Title: Worth Fighting For
Author: Karina
Rating: PG
Pairing: Duo + Wu Fei
Notes: Challenge 183. Baby Series 4 #5. Takes place following The Best and the Worst.
Spoilers: None
Warnings:
Many thanks to ShenLong deb for her work betaing this set of fics.
Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Wing or the Characters from the series but the baby is mine.
Title: Worth Fighting For
"If this Solo meant so much to you, why do you say memories of him are 'the worst'?"
"He died. If I'd been faster… If I could have gotten to the medical station and stolen the vaccine faster, then I could have saved him. He was everything to us, Fei. Mother, father, brother… He was always there, lookin' after us younger kids… and then he wasn't. Because I failed him… and the others who relied on him. He always told us not to trust anyone, to rely on ourselves. When I could have shown him he could rely on me… I failed him."
"You are not the sort to waste time needlessly. Now or, I think, then. It is no doubt, cold comfort, but I believe he knew you were trying and would not blame you."
"Not much for any of us to look back on with soft and soppy reflection, and what there is, is probably best left for coffee with the insomniacs club. Fei, do you realise how long we sit around that table and not talk? Each of us just sitting there, nursing cold coffee or tea, lost in our own heads; remembering the past. Wondering how things would have turned out if we had taken different paths. If we made different choices… Honestly, Fei, we make a great group of conversationalists some nights."
Wu Fei felt a smile tug at his lips. It surprised him as he hardly felt like smiling. "Have you noticed the nights when we don't have to really speak? We just sit there, looking at each other, and we know what is being said with just a look? Or the lightest of touches. We have entire conversations that require not a single spoken word."
"Yeah." Duo's eyes softened, his mood visibly improving. "Zechs is looking better too, I think, for the contact. He doesn't look so… depressed… most nights. You know, I guess sentimentality has its proper place? Give it the right circumstances, the right setting, and it makes you end up tallying your blessings more than your curses. You just gotta not let it rule you and depress the shit out of you."
"You have rather a unique philosophy, my friend."
"Hell, yeah. Always look on the bright side. I try not to look back 'cause there ain't a great deal to look back on fondly, leastwise for me. When I do remember the good things it makes me smile. That's good. It reminds me how far I've come. I know I still have a long way to go before I get what I want, but I can see the progress."
"It enables us to see the course of our path and to correct that course if we deviate even the smallest degree."
"I've always had to work for what I wanted, Fei, and the stuff I really, really wanted was always worth the effort. You and Zechsy… Your are worth fighting for. "
End
Karina Robertson 2012