Chapter 18

Left to My Thoughts

BPOV

I woke in the morning and sat up in bed, trying to figure out last night.

I suddenly remembered that I was alone, I broke into tears.

I knew he didn't want me, he was just being a friend.

I laid back down and cried myself to sleep again.

I heard the phone ringing off the hook, but was to weak to answer it, it rang and rang, finally, I took it off the hook and went back to sleep.

I woke up to a pounding on my door.

I couldn't get up, I was too weak, I just wanted to die.

I don't know how long I laid there, I know that night turned into day at least once.

"Bella, Bella! Please wake up!" I heard someone, but I didn't want to open my eyes, I was too weak.

I awoke to a beeping noise and pressure on my stomach, I automatically put my hands on my belly and felt something weird, I couldn't look down though, my head was pounding to much.

I sighed and said "Hello?" thinking that someone had to be here, I'm guessing I'm in the hospital.

I closed my eyes and fell back asleep.

I awoke to voices, several, all male and said it again, "Hello?" as I still couldn't left my head enough.

"Bells?" it was Charlie.

"Daddy!" I exclaimed. "I can't lift my head, my neck and head hurt really bad."

He walked closer to my side and held my hand.

"Hey baby, how are you feeling?" Charlie asked with all the care in the world.

"I feel like I've been hit by a truck! I feel like shit!" I exclaimed.

"Bella, it'll be O.K. darlin'." Jasper said.

"Jasper? What the hell are you doing here! You're suppose to be on your honeymoon!" I scolded.

"We were at the airport, waiting for our flight and we got a call about you not answering your phone, so I called dad to check on you. He flew to your apartment and found you unconscious and called an ambulance. And called us, we went and asked for a later flight, telling them of our family emergency, they were great about it, as was our hotel, so we just added on an extra night. It's fine, really. Alice is waiting to see you." Jasper exclaimed.

I broke into more tears, but not before another hand came to rest on mine.

"Bella, are you O.K.?" I looked and it was James.

"Oh, hey. What are you doing here?" I asked confused.

"Charlie needed more clothes, he said he's staying with you for a few weeks." James smiled.

"The hell he is! I'm a grown woman and can take care of myself. I really don't need my father to watch over me." I huffed.

"I could stay if you wanted. We haven't seen each other in a really long time and I kick myself for not getting closer to you, you've become a beautiful woman Isabella." James smiled and pushed a loose hair behind my ear and left his hand resting on my cheek.

"No, really I am fine by myself! Why does everyone want to be with me when I am fat and pregnant, are you guys all the desperate!" I shouted out and saw the hurt in James' eyes.

"I'll leave then, goodbye Bella." James turned and walked out with his head down.

I sighed and thought to myself, why the hell did these men want me? I was fat and pregnant with my ex-fiancés baby, that he didn't want either of us and that brought on a new round of tears.

As I rolled over in the bed and was sobbing, I felt hands on my shoulder.

"Are you O.K.?" It was Alice.

"No, no one will leave me alone, I told them I'm fine and don't need a babysitter, but they won't listen and to top everything off, Edward and James BOTH want me and I not only ruined your wedding, but your honeymoon. I should have just went away and had the baby and been by myself, like I deserve to be, I fuck everything up!" I was sobbing now.

"Bella, first you did not fuck up my wedding or honeymoon, we're catching a later flight, think of it as a weather delay and secondly, if you ever go away and not tell me where you or my Goddaughter is, I'll kik your ass! Jasper and I need you in our lives, we need the baby in our lives." she stopped and sighed longingly.

"What's wrong Alice?" I asked.

"Bells, what I'm telling you, only my family knows and you'll be the first person out side to know. And it's because I love you and I want you to be a part of our family, you and Edward deserve to be happy together,

he truly loves you, no matter what you think, he loves you! But, I need you to stay around with this baby and I'm going to help you no matter what it takes. Bells, I can't have children. I have really bad fibroids and they scared me so bad, that I can't have children. My dad always beats himself up over it, but he knows there's nothing they could have done about it, one of his sisters had the same problem. But Jasper and I are O.K. with this, we'll just focus on us and our careers, but I need to be around your baby and help you take care of her, if you'll allow me to." Alice smiled widely.

"Oh, Alice!" I held put my arms for her.

"Of course, I would love to have your help, you're the only constant I can count on, you've always been here for me and I'll be here for you, you're the sister I never had and you'll be Aunt Ali, also Godmother, but mostly Aunt Ali. But… you'll have to refrain from spending so much money on her!" I tried to be stern, but she laughed.

We sat there and talked for a while, when Jasper poked his head in and said they had to get going.

"I'm going to miss you Alice." I smiled.

"I'll miss you too Bells." she smiled.

"No you won't you and Jasper will be rolling in the bed for 2 weeks! Like sex craving teenagers." I smiled and Jaspers smiled matched mine and he winked at me.

"I love you both, be safe." I said quickly, feeling the tears.

They both came and hugged an d kissed me before they left.

"Don't have that baby early!" Alice warned before blowing a kiss and walking out the door.

"Hey sis! Emmett boomed.

"Hey bro, where's Rose?" I asked.

"She isn't feeling well, so Charlie took her to the hotel to rest." he smiled.

"Sorry, I hope she's O.K." I smiled.

"I think so, you've just put us all through the ringer the past few days, that's all." Emmett replied.

"Sorry." I looked down at my hands.

"So, are you and Edward a couple?" Emmett asked, that's one thing, he never made small talk.

"NO! And we won't be, so everyone needs to stop. He doesn't want some damaged, pregnant woman!" I spat.

"Bella!" Emmett yelled at me and I broke down and cried, for what seemed like forever.

He was holding me and stroking my hair, when a bronze mop popped in the room.

"What's going on? Is everything O.K.?" Edward asked.

I just started sobbing harder and Edward got in front of my face, I turned away from him and buried my head in Emmett's chest, I could feel him shrug and then a heavy sigh and the door opening and closing.

I saw a figure pacing back and forth in front of the door.

"I better go talk to him, you go back to sleep." Emmett demanded.

I shook my head and laid down, immediately asleep.

I awoke the next morning to my blood pressure being checked and saw Carlisle along with my Dr. in the room, they both smiled at me.

"Well Isabella, you're ready to go home, but you need someone with you at all times, you gave us quite a scare and the babies heartbeat was weak for a while, you need to be stress free, do you understand? Carlisle asked.

I shook my head yes.

"I am serious Isabella! We aren't losing the closest thing we have to being our first grandchild or you who's like a daughter to us, so you can be your damn head strong self!" Carlisle barked.

I flinched at his roughness, but I understood how much him and Esme loved me and the unborn child I was carrying.

"Charlie is going to stay for the next 2 days and then we'll alternate over the next week, until Edward can stay with you full time. Do you understand?" Carlisle asked.

"Carlisle, can't Esme and Rose just check on me? I really do want to be a burden and Edward is needed at the hospital and …" I was cut off by Carlisle's bark.

"Isabella, I will not listen to this any longer! Edward will be staying with you next week, up until you have the baby, no arguments or you'll be in the hospital for the next month and a half. Besides, with your condition, we need a doctor in the house with you. That's final!" Carlisle smiled at me.

"Fine, but I won't like it!" I spat back and we had a glaring contest, until his phone rang and he excused himself.

I was released a few hours later, to have Charlie come and take me home.

I felt bad he had to sleep on my tiny couch, but when we walked in, my couch was gone, replaced by this beautiful sectional that made out to a full size bed. I gasped and looked at Charlie, who had a sheepish grin on his face. "What?" he smiled at me.

"When did you do this?" I asked.

"Yesterday, Rose and I went out…" he started.

"She wasn't sick?" I questioned.

Charlie gave me a look and I just sighed.

I went to my cabinets, to look for something to eat and then I thought about it, I hadn't been grocery shopping in a while, so I had no food. I still proceeded to open the cabinet and to my surprise the cabinets were full as well as my fridge and freezer. Charlie and Rose had stocked up my house as well.

"Coffee dad?" I called from the kitchen.

He came storming into the kitchen, "Bella, you can't have coffee, to much caffeine, that won't help you relax!" Charlie barked.

I giggled. "Dad, it's decaf" I smiled.

He smiled back and said no thank you, but he'd take a beer from the fridge.

I smiled, thinking that's so him.

He plopped down on the sofa and motioned for me to sit by him.

I held my coffee and watch a little of the game with my dad, all of a sudden, he was picking me up and laying me in bed, he slipped off my shoes and placed me under the covers, where I had a decent night's sleep.

I awoke to the smell of something burning, I quickly ran into the kitchen to see Charlie dumping something down the disposal and cursing,

"Dad! What in God's name are you doing?" I asked, puzzled.

"Oh, morning sunshine, I was making you breakfast, but I burnt it, go get dressed, we'll go out." he smiled.

I wasn't use to Charlie being so attentive, the only thing he ever did was order pizza so I wouldn't have to cook, when I was sick back at home.

I smiled and retreated to my room to get dressed.

I settled on a deep purple sweater dress and black tights Alice had bought me a few weeks ago, it clung to me and I really did look pregnant now. I put on the square heeled knee high boots and tousled my hair, some light lipgloss and I was ready.

Charlie smiled as I walked out of my room.

"You look stunning." he smiled at me, I blushed and thanked him.

We went to a small diner down the street from my house, they had the best French toast.

When we walked in, I scanned the restaurant as always and saw someone waving at us, it was Edward.

Charlie spoke up 'Oh, I think I left the coffee pot on and my wallet, I'll be back in a few." and he was gone, before I could even protest.

I walked back to where Edward was and smiled, he stood as I sat down.

"So? How much did Charlie pay you to come here?" I asked.

He faked mock resentment.

We talked about non important things and then when breakfast was finished, he excused himself to go to work.

I got up to leave, a little annoyed at Charlie for not coming back yet, but when I turned around, he was sitting at the counter, finishing his coffee, smiling at me.

Emmett took Charlie to the airport finally and I had about 2 hours to myself, before Rose would be there.

I was relaxing and reading a book when there was a knock at my door.

I looked out the peep hole to see Edward. I sighed and opened up, he had 2 bags at his side.

"Did you kick yourself out of you r own place?" I smiled.

"Nope, Carlisle called this morning and said that I could have the rest of the week and next off, but still get paid, because I'll technically be working, staying with you." he smiled.

"Don't I get a say so in this?" I huffed.

"Bells, it's either this or the hospital!" Edward stated firmly.

I sighed and gave in, moving to the side for him to being his bags in.

A/N:

Sooooo???? I know it's not as good as the last, but it takes us where we need to be for the next few chapters…

Enjoy and thanks again to everyone who reads and big hugs to those who take the time to review…

Also, I had a few questions about Bella's coffee habit, it is DECAF!!!

She's fine!!!!

**Stephanie owns Twilight…Not Me…**