Caroline stood next to the table, a glass of bourbon hanging from her hand. Her eyes following Stefan and the girl in his hand as they moved with music.
Caroline used to enjoy parties, enjoyed walking in her dress like a princess. But, here she was in the Lockwood mansion, looking stunning in her black dress as her hair plays softly on her shoulders, Surrounded by people dancing and laughing. She can see her friends walking around, Elena and Damon dancing, Bonnie and Jeremy laughing as they lean by the wall, even Tyler had a date.
Last time she saw him was a few minutes ago when he took the girl up stairs. But yet, nothing really mattered as the scene of Stefan, dancing with this girl who came out from the middle of nowhere telling stories about how they met back when Stefan left them.
Just the scene of them dancing made Caroline's stomach twist; watching them swaying with the music, her hands on his shoulder, his hands around her waist. She couldn't help it but drain another glass of bourbon as she turned around and gave them her back.
"Are you okay?" Matt asked calmly as he stood next to her. She turned to him in shot as she felt uncomfortable with him being there in the middle of her thoughts, bitter thoughts. "You know? Bonnie asked me the same thing. I don't get it! I'm fine."She replied as she rolled her eyes, her voice almost normal as she tried not to look drunk.
"Well, you're sitting alone, and drinking a lot." He said as he motioned to the glass of bourbon.
"I'm doing well." She gave him a nod with a small smile, "I just don't want to interrupt the couples' reunion." She said as she pointed with her hand exactly where Stefan and the girl were dancing, without turning around. "Is this because of Tyler?" Matt asked as he titled his head.
"No, no it's totally okay. I mean I was impressed by how fast he is. But, I don't really care." She waved her hand at him as she really didn't think about it; she was busy with watching her best friend instead of her ex boyfriend.
"Hey." Stefan's voice knocked her from the back. She didn't turn around; instead she squeezed her eyes shot as she held the glass tighter, biting her lips. Stefan being around her wasn't a good idea, not right now. He was dancing with a girl that he never mentioned and she was drunk enough to spell the wrong words.
Matt and Stefan shared a look both furrowing their eyebrows as she didn't move or talk.
"Okaaay! I'll go to see Jer." Matt said as he pated Stefan's shoulder and left. Stefan walked closer to the table as he leaned his elbow on it. "Are you okay?" he asked as he tried to reach her eyes.
"I'm fine. Why everyone is asking me this?" she almost shouted as she rolled her eyes, looking at the glass in her hands.
He didn't reply. He just looked down at her, challenging her to look at him, if she can really lie when she's looking to him in the eye. And somehow, she understands what he's doing, and no she isn't going to look at him. It's already difficult to lie when she's just next to him. And damn it if he can read her without even trying.
They remain in silent for seconds, and she can't stand him looking at her in this way. She needs to say something; she needs to turn the roles. She needs to say something.
"I was right you know." She says in whisper, still not looking at him and focusing on her glass. He only furrows, waiting for her to continue and she did, "I told you will move on, and here you are, all moved on." She almost scoffed as she laughed under her breath, trying not to look dramatic.
He didn't say anything. She did it, she made him speechless. Many words were on his mind. But, none of them would be helping. For a second in there he didn't understand her. Thou he did, he knew where this was coming from. But, he didn't really believe it. She isn't jealous, is she? He thinks. But everything he sees makes him feel so.
Because while Caroline was looking at them dancing, her eyes wasn't at the right place, and maybe because she was so drunk she couldn't notice him looking at her, not even from the corner of his eyes. He was completely staring at her, wondering where her mind was while she was looking at his hands around the girl's waist.
And her she was, standing next to him, her hands holding each other nervously, her eyes avoiding him. She stops her lips immediately from trembling by biting her lower lip as she shakes her foot suddenly in nervous; because now, she can't hold it together.
"You fell madly in love." She finally looks up at him and she hates it, how her voice gets shaken in the end, how suddenly she can't feel her knees, how the tears forming in her eyes make it difficult for her to see him.
Stefan opened his mouth to reply. But, there were no words out. Right in this moment, all the memories came in a rush; he remembered her words at the prom, how they gazed at each other while they were dancing. He remembered the many times she has been on his side, defending him, how she was always looking at him with admire in her eyes. He even remembered Lexi's words and it all shock him that he froze for a minute.
"I'm sorry, I think I got drunk." She says quickly as she breaks the eye contact with him, right before he could see full through her. She leaves the glass and turn around to walk, "I should leave." She says as she looks at the ground, moving away from him.
She succeeds to get out of the mansion as she vamps run. But, he's already holding her wrist. She stops in her place without turning around.
"Caroline." He whispers softly and she closes her eyes, feeling that she had just been exposed. Her feelings came to the surface and in this moment there was no coming back. She imagined what would happen next. In a second she saw him refusing her, she saw herself crying alone at the corner of her room. Thank god that he didn't give her a chance to continue with her thoughts as he grabbed her wrist tighter and made her turn at him.
"Caroline." He says again, and this time it makes her heart ache. The way her name slips out of his lips. She heard him saying it many times. But now, it was different. She is facing him. But, her eyes are closed, her chest is shaking. Her eyelash getting wet as the tears threaten to fall.
"Hey." His voice is still a whisper as he cups her face with his hand. He rubs her cheek as he gets ready to the tears that start falling just by his touch.
"I-I just… I can't." She shakes her head as the tears stream faster from her closed eyes.
He moves her hands down to her shoulder; he rubs them slowly then continues his way to her hands. He squeezes them as he whispers, "It's okay. It's okay."
"No. it's not." She says as she keeps shaking her head, "You moved on. You… you moved on. And I know that it makes no sense; I should be happy for you, you're my best friend." She pauses as she sobs nervously.
"Caroline, talk to me." He says as he gets closer to her. He knows what he wants to hear. He just realized everything and he wanted to hear it from her; just to make sure he wasn't hallucinating.
She takes a deep breath and she stops shaking only for a second, "You left, Stefan. No words. You just left. And I waited and waited." The words were coming out faster and faster, it was difficult to understand what she was saying. But, he managed to.
"And I know that it's stupid, thinking that we were something. But I couldn't help it. I just- and then you come up with- and she is not even- I mean she is not your type and you know each other for what? Three months?" the words don't make sense, she is talking fast, not completing he sentences. But, among all of her words, it's only one thing that matters to him.
"You thought we were something?" he asks in a whisper as his eyebrows get furrowed. She widened her eyes at the ground and pulled her hands from his grip to her forehead. She closed her eyes and tried to breath. She inhale slowly and talks in a weak tone, "I'm being stupid." She says and a tear slips on her cheek.
He wiped the tear away and looked at her instantly. "Yes you are." He says and she purses her lips to stop the sob that's coming.
"You're stupid because you've been hiding it all this time." He continues as his eyebrows hiked, "And I've been more stupid because I never noticed." His lips curved in a smile at her reaction; her eyes opened in surprise and her lips trying to find a word. She can't do anything but sigh.
suddenly he pulled her to his chest, he pulled her quickly and strongly that it hit his chest. He didn't even think about it, he just felt it was right. He wrapped his hands around her and smelled her scent in. she didn't stop crying, actually she cried harder and as usual he understands her, he knows what she was going through so he hugged her tighter and rubbed her shoulder.
For the last months, he'd been completely stupid, blind. The things that were okay for him became more by now. Every touch, every word and every smile means a lot of things now as he holds her in his arms. It's funny how a few days ago he saw nothing but his best friend and now, he feels her as a completely new person but somehow, a person he knows for a long time.
