I made it to the bar. Once I got there I promptly got sick in the bushes. I wasn't old enough to go in.

"hey are you ok?" a girl w/ long straight hair asked.

"i uh yeah just not feeling well," I replied.

"oh," she approached me: "well here are a few shooters for ya hon I hope you feel better. I'll leave them by the bushes. Come and have a drink w/ us."

"can't not legal."

"oh well...ok."

"thank you though."

"you're welcome."

she and her friends went inside.

Alcohol was how i'd ended up here in the first place. In my situation. I felt sick and confused and lost and cold. I didn't vividly remember getting to the bar. It was warm so maybe that'd help.

I made my way to it but on my way to it I fell. Right in the pathway of the doorway. I felt embarassed and bad for the people whose way I was in.

"hey are you ok?" a familiar male voice asked.

I smelled the cold night air and smoke. I think I knew who it was. I think it was the guy i'd met that day. Yesterday. Whenever it had been.

I slowly pulled myself to a standing position and moved out of the way.

"i am so sorry," I apologised to the people going into the bar.

"it's ok. I'm more worried about you than us. Looks like you had a few too many. Be careful ok?" an older guy told me looking at me.

"thank you," I said.

"and it's happened to all of us, so."

he and his friends went into the bar.

"i was going to get a drink but I can stay here and wait," the smoker guy asked.

"omygod i'm so embarassed," I said.

"it's ok. Nothing I mean. Nothing showed that shouldn't've."

"wow people at this bar are nice," I looked at him: "um...you're the guy I met. Fuk you're...i want to say Matt cause you look like a Matt."

"no evan actually."

"oh."

"lila, I remember you."

"yeah that's right."

"damn you look cold. These yours?" he asked indicating the shooters.

"yeah I just got them some girl gave them to me. She's in the bar."

"ok well I think it's ok if you go in and get warmed up. Just don't order any drinks although you know that and don't um. Take anything offered to you. I'll put these somewhere. Else."

"ok."

we walked into the bar together. I sat by the entrance w/ a blonde waitress.

"i'm kaitlin btw. I'll stay w/ you until he comes back," she told me.

"ok. I'm lila."

it was warmer in the bar then it had been outside.