Hey everyone, I am really sorry for making you wait so much. Uni + work keeps me for writing :/

April appears in the waiting area scanning for Brooke's family. Her eyes locked in Jackson talking with a guy she had never seen before. When they noticed her presence, Josh instantly jumped with a hopeful expression all over his face. Jackson knew April better than anyone, he could see she was exhausted and knew something was off from that minute.

"Mister Parker? I'm doctor Kepner and…" he cut her off.

"How's Brooke? What about the baby? They're fine right?"

"Well, she had a huge bleeding but we were able to control it. She's still very fragile and in the ICU but she'll have a full recovery." She stated.

"And our baby?"

April was trying to get the words out but it would be hard, she knew what was going to happen very well, since the feeling haunted her hopes and dreams in a daily basis.

"Mr. Parker, we are very sorry. We weren't able to save your baby, she had areal left us when she was brought to us." She was looking deep in his eyes as she watched all the hope vanish from his features. He was the face of a broken man, in a matter of seconds.

"No, no. That can't be true. She is okay. You can be right" The young man said as his voice cracked and tears started rolling. His knees went weak and he fell in front of April before could do anything about it. She knew there was nothing that she could do or say right now to bring comfort to him.

Jackson watched the scene having a very familiar feeling himself. All the fear, the doubts and the pain that Josh had just being through were his companion for a long time, and truth to be told, hadn't left him, they were just dormant. Seeing that tall man crying in knees was terrible. Seeing that with Jackson's background was excruciating. And he couldn't begin to imagine what was making with April, for that matter. He needed to do something.

"Josh. Hey. Come on." He said trying to pick him up. Josh was to devastated to protest, so he moved to one of the chairs as April followed them.

"Josh, I know this is a terrible thing. The pain your going through right now. But…"

"NO! YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I'M GOING THROUGH!" He screamed, making April give a step back. "I just lost my baby, our baby. How am I supposed to get over it? What can I do to help Brooke? I… I… This baby should be our miracle. And now… So don't… don't say that." He finished putting both hands on his face.

Jackson wasn't suppose to get personal to a patient but he couldn't help it right now. And technically he was his patient. So screw the regulations!

"I know that your hurt and scared and you don't know what to do right now. And I know exactly how you feel and what's going on in your head and what's now." He paused, feeling the tears coming. he took a deep breath and continued.

"And I know that because…" His tone and his words made Josh look at him. "… because I lost my son too. I've only met him for a few moments, and he was gone. It broke me, my wife and we didn't knew how to move forward. Every day is a struggle, I can't say it gets better, It's a fight, it's a war. It's up to you, to choose to fight. I try to make his time in our family worth it. Every second of it."

Josh was now sobbing and April could see Jackson's red eyes and expression. And what he said. Was both sad and brave.

Josh's reaction was almost instantaneous. He leaned as he as almost asking for support. Jackson than gave him a quick but reassuring hug.

"You have to be strong, for her. She NEEDS you." Jackson finished. Josh than turned to April.

"Where is Brooke? Can I see her?"

"She just went out of surgery. But you can see her in the next hour".

"I wanna be there when she wakes up. I have to."

"You will". They both said it, looking at each other.

Jackson left Josh and April had to go back to arrange things with Arizona, apart from the little locking eyes, which were so important for both of them and Jackson reminding her to feed, they didn't had any time to talk…

Almost an hour later, Arizona was checking Brooke's vitals, Josh was by her bed, waiting for her to wake up, as April appeared and called Arizona to talk.

"How is she doing?"

"Well, her vitals are all good, but since she just had a massive surgery, her body is really tired. She'll be waiting up soon through…"

"Yeah…" April swallowed. It was gonna be hard to tell her the news…

"You don't need to be here. For that, April. I know how hard this is for you."

"No no no. I need to be there for her. For them both. And I'll talk, if it's ok with you." She said reaffirming her position. "She's though". Arizona thought to herself.

"Fine, April. Just be calm ok?. It's for you and the little one."

"Thank you."

When they go back to the room, Brooke was starting to show signs that she was about to wake up, Josh held her hand thigh as her eyes started to open and she tried to move around. April and Arizona got closer to make sure she didn't make any abrupt movements.

"Ms. Parker, hey! Calm down, you're okay, you're okay." April said calming her patient.

"She scanned the room and found Josh looking at her, red eyes and everything, he couldn't say a word."

Brooke was very shaken by the surgery and the anesthesia, but that didn't stop her from trying to know what's was happing, what had happen. She needed to know.

"I… I… What's… Is my…"

"Ms. Parker, you were attacked in a grocery store by a man with a knife. You arrived here with a massive bleeding…" She took a deep breath before continuing, she could see Brooke's worry escalating quickly. "… we were able to save your life, you're in the ICU right now."

"And.. My…" Brooke said almost whispering.

"…Ms. Parker, we did everything in our power to save your little girl, but she didn't make it. We're so sorry." That was it. The couple were bawling by the end of her sentence. Brooke didn't make a sound and Josh could only hold her hand and gently as he could, making his presence by her side.

Arizona watched the scene. Knowing the position April was right now made her both amazed by her friend and very worried as well. It wasn't easy.

They passed more information regarding Brooke and left the room. April said she would rest a little a left in the next moment, leaving Arizona.

Jackson spent the next hours pacing around, thinking about 100 things, from the Parker's to Samuel, April, to his new baby, thank back to April. Meeting that couple gave him a reason to go back to that dark time and reevaluate everything. His reactions, her reactions, the what ifs, good ones and even more terrible ones. That was driving him crazy. He than decided to lay down a little, until he could have a chance to talk to his ex-wife. In the next on-call room, he saw, he entered the door to find a redheaded mess….

So.. That it for this chapter. The arc isn't done yet. So a little more and angst might me coming from the Parkers to Japril. Feel free to review and share your thoughts, I love reading all of them. And my apologies for talking so long to update. Hopefully I'll have more free time this month.

Thanks everyone!