay?' After nodding at the cloths, silently begging me to get dressed, she walked out to join her family.

The cloths contained an old warn cotton t-shirt ,over sized on my small body, and some trousers that, in the end, I had to call Maryse to help since my waist was unhealthily small, too small to be petite. After sorting out the trousers, Maryse and I heard a gasp.

'C-clary w-what happed to your back! Mama I came in ta tell ya' someone's asked to see ya' at Pandemonium, but... Clary...'
'Clary do you mind if Izzy sits with you for a while?' I shook my head. 'Okay, Izzy can you sit in here with her please? Thank you Izzy! I'll be back soon!'

After hearing the door slam Izzy started up again. 'Clary what 'append to you back? It was all red and scarred. It were 'orrible! Sorry! it's not my place to ask!' She looked so sorry and scared I couldn't hate her. I really tried to.
'Its fine someone who should care about me... hurt me.'
'Oh! I'm so, so sorry I brought it up! I wont tell any one I sware!'
'Thank you. I appreciate the discretion.'

Then Jace walked in. 'Izzy we were going to go to Pandemonium to listen to some music. Ya' coming? You too Clary!'
'I-I don't listen to that kind of music, S-s-sorry!' I was panicking now, but he only looked at me curiously.
'Then ya' missin' out!'

He didn't know Pandemonium was the last place my brother took me. That listening to the music reminds me I'm a failure. That I destroy.

To love is to destroy.