Hey everyone! This one is short, so I'm posting it a little early. But don't worry! I'll have a longer one up in a few days.

I wasn't supposed to know, but the people at Langley were horrible gossips. Honestly, it was worse than Gallagher.

Apparently, Matt had missed a meeting with a cutout. A three-man team had just been sent to look for him, officially. Joe had been looking for him for almost a week, unofficially.

According to Dave, he had missed a meeting with a cutout a week ago, and had not made contact over the phone, through a dead drop, or any backwater message system that he had set up with anyone.

He wasn't even on an authorized mission. According to Christine, the Deputy Director knew he was going to leave, but there's no documentation saying where he should be or where he had been. According to Abby, Matt was supposed to be in Rome, but there was also a chance he might be in Athens.

This is the longest Matt has ever been silent.

I wanted to get on the nearest plane to Rome and track him down. Joe and the Agency's best might be good, but I'm one of the Agency's best too. Who was better suited to finding Matt than me?

But that technically violates Agency policy. I wouldn't really care, if it weren't for Cammie.

I think Cammie knew something was wrong before I did. She's been so subdued since Matt left. She always worries when one of us is gone, but this has been different from the start. Every day, she's come home from school, done her homework, practiced some encryption, practiced her karate or gymnastics, and that's it. She hasn't asked to go to the park, to the mall, to a museum, to a friend's house. Her eyes are flat. She hasn't smiled, she hasn't laughed, she hasn't rolled her eyes, she hasn't said anything sarcastic.

For her sake, I hope that whatever she's feeling is the product of her imagination. As her mother, I just want her to be protected from every sort of heartbreak, forever. I can't imagine—

I can't imagine how upset she would be. How devastated.

It's painful, but I'll keep worrying about Cam, because that's the only thing that can distract me from worrying about what I'm going to do.

I'm not going to do anything else.