Chapter 17
7 Months
BPOV
Today was Alice's big day.
We were all so happy and excited for her.
Everyone was trying to give their all to Alice, but she made sure to give me her all, she knew I was hurting on the inside, I couldn't hide anything from her.
I had persuaded her to let Rose be the maid of honor, because I didn't want to walk with Edward, I would rather walk with my brother.
She reluctantly agreed and Emmett thought the better choice as well.
The wedding went beautifully as did the reception.
Edward stared at me most of the night, finally when we were all dancing, he came and cut in while I was dancing with my dad. My dad looked at me and I shrugged, Alice, Jasper, Rose & Emmett all had their eyes on us, as did Esme, with a slight smile I might add.
I made sure to keep an arms distance between Edward and I.
"So, I heard that Alex decided not to give up his playboy ways." Edward said all the happily.
"Edward, I really don't want to talk about this. You don't even know what I've been and what tonight is doing to me." I pressed.
"Tell me, I'm all ears." Edward smiled and pulled me closer. "Wow, you've been eating too much fast food, what happened to you always cooking for yourself?" Edward mused.
I tried to push away, but to no avail and then out of nowhere, my little one decided to introduce themselves to Edward.
"What the hell?" he looked startled. "Are you?" he couldn't even finish and I saw tears in his eyes.
I shoved him off of me and took off to the bathroom, Esme quick on my heels.
"Bella? Are you O.K.? What happened?" she asked with all the care in the world, she truly was my mom.
I came out of the bathroom stall and she grabbed me and brought me to the little couch in the waiting area.
"What happened? What did Edward say to you?" she asked, but before I could answer, Alice and Rose flew in.
"Bella, Edward wants to talk to you, Emmett and Jasper are trying to calm him down, he's outside right now, he fell to his knees on the dance floor and broke into tears." Alice said.
That just made me cry harder, 'Great, I just broke Edwards heart!' I thought to myself.
'We..dancing..and, and he asked …Alex… wedding… and…kick.." I got out between sobs.
"What?" Rose asked.
"They were dancing, he asked he about Alex and she thought about the wedding and then the baby kicked." Alice stated, like it was so clear.
"Oh!" Rose smiled.
Esme stood up "Bella, would you like to talk to Edward in private?" she asked.
I shook my head yes.
"I'll go get him, you 2, clean her up and take her to private sitting area." Esme smiled.
They took me to the sink, blotted my face off and fluffed my hair.
"What are you 2 doing? I'm dating him." I sighed "He wouldn't want me now anyways."
They both laughed.
"Edward would take you at 500 lbs. woman!!!" Rose smiled.
'Well, he'll have his wish, because I'm pushing that now!" I grimaced.
They rolled their eyes at me and led me down the hall to the private sitting area.
"Go back and enjoy your wedding." I scolded Alice.
Alice and Rose gave me sympathy looks and headed back to the reception.
I sat their and waited, nervously rubbing my belly and silently crying.
EPOV
I walked up and saw the most beautiful, yet sad sight in the world.
My Bella, sitting there, rubbing her little belly and crying.
I cleared my throat to let her know I was there.
"Um, hi." I gave a small smile.
"Hey." she whispered back.
I took the seat next to her and held her hands.
"Bells, why didn't you tell me? I mean, I know it's been a while since we talked and stuff, but I've always been here for you." I smiled again.
"Edward, you were so upset when I started dating Alex, you looked at me with such hate and disgust, I sure as hell wasn't going to tell you anything! You're the last person I wanted to know, ever." I spat.
Her words made me whence.
"Bella, I would never, ever hurt you, you have to know that after all these years! I've waited for you! Only you. When I found out you were engaged, I lost my mind, I almost dropped out of school I was so over come grief. But I talked to my dad and even Jasper and they both told me to hang in there. So, I pushed myself in school, graduated earlier than expected, did a quick internship, they liked what they saw and now, I'm 2nd in charge of Pediatrics at Seattle General." I smiled at her.
"You can't possibly want me after all this time and as horrible as I was to you! I treated you like shit Edward, I let my pride get in the way, I was engaged to someone I really didn't know, I'm pregnant with his child! How pitiful and karma like is that?" I asked.
"Bella, you are the sweetest person I know and I can understand, now, why you didn't want to be with me during college. It's tempting, very tempting, but I didn't give in, I couldn't. Inside I was still proving to myself that I had to be loyal, if I looked at another woman, I thought I was betraying you and the words that you said about me hurting you those 3 times I was with other girls, really got to me, so I haven't been with another woman, except when I was with you and you asked me to be your first. You don't know how honored I was when you asked me that and I knew from that dad, I had to be loyal to you, until you said 'I do.', then I knew there would be no chance for us." I kissed her hands and she blushed. "May I?" I asked reaching for her belly.
She shook her head yes.
I placed my hand in there and immediately she kicked and hard, it took my breath away.
"Are you O.K.?" I asked Bella who looked to be in pain.
She smiled and let out a deep breath. "Yeah, Braxton-Hicks contractions." she smiled again.
"How far are you?" I asked, hands still on her belly and the baby kicking up a storm.
"7 months. Today" she smiled.
"So, your baby is due in February?" I asked.
"Valentine's Day, actually." she smiled.
"Any names?" I asked again.
"My, aren't we nosy tonight.?" Bella giggled.
"Sorry, didn't mean to overstep." I smiled.
"No, I don't mind, that's one thing, we always could keep a conversation flowing, no matter how awkward things were." she smiled at me.
We sat in comfortable silence for about 30 minutes, when Esme and Carlisle came in.
"Bella. Why didn't you come to me? Are they taking good care of you in Seattle? Are you taking your vitamins? Are you eating? You look to skinny! What's your doctors name?" Carlisle was I full doctor mode.
Bella giggled. "I told my doctor all about you, actually I interview several and every time I mentioned your name and I was turned away, like they were scared." Bella blushed. "My doctors name is Dr. Stevens."
"Oh! He's one of the best Bella. You've got nothing to worry about. I work very closely with him, you must be the beautiful creature he keeps going on and on about," I told her truthfully.
"Are you ready to go back to the party Bella? Alice is waiting on you to throw her bouquet." Esme beamed.
"I guess so, I feel bad for ruining her big day." Bella fought back new tears.
I placed my hand on the small of her back and marveled at how beautiful she looked, in her flowing dress, Only Alice, I thought to myself.
We arrived and Alice squealed, pulling Bella away from me and on to the floor for the flower throwing.
Alice teased a few times before throwing the bouquet, which landed right in Bella's arms, no one dared to snatch them or fight for them
Bella blushed and started a new round of tears.
I went to comfort her and Charlie's arm stopped me.
I look at her and smiled, I saw Alice and Rose go over to guide her to her chair and trying to calm her
down.
"Eddie Boy! You ready to fight for the garter?" Emmett slapped me on my back.
I grimaced at the name Eddie Boy and mumbled under my breath to the dance floor.
Jasper flung it back and it landed right in my hands, I couldn't believe it.
Alice, Rose and Bella were all giggling and Jasper and Emmett patted my back and gave me a knowing smile.
They brought a chair out for Bella to sit on, so I could place the garter on her thigh.
"We don't have to do this you know." I smiled and rubbed her hand while the DJ talked.
She smiled back " I know, but I've got to make up to Alice for earlier."
I groaned as the music started and hoops and hollers were going from around the room, most my family and friends, especially Emmett.
"You have to put your head under her dress man and when pulling up, you've got to use your teeth!" the DJ shouted, I think I hate him now.
I gave Bella and apologetic look and she shrugged her shoulders, always taking one for the team, I thought.
I fluffed out her dress and out it over my head and began to pull the garter up with my teeth, I could smell her arousal and I felt myself coming to life after all these years. I nudged her center with my nose and she wiggled, no one would know what I did but her and then before I finished, it was so inviting, I kissed her panties, which were soaked now and slowly slid away, seeing her blush and tasting her again, I could die a very happy man right now.
They played a song for us to dance to and she stiffened slightly, damn Alice I thought to myself. She didn't.. She did… "The Wind Blows" by All American Rejects, was playing.
I've got to breathe, you can't take that from me
'cause it's all that you left that's mine
You had to leave & that's all I can see
But you told me your love was blind
I know there are times, you're do impossible
That I should sign a waiver
And you will find someone worth walking on
When you ask me to go
I'll leave when the wind blows
Take a breath and away it goes
I'll be outside your window
I'll pass by but I'll go slow
I'll leave when the wind blows
There was a day you threw our love away
Then you passed it to someone new
You wanna stay but since you wanna play
We can finally say we're through
I know there are times you're so impossible
And you ask me to go
Chorus
As I lay in solitude, oh what's a boy to suppose to do?
I shake the very thought of you, me together I remember
Late nights when I stay'd up late all I do is wait and wait
You're never coming home to me,
That's the hardest thing to see
Chorus
Bella was crying by the end of the song and I saw the smirk on Alice's face.
"Can I drive you home tonight,, Bella?" I smiled down at her.
"If you'd like, that'd be nice." she smiled and her eyes had a little glimmer in them.
We said our goodbye's, I could see she was exhausted , Charlie was hesitant at first, but she hugged and kissed him and told him it was O.K.
As she thanked Esme, Jasper and Emmett walked over to me "Hurt our sister and you're dead meat Cullen, brother in law or not. She means the world to us and she's carrying our special niece… So don't blow it, we're rooting for you! We love you man!" Jasper smiled and shook my hand, Emmett slapped me on the back.
I led Bella to the car and we drove for about half hour in silence.
"What the hell was up with the whole garter thing, that was wrong and uncalled for!" she crossed her arms and tried to be angry.
"I'm sorry, once I got there, I could smell your arousal and your panties were wet, it was a total turn on."
I smiled.
She looked like she wanted to talk, but was nervous.
"Edward?" she said in a whisper.
"Yes, Bella.?" I asked just as quiet.
"Do you know he signed away all his rights to this baby, he wants nothing to ever do with it." she sighed and tears were coming down, my heart was breaking.
"Bella, it'll be O.K., things work out all the time, you're a good person, you'll be a fantastic mother and someday, things will fall into place." I whispered softly too her.
She smiled and gave me the final directions.
We reached her place and she asked if I'd walk her up, she was shaky still.
I accepted and once there, she asked if I'd like coffee, I nodded yes and she went to the kitchen.
I looked around the living room and all the pictures she had, some were from when we were younger and happier, our little group, even when we weren't dating was there, some of her in college and then a series of pictures not yet framed, of her through out her pregnancy, in a t-shirt and yoga pants, I'm guessing each month.
I reached down to play her CD and Claire de la Lune was playing, I smiled and left it on.
She walked out with the coffee in her hands.
"Can you unzip me? I really need to breathe." she smiled.
I reached up to unzip her and as I did, I kissed the back of her neck, her head lulled and she sighed, she walked down the hall, to her room I guess and came out in a pair of yoga pants and tank top.
"Sorry for the belly hanging out, it's more comfortable this way and I don't usually have company at night." she blushed.
"No problems, I think you're adorable." I smiled and patted the seat next to me.
She sat down and I pulled her closer to me, moving her hair and giving her a massage, she was moaning, I finished with her neck and then I got up, she looked panicked, but I smiled and went to sit at her feet and massaged her feet and calves, she moaned again and smiled.
We talked lightly the rest of the night.
I looked at my watch.
"Wow, it's 3 a.m., I better go." I grimaced.
"It's late, stay." she looked out from under her lashes. Damn it, I can't resist.
"O.K., if you're sure." I smiled.
She grabbed my hand and led me to her room, "The bed is big enough and we're adults she said." blushing again.
We went to bed, thoughts playing all through my head, most importantly, 'how was I going to make it through the night…" I finally drifted to sleep.
A.N:
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