Both Sides of the Story

Chapter 20

JPOV

Carlisle came back in and sat down with a heavy sigh.

"Jasper, I'm sorry." he said and handed me a ring.

"This is the engagement ring I gave to Bella." I stated, remembering something.

"Yes, it is. She said that if you couldn't remember her and you two being together, then she didn't want anything to do with you. You were over." Carlisle hung his head.

"I'm going to remember, I'm going to get her back." I said with determination.

"Jasper, you can't just say that, she'll know you haven't remembered everything. Bella is not stupid." Carlisle shouted.

"I know that better than anyone Carlisle. I lost her once, I don't think I can go through it again." I said with a shaky voice.

"Just visit with Charlie and your parents. We'll work on the rest later." Carlisle sighed and walked out.

My visit with my family was great. I missed Charlie so much. The nurse shooed them out when she was changing my bandages, but Charlie wanted to stay and see them for himself. I said it was O.K. and Charlie sat next to me and watched as they cleaned my leg. He was in total awe. He asked all kinds of questions about it and the nurse answered what she could and I filled in the rest.

My parents stayed a little longer and then said they needed to visit with Bella before visiting hours were over.

I gave them all hugs and kisses and I whispered to my dad to tell Bella that I remembered giving her the ring. He nodded and hugged me goodbye.

BPOV

After my visit with Jasper's parents and Charlie, I felt like I wanted to curl up in a ball.

I was so tired of being upset and worrying, but I couldn't help it.

Edward was the only one who could calm me.

He came in and had breakfast, lunch and dinner with me and we'd talk about anything other than Jasper.

He is and always will be my best friend.

It's now midnight, I'm laying in bed and crying.

I am a ball of emotions and no one seems to really understand.

I was just nodding off, when my door creaked open.

"Bella?" a voice I didn't think I'd hear anytime soon sounded in the darkness.

I saw him wheeling himself next to the bed.

"Jasper?" I asked, uncertainly, but I knew it was him.

"Hey, I had to come and see you, talk to you. I just couldn't stand it anymore." he sighed.

"Why? Why do you want to see me? See me broken and crying and pregnant with your child that you don't remember or even want?" I spat.

"No, Bella. I want to remember, I want us to be a family, I'm sure of that. I remembered giving you that ring. Didn't my dad tell you that?" he begged.

"Yeah, he told me, so what? You remembered giving me a ring. You don't remember how or when or what happened after, so the point is mute!" I shouted.

"Bella, please. I'm really trying. It's better than when I first woke up, all I asked about is Maria." he cried.

"What? You asked about that fucking, lying piece of shit? You couldn't remember me or our time together, but you remembered her? Even after all she did to you? Unbelievable!" I shouted.

"I can't believe you'd come in here and tell me that shit! Just get out! I don't ever want to see you again! Leave me and my children alone!" I screamed and my monitors went wild.

I started to hyperventilate, Jasper was trying to hold my hand and I yelled at him to get out and not touch me.

Edward and a nurse came running in.

"Get him the hell out of here!" he shouted and ran to my side, holding me and trying to calm me down.

"Bella, Bella, you've got to breathe. C'mon. It's what's best for the baby." he whispered in my ear.

"Edward, I don't want him in here ever again. I don't want him there when I give birth." I sobbed.

"Bells, you know the last part isn't true. He was there with Charlie, don't deny him this. You know it's his baby. Let him be there. It'll just hurt you both in the end." Edward held me tight as he whispered this.

"I- I don't know." I shook my head.

"Look, I'll have the nurse bring you some hot tea. I'm going to talk to the asshole right now." Edward looked me in the eye. "I'll be back for breakfast. Get some sleep." he said sternly.

I nodded and took a deep breath.

JPOV

I went back to my room and broke down.

I can't believe she was being that way.

I was being honest with her and if she thinks she's keeping me away from my children, she'll have the fight of her life on her hands.

I won't be denied my children.

I sat in my wheelchair, just looking out the window.

My door opened, not sure how long I'd been sitting there.

"What the hell Jasper?" Edward snapped.

I wheeled myself around.

"What do you mean?" I sneered.

"Why did you go in there? My dad gave you specific orders NOT to go in there and yet you do! She's NOT in a good place right now. You don't know how long it took me to talk her down!" he spat.

"Why is everything about Bella?" I yelled.

"What? Are you serious?" Edward asked with a laugh.

"Yes, I am! I mean, I understand she's pregnant and you don't want her to go into labor this early, but, really? Protecting her from the truth?" I yelled.

"Because she can't fucking handle is Jazz! My God! Did the bump on your head knock all your common sense away too?" Edward shouted.

"Fuck you Edward!" I yelled back.

"Look! I just spent an hour in there, trying to calm Bella down. She's wanting to keep you from Charlie and from the birth of this one! So you should be kissing my ass right now!" Edward snapped.

"The fuck she will keep me from my children! I'll put up a fight, she won't know what hit her!" I shouted.

"Damn it Jasper! Calm down! Bells is just upset and really stressed! Just don't' go back in there, unless you're told to! I want to keep her calm and you like this, isn't working." Edward ran his hand through his hair.

"What the hell is up with you two anyways?" I asked.

"What? What do you mean?" Edward asked.

"You were holding her man! What the fuck!" I snapped.

"Shit, Jasper. I was calming her down. That's what works. We're friends, that's it. Trust me. I do love Bells, but like a sister! So don't go thinking any crazy shit!" Edward snapped back.

I held my hands up in surrender and wheeled over to my bed, I was exhausted and wanted to sleep.

"Look, sorry Edward. I'm just pissed, upset and scared. I know I don't remember everything, but seeing Bella broken like she is, isn't right. I know I've done that to her before, I just can't remember it. But, I feel it." I sighed.

"Get some rest Jazz. We're in for a long few weeks." Edward sighed and walked out.

BPOV

I slept like shit, but true to his word, Edward was there with breakfast for me at 8am.

He'd even went to my favorite place, my bakery.

"Look Bells, I don't want to argue with you. But, you need to give a lot of thought to Jasper." Edward sighed.

"I know, I know. Your dad was in this morning and we talked about it. The nurse filled him in on what she knew and I guess he talked to Jasper too." I said.

"Your dad laid into me. He was pretty pissed." I shrugged.

"And so was I. I went to talk to Jasper after I left you and I told him he wasn't allowed in here." Edward smiled.

"Yeah, well your dad thinks we need to have counseling sessions, maybe it'll help him remember and calm me down. I don't really want to though. If he can't remember, then he can't remember." I shrugged.

"Bells, you don't mean that. You know you love him." Edward sighed.

"Yeah, I do! I love him so much it hurts! But to know he doesn't love me or remember loving me hurts even worse." I whispered.

"Bells, I understand. Really. Remember, I went through a break-up." he smiled.

"Yeah, but at least she remembered you." I pouted.

"Look! Stop with that shit! Right now! It's not his fucking fault he doesn't remember! He's trying give him a chance!" Edward snapped at me.

I just started crying and right them, Emmett walked in.

"What the hell?" he snapped at Edward.

"Nothing, I'll be back later." he sighed and left.

Emmett took his chair.

"What's up sis?" Em asked.

"Everything is so screwed up Emmett. Everyone thinks I should forgive Jasper and help him work on his memory, but what about my feelings?" I cried.

"Bells, look. Everyone has been here for you and that's not going to change. But, if you love Jasper the way you say you do, then you need to do what Carlisle said and go to counseling." he held my hand.

"How did you know?" I asked.

"I just left Jasper's room and he told Rose and I. I think it's a good idea. It'll help you both." he smiled.

"You know what! You can all keep your opinions to yourself. Get out!" I snapped.

"But, Bells…" Emmett was trying to talk and I just pointed to the door.

I didn't want to hear anymore about how I should and shouldn't feel.

I closed my eyes and drifted off.

A/N:

I hope y'all enjoy this one!

It's a lot of angst and Bella is being a bitch!

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