Hey peeps Lexi again (I know it's terrible but you love me really) so this is again Valith but I have an idea for a Chinduggery which will hopefully be up soon so not long China Sorrows Worshipper :) Now, advanced warning for potential language and MAJOR feels, you have been warned and I am soooo sorry in advance for this, please don't kill me.

Disclaimer:

Leo: ….

Lexi: Leo?

Leo: …

Lexi: Are you gonna talk to me?

Leo: *pouting* no

Lexi: Why?

Leo: You mean and I'm not talking to you

Lexi: Ok yeah I know its evil…sowy but the idea just came to me….forgive me?

Leo: No *walks out door*

Lexi: Ok, this is gonna take a while so I own nothing, all is Derek Landy's and I would say enjoy but the feels are just too much so again sorry but please leave a comment while I try and appease Leo.

The Love we leave behind

Valkyrie woke up looking over to her girlfriend who was still asleep, her golden hair spread around her like a halo. She decided not to wake her and she showered and got dressed, leaning over to gently kiss Tanith on the forehead and brush a stray lock of hair out her eyes before heading out the door and to the sanctuary for work. As the door shut, Tanith's eyes fluttered open and she contemplated getting up. She eventually swung her legs over the side of the bed and sat there looking at her feet while she tried to push memories of the nightmares she had again that night. She shook her head and stood up, going over to the desk, grabbing a pen and a sheet of paper taking a deep breath as she put pen to paper. I'm sorry, Val she thought to herself as she began to write.

My dear Valkyrie and all to whom this letter concerns, I am so so sorry but this is the only way.

Valkyrie walked into the sanctuary nodding to the Cleavers. She walked to her shared office smiling at Skulduggery who was sat with his feet up on the desk.

"Hey Val, how's Tanith?" he asked softly.

"She's doing better" Val responded sitting down "she still has the nightmares though".

"She did have a remnant inside her" he pointed out.

"Yeah I know" Val snapped before sighing "It's just that" she paused trying to find the words "I want to help her but she won't open up. Sometimes she'll start talking but then she'll just shut down. I don't know what to do Skul". She said exasperated.

"You just have to give her time to heal" Skul said patiently used to Val's outbursts. "It has got better since she got romantically involved with you" he said matter-of-factly as Val shot him a look saying 'really'?

"I suppose" she said, leaning back in the chair and flicking through a magazine by her chair.

Meanwhile, at the desk, Tanith was still sat at the desk writing although it was getting harder and harder to see through the tears that threatened to spill.

Val, I wish we had more time together. Before the remnant and you should know that I have loved you since I first laid eyes on you in China's library that day, you looked so lost and adorable that I couldn't help but fall in love. When I told you how I felt about you, I was so nervous that my hands were shaking and I was so shocked when you said yes and kissed me. I'm so sorry that I have been a burden on you and I'm so grateful that you put up with me but now I think it's time I stopped pretending. I appreciate that you tried to figure me out but I'm a paradox. I want to be happy but I think of all those evil things I did. I want to get better but I'm not willing to try. I say I don't care but I really do. I crave attention and help yet I reject it when it comes my way. I'm a conflicted contradiction. If I can't figure myself out, there's no way anyone can. I am so sorry for all those people I've hurt and it kills me that I did those things with Sanguine. I'm ashamed and disgusted at myself and I love you all the more that you can see past all that and just see the old Tanith. And Ghastly, his death is what haunts me the most. I can't get over his death and it's this that hurts the most. I love you Valkyrie Cain but sometimes, love just isn't enough and I am so sorry that I led you on this morbid dance of hate and self-loathing. I hope that one day you can forgive me but for now, I'll be happy with the knowledge that someone loved me, even for a short while. I'm gonna miss you Val and I don't want you to be sad, this is for the best. Do me a favour and tell Skulduggery that he's a douche but a great friend and tell him to look out for you or I'll be back! Finally, I gift you my sword as I no longer have need for it. May you use it better than I have.

When Tanith had finished, she leant back in the chair, put the pen down and then picked up her phone and sent one final text.

Val felt her phone buzz and she picked it up, looking at the text.

I'm so sorry, please forgive me-Tanith

Val frowned. Then it hit her. Oh god! She jumped up and ran out the door, followed quickly by Skulduggery who picked up on her panic. She ran back to her apartment, shouting in frustration when the key wouldn't go in. She kicked down the door and froze. She saw feet, dangling in mid-air. She raised her eyes and fell to the ground as she looked upon Tanith's face, her eyes open and unseeing. Val sat there in shock, her brain not comprehending what she saw. Skulduggery walked past Val's body and up to Tanith's. He cut the rope holding Tanith's body up and he caught the lifeless body and set her gently on the bed, her hair a halo around her head. He then spotted a piece of paper on the desk, picking it up he saw the writing and handed it to Valkyrie who was now standing over Tanith's lifeless body, tears now swimming in her eyes. She looked over the paper, reading aloud the smudged writing where Tanith had been crying. When she got to the final line, she was crying so hard that Skulduggery had to read it for her.

Thank you for all that you have done. My life was perfect when I met you but now, even love has been left behind. The remnant would have destroyed my heart if you hadn't stolen it first. I thank you once again and again I'm sorry for everything I've done. When you find my body, please burn it and scatter the ashes in London that is my only request.

Yours forever and for always,

Tanith Low

….I'm ashamed of myself….If it's any consolation, I cried while writing it. I will do a fluffy one next I promise! Well actually it's gonna be a comedic Chinduggery hopefully. Please leave a review and hope you don't hate me too much…