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Prompted by DarthLeathertush- Jason is sexually assaulted by a guy and struggles to cope
TRIGGER: this chapter deals with rape, if you feel you may be affected please don't feel like you have to read
Chapter 27- let me help you please:
Jason had had a good night at the dog, it was the first time him, Robbie and some friends were able to go out for a drink. He'd quite enjoyed it and now he just had the walk home then he could go to bed.
It was a dark night, the wind was chilly but Jason wasn't that cold. He walked down the alleyway stuffing his hands in his pockets, unaware of the an behind him. Jason kept on walking, he pulled out his phone, seeing he a message from Robbie. He opened it and smiled, it was a picture from that night. Jason saved the picture but he didn't get a chance to put his phone back in his pocket.
The man came uo behind him and put his hand over Jason's mouth. Jason froze. "Scream and I'll make this worse" the man whispered in Jason's ear. Jason tried to squirm but the man had a tight hold over his chest; before Jason knew it, he felt a pain in his leg and he was on the floor.
Jason couldn't move, he could feel this man crawling over him; he prayed that someone would walk past. Except no one did. Jason tried to scream, but he couldn't get anything out, it was like he couldn't speak at all. Jason tensed as he felt the man's hands go near his jeans hearing the zip being unzipped. This could be happening.
Fresh tears fell down Jason's face, he couldn't do anything and he squeezed his eyes shut, hoping it would be over soon. However for Jason it felt like hours before the man stopped, except he was still leaning over Jason. "If you breath a word of this to anyone, I will find you and I will do much worse" the man threatened before he left Jason.
Jason lay there, his body shaking in fear. Had that just happened? He felt fresh tears in his eyes and his jeans that were still open. He still couldn't move, frozen with fear. He just wanted to get home but his body wouldn't move. Jason thought he'd end up staying there all night.
Luckily for Jason he didn't, after 30 minutes of just lying on the ground in silence, Jason found the strength to get up, zip up his trousers with his shaky hands and stand up. He leaned against the wall, his legs still shaking, when he spotted his phone on the floor. He picked it up and looked, he had 2 messages from Robbie, a missed call from Robbie and a missed call from Joe.
Jason opened both the messages from Robbie, they were both asking where he was and telling him to ring Robbie. Jason wanted to ring his brother but he couldn't get the words out, he wanted to text his brother but he couldn't bring his fingers to text the words. Instead Jason just went home.
The walk home felt like a marathon for Jason, the fact he was mentally and physically exhausted didn't help either. He made it home and opened the door, the house was silent. Jason kicked his shoes off in the hall, he didn't care if they were in the way and made his way upstairs for a shower.
Jason let the hot water run down his body. All he wanted to do was wash away everything that had happened last night and forget about it. Except it wasn't going to be that easy. Jason just let the water run down him, tears rolling down his face, the realisation of what had just happened hitting him hard.
Why did he let it happen? He could have stopped it and ran away, but no he just froze and let this man rape him! What would his brother's think? They would probably just laugh at him and tease him, especially Robbie. He had to hide it, he couldn't let it show, he'd have to carry on as normal acting as if nothing had happened. How hard could that be?
Jason didn't realise how long he'd spent in the shower until Robbie knocked on the door. "Jase, what are you doing there? You've been in there for half an hour" Robbie said and Jason sighed. He wasn't ready to face his brothers knowing what had happened; he just wanted to stay in the shower where all of his problems would be washed away. However that wouldn't happen.
Jason reluctantly turned off the shower and wrapped a towel round himself. He stood facing the bathroom mirror and shook his head. It shouldn't have happened, he should have been man enough to stop it but no, he just cried. Jason didn't realise that he was scrubbing so hard with the towel that it was making his skin go red.
Jason just did it subconsciously, hoping that he would be able to wash scrub away what had happened. It wasn't working though. Jason quickly walked out of the bathroom and hurried into his room, as he shut his door, Jason heard Robbie go into the bathroom.
Jason searched around his room, his hands starting to tremble, looking for something to wear. He pulled some boxers, joggers and a t-shirt. He'd just left his other clothes in a pile in the bathroom; Robbie would have something to say about that. Jason sat down on his bed, he felt like his skin didn't fit him and he was trying so hard to still his trembling hands.
Jason picked up the boxers and slowly put them on, avoiding looking in the mirror or down at his body. He then quickly pulled the joggers over and stood up. He looked in the mirror and fresh tears brewed in his eyes. He should have stopped it. Jason quickly grabbed the t-shirt and put it on.
He felt himself squirming under the t-shirt and he had no idea why. Well he did, but he couldn't bring himself to tell anyone. Jason got into bed and sunk down into the mattress. He pulled the quilt up higher, feeling that it would protect him when it wouldn't.
Jason lay there, thinking about what he should do next. If he told anyone would they believe him? Or would they just laugh in his face. Would his brothers treat him differently and make fun of him? Jason just shook his head as tears started to roll down his face, he himself was still confused about what had happened.
That night Jason cried himself to sleep, hoping that when he woke up the next morning he would feel different and forget that it ever happened, however that wouldn't be the case.
"Come on Jase, what you still doing in bed?" Joe asked walking into Jason's room to find him still asleep. Jason slowly opened his eye to find his brother in his room. How long had he slept? Jason looked at his clock; it said 10am, Jason had slept in quite late.
"Right we're going off to the garage, you can come and join us in a bit" Joe said, clapping his hands as he did. Jason flinched at this and Joe noticed. He decided to keep quiet and just assume it was because Jason was tired. "I'll see you later" Joe said, walking out of Jason's room making a mental note to keep an eye on his youngest brother.
Jason just there, he didn't feel right, the feelings of disgust were still there; he needed a shower. Jason forced himself to get out of bed and made his way to the bathroom. He got the shower ready then when he was ready he got in.
Jason let the cool water run down his body, he just wanted everything to go away. He looked around the bathroom and realised that his clothes from last night were gone, meaning someone must have put them in the wash. Jason felt sick, his stomach was in knots and the shower that he thought would help, wasn't helping.
Jason quickly got out the shower and dried himself off then went downstairs. He was expecting to see someone downstairs but then he remembered they were all at the garage. Jason didn't like what he was feeling; he was feeling alone, scared and pathetic. He didn't like it, he felt like something bad was going to happen. His hands were shaking and his palms were sweating. Why!
Jason looked around the kitchen, deciding he didn't want anything to eat, his stomach was in knots and quite frankly he didn't deserve it. Jason leaned the counter and breathed heavily. Did last night really happen? He felt asking phone buzz in his pocket and Jason pulled it out revealing a message from Joe asking where he was. Jason wanted to reply, he really did but just couldn't.
He wanted the company of his brothers but then he didn't. He wanted to be alone but then he was so scared to be alone. Jason decided that he had to go to the garage; he had to carry on as normal.
"Here he is" Ziggy said as Jason slowly walked into the garage. "Where did you get to last night?" Robbie asked. "Nowhere" Jason replied as he sat down and wrapped his arms around his stomach. The brothers just gave each other confused looks. "Right well this one's done" Freddie said, referring to the car he was working on. However none of the brothers were paying attention to Freddie, they were all looking at Jason.
Jason sat down in the garage and wrapped his arms around his stomach. He felt sick, he was sweating and his legs were shaking. Why? Jason felt his chest become tight and then it happened. Jason could feel the man's hand over his mouth, he couldn't breath, he couldn't scream for help.
The brothers watched on as Jason struggled to breath. He looked petrified. "Jase, you alright?" Robbie asked as he leaned down and went to reach for his twin brother but moved away when Jason flinched.
Jason could feel his hands down his body. He felt disgusting, he was going to be sick. He felt someone reach out for his knee. The man was back, he was back! Jason had no idea what was going on around him, he didn't know that he was actually in the garage and all of his brothers were watching. Jason was having a flashback.
"Jase, just calm down" Joe said. He crouched down in front of Jason; he had no idea what was going on. Joe watched as Jason's whole body started to shake. His eyes were wide with fear, tears rolling down his face and he was sweating.
Joe decided that Jason was going to hurt himself if he carried on. Joe took a deep breath, he knew that what he was about to do could go two ways. Jason could either calm down or he would freak out, still it was worth a try.
"Jase, it's alright" Joe said as he stood up and embraced Jason in a hug. The other brothers watched as Jason tensed in Joe's grip, he was struggling and trying to get away. Joe keep his hold on Jason and whispered words of reassurance in his ear. Joe had no clue what was going on, he just wanted Jason to calm down and then maybe they could find out.
Robbie watched Jason and his heart broke. Something had happened to Jason but he didn't know what. Jason was sensitive and whatever had happened had really affected him. Robbie just wanted to hold his twin, tell him everything was alright, he didn't know what was actually happening.
10 minute later Jason seemed to come back to reality. He was still being held in Joe's arms. He knew what had happened and he was ashamed, he'd just freaked out completely in front of them. How stupid was he.
However Jason wasn't complaining that he was in Joe's arms. No he felt safe, weirdly, but he knew he shouldn't. Joe's grip was strong, like the man's last night. The man he should have stopped, the man who just put his hands all over him and Jason did nothing. Jason shivered.
"Jase, you alright mate?" Joe asked, he was worried for Jason, really worried. The boy shivered in his arms which just made Joe question what had happened last night. Jason never flinched away from Joe, never, unless Joe was angry, like really angry. What was going on?
Robbie crouched down again, hoping to try and speak to his brother. "Jase, what's going on?" Robbie asked and he didn't miss the way Jason tensed at his question. Jason still had tears rolling down his face; Robbie's heart broke at the sight.
"It's alright mate, we ain't gonna hurt ya, we just wanna know why you're so upset" Ziggy explained. He'd just sat back watched the whole incident take place and now he was worried about Jason; he wanted to help.
Freddie watched on as Joe rubbed his hand up and down Jason's arm, trying to sooth the distressed boy. Freddie knew someone had done something to his little brother, he could tell, all of the brothers could tell. However, they were too afraid to ask as none of them knew what the answer was.
"Why don't we get you home" Joe suggested, he just wanted to get Jason home so they could find what was going on. Jason didn't say or do anything. "Yeah Jase, why don't me, you and Joe go home" Robbie suggested, hoping he could get a reaction from Jason. Jason nodded to which Robbie sighed with relief.
"Could you two finish off here and then come home?" Joe asked Freddie and Ziggy who both just nodded. "Let's get you home then" Joe said as he helped an unsteady Jason to his feet. Robbie put his arm around Jason and the two brothers helped him home, both noticing how Jason tensed at their touch.
"What do you think is wrong with him?" Ziggy asked Freddie as the other three Roscoes left. Freddie shrugged. "I don't know, but I hope we find out."
"There we go" Joe said as he helped Jason sit down on the sofa, while Robbie sat down next to him. "Do you want something to eat, Jase?" Joe asked, noticing Jason looked pale but maybe that was just from before.
Jason shook his head, he didn't deserve food. He was already weak, he didn't need food to make him worse. Plus Jason still felt sick, his stomach was like a giant knot that no matter how many times you tired to undo it, it wouldn't budge. "Alright then"Joe said before walking off to the kitchen and giving Robbie a look that said talk to Jason.
"Do you wanna watch tv?" Robbie asked as him and Jason sat in silence. Robbie noticed that Jason was shaking, his legs in particular. He was worried, he could feel that Jason was hiding something, it was a twin thing. If only Robbie knew what Jason was hiding.
The next few days we're weird and worrying for the Roscoes. Jason had gotten worse; he didn't speak unless it was to shout at someone, he didn't want to eat and he couldn't make up his mind about whether he wanted to be alone or not.
Joe had noticed that Jason always seemed on edge. He flinched whenever a door slammed or when one of the brothers raised their voice while watching the football. Jason just wasn't Jason. Joe had tried to talk to him but he'd just hit a brick wall.
Freddie had known something was up with Jason right from the start. From the incident in the garage, Freddie had known Jason was having some sort of flashback. But a flashback from what? That wasn't the first flashback either, Jason had at least one each day followed by some sort of nightmare.
Ziggy wasn't that good at recognising when someone was feeling uncomfortable, however when that person was Jason, he knew straight away. Ziggy wasn't into that touchy feely stuff, he much more preferred to talk. Jason on the other hand, didn't want to talk; Ziggy had learnt that the hard way.
Only yesterday he went to talk to Jason in his room; it didn't end well. He'd tried to work out what had happened by telling Jason it was okay to talk and that whatever it was, the brothers wouldn't be angry. Now normally for Jason that worked, this time it didn't. Instead Jason had screamed at Ziggy, telling him he had no idea what he was talking about and told him to leave alone; Ziggy did as he was told.
Robbie could feel that something was wrong, he could feel it and he just wished that he could see. Most mornings Robbie would wake up at 3am to find his twin midway through a nightmare. It scared Robbie that he had to hold his screaming and crying brother. One night it got too much for Robbie and Joe had to come and help, but still they didn't know what had happened to Jason. However that all changed on the morning of the fourth day.
Robbie woke up to the sound of whimpering, he knew it was Jason. He hopped down from his bunk and he was right; Jason was crying his sleep, he was clutching the quilt like a lifeline and he was muttering to himself, Robbie looked at the clock, yep 3:30am.
"No, no, no, please!" Jason cried out, rolling around in his sleep. "Please!" Robbie ran a hand through his messy hair and sighed. This was the fourth time this had happened. Robbie was exhausted, he knew he couldn't blame Jason, it's just Robbie needed to know what had happened to Jason.
"Get off!" Jason screamed in his sleep but he still didn't wake up, he just thrashed around more in his bed. Robbie knew what he had to do. "Jase, Jason it's alright" Robbie said as he managed to get onto his twin brother's bed and wrap his arms around Jason.
Jason continued to cry and scream and thrash in Robbie's hold, all while Robbie was saying words off reassurance to him. "Jase, you need to wake up, I promise everything's gonna be alright" Robbie said, his hold on Jason was starting to weaken and he was praying that Joe would walk in. Luckily for Robbie he did.
The screaming had woke Joe up and he sighed. Jason needed to tell them what had happened. Joe got up from his bed and walked towards the twin's room his heart set on what was really going on with Jason.
"Robbie, you go wait for me downstairs" Joe said as he walked into the room, beckoning for Robbie to stand up. Robbie sighed and untangled himself from Jason knowing that Joe should at least try to calm him down. As Robbie left the room was still crying out in his sleep, although he didn't miss the way it looked Jason was trying to pish someone away from him.
"Jase, it's alright" Joe soothed as he took Robbie's position on the bed. Joe was physically bigger and stronger than Robbie so he was able to get a better grip on Jason. "Jase you need to wake up so we can sort this all out" Joe said as he said this, Jason started to calm down.
Joe let out a breath he didn't know he was holding when Jason started to calm down and he ran his fingers through Jason's sweaty hair. "Don't let him hurt me" Jason whined in his sleep. Joe sighed, he was angry and upset, now someone had definitely hurt his little brother.
"No one's gonna you I promise" Joe said as he ran his fingers through Jason's hair, praying that he would wake up. Much to Joe's relief, Jason did.
Jason opened his eyes and felt the sweat on his face or maybe it was tears. He felt someone's strong grip on him and he tensed, until he realised it was Joe. "You're alright" Joe said as he felt Jason tense in his arms. Joe looked at the clock and it said 4am; none of them were going to go back to sleep now. "Robbie's waiting for us downstairs, why don't we go and join him" Joe said he stood up from the bed looking down at Jason. When Jason didn't move, Joe could see he was exhausted, Joe did what any good big brother would do and picked Jason up and carried him downstairs.
Robbie sat nervously on the sofa waiting for his brother to come down. He heard footsteps on the stairs and immediately jumped to his feet. Only seconds later Joe walked into the living room carrying a sweaty and exhausted Jason. Joe nodded for Robbie to sit down on the sofa and he sat Jason down next to him.
As soon as Jason sat down he started to shake again. He was going to have to tell them, but he couldn't. What would they say? What would they think? Would they treat him differently afterwards? Jason just concentrated on breathing, he felt Robbie put his arm around him but Jason just concentrated on breathing.
Joe sat down on the coffee table in front of Jason and Robbie; he knew this was it. Something had definitely happened to Jason and Joe had a horrible feeling that someone had raped his little brother.
"Look Jase, if I'm right then I know this isn't going to be easy to talk about" Joe said. Jason frowned, what did Joe think he knew? "Jason, what happened to you four nights ago?" Joe asked and he held his breath as he waited for an answer.
Jason froze, his whole body tensed up. They knew? Well they knew something had happened at least. Could he tell them? Should he tell them? What would the man do? Jason didn't even want to think about what the answer would be to that question.
Jason's breathing started to quicken and Robbie and Joe both noticed. Robbie rubbed his hand up and down Jason's arm, while Joe placed his hand on Jason's shaky knee. Both brothers offering silent encouragement.
Jason sighed and felt fresh tears form in his eyes. He turned his head away from his two brothers and let the tears fall down his face. "H-He... He r-raped m-m-me" Jason said in barely a whisper as he felt his whole body rack with sobs.
Robbie and Joe both looked at each other, despite Jason whispering they heard him perfectly. Someone had raped their little brother. Before Robbie could react, Joe butted in. "Robbie can you go and get Freddie and Ziggy to come down" Joe instructed. "But they'll be asleep" Robbie said. "Just go" Joe said calmly.
5 minutes later Robbie came back downstairs with a very tired looking Ziggy and a confused Freddie. They all walked into the living room where Joe was with Jason and both of the brothers saw the state Jason was in. "You alright mate?" Freddie asked.
"Look it turns out Jason was raped by someone four nights ago" Joe said, just want to get it clear to the other boys. "He was what?" Freddie asked, not quite believing that his suspicions had been true. "No way" Ziggy said in utter disbelief.
All of the Roscoes sat down in the living room as Joe explained what they were going to do. "Later on we're gonna go to police and get this scumbag locked away, okay?" Joe said, looking at his brothers, all of them nodded except Jason who was looking at the floor. Joe put his fingers under Jason's chin and lifted his head so he could look into his eyes. "I promise you, we're gonna sort this. No-one hurts the Roscoes and gets away with it."
Wow, this took a while to write. Thank you for reading, feel free to review and let me know what you think and if you have any prompts I'd love to hear them :)
Also if anyone has watched Hollyoaks on e4 this week, Friday's episode broke my heart, can't believe robbie and Jason left :(
Next chapter prompted by Jason Fan- Jason is struggling to cope and in an attempt to avoid relapsing back into his eating disorder ends up self-harming instead. Robbie finds out and all the brothers band together to help him through it