Never Wake
by: Liv-x-Case-Benson & dcmasters
Ch. 4: Brush
The twins held her tightly staying silent, falling asleep an hour later.
Sara carried them upstairs, laying them in bed before checking on Lindsay.
Lindsay sat on her bed, laptop on her knees and headphones in, unable to hear Sara knocking.
Sara opened the door, walking in and tapping her arm.
Lindsay quickly shut her screen, taking her headphones out. "Hey."
"You okay?"
"Just feeling a little sick. I'll be ok," she smiled, shifting over.
"Need anything?"
Lindsay shook her head. The one thing she wanted right now she couldn't have. "I'm really sorry, Sara."
"Sorry? Why?" Sara asked, sitting beside her.
"I've been so horrible to you. Making you worry all the time."
"You're a teenager and, after what's happened, it's not unusual that you'd be a little rebellious."
"Mom would have grounded me for it and you know it."
"Yes, that's true, but you're supposed to be like that when you're a teenager."
"Will you come with me?"
"To your appointment?"
Lindsay shook her head. "The trial," she managed.
"Trial?"
"I need to testify. Against my rapist. They got him."
"That's good, right?"
"I guess."
Sara hugged her gently. "It'll be ok."
"Grandma's coming over to look after the twins soon."
The brunette nodded. "That's right. I work tonight..."
"Can I go with you?"
"Lindsay, you don't have any training or schooling. It's really not wise," Sara said.
Lindsay sighed. "Sorry."
Sara stood up. "I'll be right back," she said, going into her bedroom and digging in the back of the closet for the textbooks she'd kept to consult then just couldn't bring herself to throw away. Grabbing the box, she walked back into her room, setting it on the bed. "Here, for you."
"What's this?" she asked, looking inside.
"All my old books. They're not nearly as up-to-date as what's in now, but it'll give you the basics on what's what. I could see about getting the updated versions sometime."
Lindsay smiled. "Thanks. Not just for this."
Sara smiled. "Everything really will be ok. Hey, Linds, listen. Uh, wow this is hard, but sometime...a-and not that I'd ever try to replace her because it's just impossible, but well... Actually, I-I don't even know if I can do this, much less say it..."
"You need someone too."
"Yes, but..."
"You're seeing someone?"
"Well, no, but I think I know who I want to ask..."
"Who?"
"I work with her. She's pretty new. Her name is Julie Finlay. She took my office when I switched."
Lindsay gave a silent nod, thinking. "So she's like Mom?"
"A little, but she's not nearly into blood like that. I-I just figured I'd tell you first. This'll be new to me. I haven't dated in a really long time." Though, truth be told, at first she and Catherine hadn't "dated" as much as went to bed. Because..well, it'd been a while and they trusted each other and, after a rough case, that was always a relaxer.
"What about the twins? What will they think?"
Sara bit her lip. "That's the snag. I'll have to bring her around them A LOT before we - or I - say anything like that. I can't just say I'm dating someone. They're little. They'll think I'm trying to replace Catherine when that'll never be the case."
"I think you'll have more trouble with Mason than Mads. I'll help if I can."
Sara smiled, hugging her. "But don't say anything, ok? It's got to be going for a bit before... Anyway, I should get up and shower."
"Ok," Lindsay nodded, picking up one of the books to read.
The brunette went upstairs to shower and change before coming back down.
"Hey Sara," Finn smiled, walking into her office a few weeks later, "I need your help."
Sara stood up. "With?"
"That damn window in your old office keeps jamming. Any ideas?"
"I'll come take a look at it," she said, following her out.
"Thanks," she smiled, leading Sara through. "I tried getting onto the chair for leverage, but it still didn't work."
"You're trying to get it down?" she asked.
"It's so cold in here."
Sara handed Finn her jacket as she got up on the chair, pounding her fists on the top of the window, getting it down a few inches to where she wouldn't have to stand on it anymore, but going to move off, she turned wrong, sending her toward the concrete.
Finn quickly caught Sara, breaking her fall, her back hitting the ground hard. Her heart pounded as she attempted to catch her breath.
Sara wrapped an arm around her as her feet touched the floor, trying to get her breath. "Uh...thanks."
"Y-you're welcome," she managed, staring into Sara's brown orbs.
Before Sara even realized what she was doing, her lips crashed on Finn's. It was new territory, somewhat, but she knew, by now, if she didn't feel something, she wouldn't try. The kids still were her priority, but Catherine would want her to try to move on. Hell, five years was more than enough.
Stunned, Finn froze a moment before offering a soft kiss in return.
Sara blushed, pulling away. "Uh, so anyway..."
Finn tucked a piece of her blonde locks behind her ear, stepping back. "Yeah..."
Sara smiled. "Is that everything?"
"I think so."
Sara nodded. "If you need anymore help, let me know, ok?" In truth, most would apologize, but the brunette couldn't form the words. Because, as much as she didn't plan it, she wasn't sorry. It wasn't like Finn had pushed her away and told her off, but Sara had a feeling this would be much different than her previous relationship. She turned, closing the window and walking out.
Finn rested back against the wall, pressing two fingers to her lips remembering the kiss.
The brunette smirked to herself. Maybe little things would mean more right now. She sat back at her desk, going over evidence.
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