The fire.

There is just something about the fire.

Sometimes I find her sitting in front of one of the fireplaces, the most secluded one she can find, burning the newspapers filled with speculation about her and Yamatai.

I can understand the satisfaction, I cannot understand the fascination.

She just sits there, staring, for hours on end, even if there are just smoking ashes left.

Maybe the fire makes her forget, I realize one day when I find her there again, and then nausea swirls in my stomach.

Or maybe, maybe it makes her remember.