Surprise Baby Girl-Ch 5
Penelope pulled away and said, "I can't do this" and walked across the room and out the door into the back yard, Derek grabbed the monitor and quickly followed his baby girl out into the back yard. He walked closer to her and said, "I'm so sorry that I messed everything up", she said, "yeah me to", he said, "is there anything I can do to make it up to you"?, she said, "I I I just need some time, can you give me that"?, he said, "I can but under one condition".
She looked at him and said, "what is that condition"?, he said, "that you don't push me away, that you give me, give us a shot, I want to show you that I am the man that you can trust with your heart". Penelope wiped away a tear and said, "I can try", he reached over and gently took her by the hand and said, "I'll take it", she weakly smiled as he intertwined their fingers and sighed deeply.
When they headed back inside she said, "I think I'm gonna turn in", he said, "I was hoping that we could talk", she said, "not tonight, I'm exhausted, can we do it tomorrow"?, he nodded his head and said, "yeah sure". As she started up the stairs she blew out a deep breath and turned around and walked back to the couch and said,
"alright let's talk".
He grinned as he joined he and said, "thank you", she said, "so what do you want to talk about"?, he said, "you, me, us", she said, "us, there is no us", he said,
"but their will be if you give me another chance". Penelope said, "Derek I", he said, "please don't give up on us", she said, "I gave up on their ever being an us when you married Savannah".
He looked down at the floor and said, "that was the biggest mistake I've ever made", she said, "you were, are in love with her and she was pregant with your child,
your handsome little boy". Derek said, "I don't regret Hank, not for a minute", she said, "of course yo don't and I wouldn't want you to", he said, "but I regret marrying Savannah and definitley quitting the BAU and moving away".
Penelope crossed her legs and listened as he said, "the day we left broke my heart, I never wanted to leave you and if I had it to do over again I never ever would have left you". She bit down on her lip and said, "Derek I don't know what you want me to say", he said, "I want you to say that you love me and that you want us to be together".
She said, "I don't know if I can say that", he said, "so you don't love me anymore"?, she said, "that's not fair, you know I still love you, I'll always love you",
he said, "but me leaving changed that love didn't it"?, she nodded her head and said, "it did". He intertwined their fingers and brought her hand to his chest and said, "you are the woman that I want to spend the rest of my life with, the woman I want to help me raise my son and with any luck one day we can get married and have little babies of our own".
Her mouth flew open and she said, "y y you're still married to Savannah", he said, "I brought the divorce papers with me and I'm going to sign them so that I can get everything started". Derek caressed her cheek and said, "I know this is a lot to take in", she nodded her head and said, "it is", he said, "but I need to know that I still stand a chance with you".
She listened as he said, "I've been in love with you since the day I called you by the wrong name and then when you got shot I was so afraid that I'd lost you and then you got with Kevin and yo seemed happy so I stayed in the shadows so to speak". She said, "I wasn't always with Kevin", he said, "I know, I know", she said, "I waited and waited and hoped and hoped and then one day bam there was Savannah".
Derek said, "I'm sorry", she said, "everything with the two of you happened so fast, you were dating and then you moved in together and then you find out that she's pregnant and you get married". He said, "I know but", she said, "no it's my turn to talk now", he held up his hands as she said, "and then the day that broke my heart into a million pieces, the day you left".
She said, "you don't know what it did to me the day you left", he said, "but I do", she said, "but you went anyway, you went and took the other part of my heart with you". He said, "I never ever meant to hurt you", she said, "that might be but you did, you shattered my heart and I don't know if it will ever heal back to the way it was before you left".
Derek said, "I'm going to do everything I can to make you see that I love you and only you and that I'm not going anywhere", she took a deep breath and looked down at the floor. He took his finger and put it under her chin and slowly raised it up and said, "I want you to believe me", she said, "I I I want to but I'm afraid that I'll be hurt again".
Derek opened his mouth to tell her that wasn't going to happen that he wasn't going to hurt her again and there was a knock at the door, he said, "I wonder who that could be". She watched as he walked across the room and to the door and when she saw who was standing on the other side of the door, any hopes she had of her heart mending shattered even more as she heard Derek say, "Savannah what are you doing here".