Hushed Secrets

Chapter 6

What the hell is all this beeping noise.

Why is it so quiet.

Where the hell am I?

I tried to open my eyes, but my left one hurt really bad and when I tried to sit up, everything else did too.

I must have made some type of noise, because I heard my brothers and dad close by.

"Go get Dr. Cullen." my dad whispered to someone.

"Bells, you there sweetie?" my dad.

I thought I was smiling, but my mouth hurt.

I went to touch it and it hurt my arm.

"Bells, don't move. Dr. Cullen will be in to speak with you." Edward said.

I nodded my head, I think.

"Bella! So glad you're coming around. There's lots to go over with you and you gave us quite a scare, you've been out for three days." Dr. Cullen said.

I tried to say something, but them remember I couldn't.

"O.K., lets go over your list of injuries and then I tell you what we're going to be doing for you. You'll be in here for several weeks, so just know that." he stated.

"First injuries, you've got a broken collar bone and shattered wrist, both on your left side. I'm sure you can tell your left eye is already swollen shut as well, a broken jaw, and your right knee is dislocated. All in all, you were lucky you survived that logging truck hitting you and your car going over a cliff." he sighed.

"Calm down. I know you've got questions and I'll let your family explain all of that to you. But you've got to stay calm." he said again.

I realized I could lift my right arm, it just had all the I.V.'s and stuff in it.

I lifted my hands to my stomach and panicked.

I winced as I touched it, it was very sore and tender.

I heard sniffling and looked to see my family all crying.

I started shaking my head no, it really hurt to do so, but I knew what they were saying. I'd lost my baby. I started to cry and Dr. Cullen was trying to get me to calm down, I was trying to scream, but couldn't because my jaw was wired shut.

"Bella, I'm going to have to sedate you, if you don't stop! It's not good to get your blood pressure this high, especially after losing the baby." Dr. Cullen said sternly.

There was a gasp and everyone turned to the door, Edward moved to the side to see Jasper, Rose and Alice standing there.

Alice ran to Edward's side and started crying.

Jasper just looked at everyone, trying to figure out what was going on.

I turned my head, so I couldn't see him and motioned for everyone to leave.

"Bells, you want everyone to leave?" Garrett asked. I nodded a yes and he sighed.

"Everyone, give Bella a while to rest. Come back after 2pm, she should be awake by then. I'm giving her something to relax." Dr. Cullen stated.

I awoke a few hours later to Jasper sitting in the chair and looking at me sadly.

"Bella, I know you can't talk right now and this probably isn't fair, but I'm kind of put out that you wouldn't have told me about your pregnancy, from the beginning. I- I need some time to think this over. It's not like I was against you being pregnant, your brothers told me what happened, but that you didn't think to tell me, that really hurts. I hope you feel better soon." he leaned down and kissed me on the cheek, which I know were wet with tears. When he walked out that door, I broke into sobs, it hurt to cry and my machines were going crazy. Dr. Cullen, and my family raced in to see what was wrong.

"What did he say to you Bella?" Edward growled. "Ugh, sorry. Forgot." he pinched the bridge of his nose and then excused himself, I know he was going to find Jasper.

I'd been in the hospital two weeks, I was being allowed to now sip things through a straw and I could write, since I was right handed to communicate, it made life a little better.

I was told all about the accidents and surgeries and the loss of my baby. I cried again, when we talked about it, but Dr. Cullen said that was normal and if I needed to talk to someone, he could recommend a therapist.

I still hadn't heard from Jasper, Edward said he's been talking to Rose and I talked to him too, telling him you were going to tell him, but the accident happened, before I could.

I just nodded.

Edward stayed with me most days, he was there when they had to check me from the miscarriage. He held my hand and told me everything would be OK…

My brother was my saviour.

He continued to keep me up to date with everything going on and when he was doing his rounds, Garrett or my dad were there. Rose and Alice stopped by a few times as well, it was nice to have some girl time and as I got to know Rose better, she confided in me about her miscarriage a couple years ago. It was nice to have someone to talk to about it, but it's sad to have to bond over such a thing.

We all made plans to go shopping when I released, I was actually looking forward to it and Rose was going to talk to Jasper for me as well, letting him know I didn't mean to hide this from him, I was just scared, especially with my ex-boyfriend just walking away, I confided in Rose, telling her I thought he would do the same and not want me anymore.

It was the day I was getting to go home, a week early, because Edward and dad had gotten me a nurse and Dr. Cullen agreed if I was on bedrest, that it'd be O.K.

Alice and Rose came and got me showered and dressed to go, while we waited for the papers, Jasper walked in.

"Hey, can I have a moment with Bella." he asked.

Rose and Alice nodded and walked out.

"Hey, I'm so sorry…" I started to say, but he walked over to me and gave me a kiss that could have caused cardiac arrest.

"I'm sorry for walking out, it was just hurtful, I didn't think you trusted me." he sighed.

"And you're right to think that, because that was going through my mind, 'I don't know him, he'll just walk away.' that was the only thought going through my mind, on repeat. I couldn't understand how you'd want to stay, why'd you want to be with a teen mom." I shrugged and started crying.

Jasper was in front of me holding my hands. "Please, no tears. I'm here and I want you. I want to be with you, no matter what. Please say you'll come to school with us. We can live together and be roommates with your brother in Seattle." he smiled.

"Yeah and my dad and Edward are going to jump on that bandwagon." I laughed.

"Well, you'll be our roommate… We don't have to share a room, just because we're together. I understand if our physical relationship takes a while, you've been through so much." he smiled at me.

"Let's get me home, then we can talk about it." I kissed his cheek.

"We've only got two weeks left, until we go back." he shrugged. I knew this, but didn't want to rush, I wouldn't be able to get into classes this late, unless they had some special thing like late enrollment, but two weeks, that's cutting it close.

As I sat in my bed that first night home, I thought about how my life had changed in the short time I'd been here. I'd already made great friends, I was reconnecting with my dad and brothers, I had a great boyfriend and I was truly happy. The first time in a long time.

AN:

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