Hushed Secrets
Chapter 14
"No Jasper! I just can't! It's too soon." I shouted and back into the house, Jasper chasing me again. "Damn it Bella! Don't run away from me.' He shouted as he rounded the corner to a furious Rose. "It's not what you think." Jasper snapped. "Really? So why is she crying." Rose snapped back. "Because I told her my true feelings! I want to get to know Olivia, I want to make up for being an ass all these years. But I can't if she won't forgive me and let me prove myself this time." She sighed defeated. "Jasper, I didn't say never. I said not right now! I just can't, not with our history. You're going to have to prove yourself to me." I told him. "I can do that Bella, I promise." Jasper gave me a hug and whispered he'd do things right this time. I nodded and pushed away, gathering my things and Olivia and set off for home.
Three weeks have past and Jasper has been trying very hard. He calls afterschool on nice days to see if we want to go to the park, same on weekends, we took hikes, went to the zoo, Olivia was loving it. If she asked for it, Jasper did it or got it. Next weekend we were going horse riding. "Bella, I can't believe I screwed up and everything I've missed out on. I wouldn't blame you if you didn't forgive me, ever! Olivia is wonderful. She is so much like you." Jasper just smiled. "I know you're trying and I appreciate it. But, I can't have you walking away. Not now! Olivia is super attached already." I sighed, shaking my head. "Bella, you have to believe me, that is not my intention. If you would have me, I'd marry you today." Jasper blurted out.
I paled.
"Bella, I meant it, I'm not sorry for blurting it out. I am still deeply, madly in love with you." Jasper took my hands. "Jasper, don't." I begged. "No! I'm tired of hiding my feelings for you and guarding what I say. I love you and want to spend forever with you and Olivia and maybe a few of our own." He wiggled his eyebrows. "Jasper…" I warned. "Come on! Don't you feel it Bella?" he shouted. "Let me take you away next weekend, just me and you to reconnect! I already know that Rose and Emmett are taking the kids, so you have NO plans." He smirked. "Can I think about it?" I asked. "You mean talk it to death with Rose." He smiled and laughed. I shrugged and nodded. "Fine. Let me know by Wednesday so I can make reservations." He took off and went to chase Olivia, who was squealing all over the park.
After bathing Olivia and tucking her in, I called Rose and asked her to meet me for lunch tomorrow and to see if Emmett would watch Olivia. She agreed and I told her I'd be by tomorrow around 11.
"OK, spill!" she said as soon as we were alone. "Chill!" I laughed. "Look bitch! Jasper is walking around like he won the fucking lottery! He and Emmett were on line for hours this afternoon, doing God knows what and Emmett is actually keeping this shit a secret! So spill!" she growled.
I told her everything and I told her I was anxious and scared about our future. "Bella, I think he's learned his lesson. Give him a chance. I think he's seen his wrong doing." She smiled.
"I'm going to. I was up all night thinking about it and I don't think I'll ever get him out of my system." I sighed. After finishing lunch Rose decided we needed to go shopping for my date Wednesday night.
We shopped and bought this beautiful satin dress, it was capped sleeved and a deep blue. We found matching shoes and undergarments as well. Rose was squealing with delight that I wanted those. "This means there's a possibility you'll give him some." She smiled. "Rose, NO! I'm taking it slow with him." I laughed. "Then why the matching undies?" she wiggled her eyebrows. "Damn, you're worse than Emmett!" I slapped her arm. "WELL?" she questioned. "Because they'll make ME feel sexy." I shrugged. She laughed and left it at that.
The date went great and Jasper was trying, really hard. He'd gotten in touch with his manager and publicist and let them know, as of now he wasn't returning, his arm still wasn't healed, so he was out for the entire next year. He wasn't worried, he had saved his money, Jasper was a pretty low key guy, plus he still had his endorsements. He'd told me that if he now had to choose between his career and me, he'd pick me this time, no questions asked. He'd learned from his mistakes.
We were going strong and taking it slow, loving every minute of our newly established relationship.
AN:
I know my updates have been short, but I've had so much RL craziness, that I'm soooo tired…
Not sure if something else is going on inside of my body or not, but I'm trying to update more…
I had this entire chapter wrote last week… Hit the wrong button and DELEATED the entire thing!
I wanted to scream!
So, I started from scratch and although this is about 100 words less, I think its better…
Thanks so much for reading and reviewing!