Disclaimer: I don't own any of this-I don't even own the song used in this chapter, Passenger owns the song while The CW and LJ Smith owns The Vampire Diaries and The Originals
Chapter 11
Klaus was filled to the brim with self loathing as he saw Caroline dancing in Marcel's arms. She was radiant, lethal and filled with hope. His anger at them was on par with his self loathing and knew that he lost her.
Going back to the bar, he saw Elijah there, drinking and knew that he was thinking of Elena.
He didn't care though as he was all wrapped up in his own turmoil that he didn't see his big brother leave or his little one enter.
Elijah wasn't sure where he was going anymore as everything came to a head.
Kol wasn't dead, just in hiding to stop them from going after the cure and it wasn't Elena who had tried to kill him but Katerina…
All those threats that he made to Jeremy now felt bitter in his mouth-first, threatening to kill his sister and then him to avenge a brother who wasn't even dead and then trying to kill the Hunter himself.
He had royally fucked everything up.
Mother didn't make us monsters, we did that ourselves
That played on a loop in his head continuously as he sat at the bar at Rousseau's before paying Cami with a fifty dollar bill and left, just mingling around when he saw her walk out of Marie Laveau's House of Voodoo with some guy.
He wanted to talk to her, say that he was sorry but he knew that she would never believe him and why should she?
So instead, he watched her leave the shop and surprisingly, she made her way towards him.
"We really need to stop meeting up like this." She told him with a darkness to her voice and he was filled with shame at causing her to be this way. "It's annoying."
"I just…wanted to talk." He got out softly. She raised an eyebrow at him.
"Start talking." She demanded as she tapped her foot on the ground in her annoyance.
"I can say sorry all I want but you won't believe me," he began. "But Elena-I truly am sorry for everything. All I want is your forgiveness."
She snorted. "Too damn bad. You missed your chance." She snarled. Walking back towards the shop, he couldn't help himself.
"This isn't you Elena!" She stopped and turned to look at him, hatred in her eyes.
"You're right-this isn't me. But you know what else? I'll never be her! So let her go!" she managed to keep her voice low but he heard her nonetheless.
"Just tell me what to do to make this right between us. Please, I'm begging you."
She shook her head and her low voice was a snarl. "Leave me alone. I don't want to talk to you, I don't want to see you and I sure as hell don't want to hear what you have to say."
He shook his head. "You're lying." She laughed in a way that took him back five hundred years ago.
Katerina's laugh from when she was human.
"I'm not lying but you're too soft and blind to notice anything like that." She cocked her head and another flashback hit him with a human Elena who was learning that he wanted to spend that one day with her.
He never told anyone but in his entire existence, that was the best day of his life.
"You don't think that I know you're lying to me? Your heart-even now-jumps."
"Stop paying so much attention to me and just go!" She had to bury the urge to yell at him. "I'm not that human girl anymore and I'll never be your precious Katerina! Do us both a favor and move on!"
As she walked away, he could hear the song 'Let her go' play and the lyrics resonated deep inside of him.
Well, you only need the light when it's burning low,
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow,
Only know you love her when you let her go.
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missing home
Only know you love her when you let her go...
And you let her go.
Staring at the bottom of your glass
Hoping one day you'll make a dream last
But dreams come slow, and they go so fast
You see her when you close your eyes
Maybe one day you'll understand why
Everything you touch surely dies
But you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missing home
Only know you love her when you let her go
Staring at the ceiling in the dark
Same old empty feeling in your heart
'Cause love comes slow, and it goes so fast
Well you see her when you fall asleep
But never to touch and never to keep
Cause you loved her too much, and you dived too deep
Well you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missing home
Only know you love her when you let her go
And you let her go ooooh ooooh oh no
And you let her go
ooooh ooooh oh no
Well you let her go
ooooh ooooh oh no
Cause you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missing home
Only know you love her when you let her go
Cause you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missing home
Only know you love her when you let her go
And you let her go
He loved her, that much was certain, but before when he'd ignore the song and everything, he would just scoff but now…
He loved her and now…now he'd have to do the most selfless thing in his entire existence.
He'd have to let her go. Closing his eyes, he shed a tear at the thought of it but he wanted her happy more than he wanted any of his previous lovers happy.
Maybe I should go back to England…that way, I won't have to walk around every corner and see her with someone… he thought as he made his way back to his house.
He should never have opened his heart up to anyone who wasn't family and now, this was the price he was paying.
Hayley betrayed them, he betrayed Elena and now, realizing that he can never have a chance with her, he was going to leave the states…for her happiness and for himself.
Besides, what man in their right mind wants to see the girl they're in love with be with someone else?
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