When you lose your way and the fight is gone

Your heart starts to break and you need someone around now

Just close your eyes for a while

I'll put my arms above you and make you unbreakable

It was a late hour, and it was already raining. It's when Stefan decided he should take some rest, and then he would continue looking for Caroline. Or maybe he thought he would find her in that dinner, after all, she always ended up there, that's what Alaric had said.

He walked in, hands in his pocket, his eyes scanning the place for her, but she wasn't there.

He tried not to look so disappointed. He sat down, and then the waitress made her way to him. "Mr. Stefan, your friend left you this." She said with a smile then walked away.

Stefan pulled his hands quickly out of his pocket; he opened the letter and started reading it quickly. So she was here, he was so close. After three days of looking for her, this might be the closest he had got to her.

Dear Stefan,

Dear, such a lame word, huh? I'm trying to find a way to write this down, but I can't. I guess I'll just say it all, it's not like I'll regret it.

It's hard Stefan, everything is just not the same anymore; first I lost my home, then Bonnie, then you, and now mom. I guess I never saw it before, but she was the only thing keeping me going. Whenever I fell down, I had to get up for her. She was always there for me. And now she is just gone, forever.

I thought I can be strong, I thought that I'll move on, find a way to continue my life; I always did, when I lost my dad, or Tyler, even you.

But it turns out that I never really did, I kept hiding it, pretended that it's nothing, I kept ignoring the pain. That it's just exploded.

For the last two days, I had thought of turning it off for million times, I was so close, but whenever I close my eyes, and try to turn the switch, I see you. I see you disappointed, I see you trying to gather the broken pieces. And I don't want that.

I refuse to change, I refuse to lose myself. But I'm scared that one day I'll stop fighting and just turn it off. So if I'm going to die, I want to die as me, as Caroline Forbes, the one who didn't change.

By the moment you're reading this, I'll be inside Mystic Falls, along with my mom.

I'm sorry Stefan, I'm sorry for ruining our friendship, I'm sorry that I ever felt something for you. And please, don't feel sad for me or because of me, there will be no more pain. And at last, I want you to do me a favor, whenever you think of me; I want you to remember Caroline Forbes, your best friend, your sponsor sober coach, not the Caroline who had feelings for you behind the scenes.

I'm sorry Stefan, Goodbye.

He was frozen in his place, his head trying to understand what that was. However, he managed to get up and walk out of the door. He wanted to ask the girl when Caroline left this message. But it didn't matter; all what mattered was getting to her quickly.

He finally was back to himself, he found himself already outside, and he couldn't tell how he walked out.

"Caroline." He whispered as he finally took over himself again, then he was running with vamp speed to the borders.

She stands in the rain just to hide it all

If you ever turn around, I won't let you fall down

I swear I'll find your smile

I'll put my arms above you and make you unbreakable

She was standing in front of the borders, the rain has already ruined her hair and clothes. Her eyes were clearly dried of tears. She looked at this town, her home. Her memories are there, her mom is there.

She convinced herself it was the right thing. She has seen how being emotionless went with Elena and Stefan. She could see herself killing people and losing herself, she could see her friends scared because they can't recognize her anymore, she could see Stefan disappointed. She would be much happier if they remember her as the same Caroline she always used to be.

She looked back at the road. No one was there. He won't come, she thought.

She smiled a broken smile before she looked back to the borders; she closed her eyes and took a deep breath. Then she took the one only step separating from her end, her mom, the pain would end, she would be fine.

She opened her eyes suddenly, she reached her hand to her through, she tried to breath, to scream, but there was no end. She took one more step in, and then she fell down. She screamed louder, tears falling from her eyes. She looked up to the sky, fighting to breath. She smiled; it will end, she thought.

She felt weaker, she couldn't fight, so she closed her eyes; it felt like the end. But then she felt someone's hand on her waist and pulling her out. In a second she found herself out of the borders, seeking for air. Her hands were holding tight to him. Him? Who was him?

She looked up to meet Stefan's eyes. She was more shocked from his face; his eyes were full of tears, red. His mouth was trembling. He was worried, because of her.

She opened her mouth to talk, say sorry, probably. But instead she just burst into tears, she sobbed and screamed, her hands hitting him hard.

He pulled her closer. His jaw tightened; it was his fault. He was really mad at himself, if he was late one more second he would've lost her forever. The thought of losing her made him hold her even harder, so hard that it would hurt if she wasn't a vampire. And she kept crying, tears falling to his chest.

They sat like that for an hour. He wished that the rain would take her pain, but he knew that it was his job. She stopped sobbing after a while, tears falling silently. For the first time in a long while, she could feel peace as he held her in his lap. She stopped hitting him, but his grip stayed tight. There was no letting go. He would help her, not because he owed her, because losing Caroline Forbes from the world was a nightmare.