Hushed Secrets
Chapter 9
JPOV
I know Bella is going to be so pissed that I've been hiding my recruitment from her, but I wanted to tell her and propose at the same time. I know its fast, but I love her.
Things have been strained and going downhill for awhile, but it's all my fault.
I should have told her, she should always be the one I tell everything to, but here I am, I've fucked it up again.
I come home from my meeting with the recruiter and find Bella trying to get off the couch, I haven't seen her in almost two weeks, and she looks like shit. She's skinnier (if possible), her eyes are sunken in and she's obviously sick, her stomach is bloated and she's now screaming in pain.
We rush her to the ER and they take her for tests, she's gone for what seems like forever. I hope everything is OK.
The doctor comes in and tells us to leave, it's private.
We do as we're told. When he finishes, we go back in and she's crying, it can't be good.
She tells us she's still pregnant, she looks so happy, unsure, but happy.
It pisses me off!
That should be my baby, we should be a family, it shouldn't be her asshole EX's baby growing and thriving, I can't do this, not now.
My news about being recruited is totally overshadowed.
I should be on top of the world, but I'm not.
I'm angry!
I'm hurt!
I'm confused!
And most of all, I can't do this… I can't be a father to some other guy's mistake!
I know, I know I sound like a selfish bastard and maybe I am, but I can't help it. Its how I feel and I'm not going to hide it.
I know I took away her happy moment, but damn it, she took away mine.
I guess I'll move to Arizona by myself and just throw myself into my job.
She'll get over me, they always do!
AN:
Don't shoot me…
This is just how Jasper is right now…
Maybe he'll grow up someday…