0.3 Easy
x-o- Callie -x-o
I stared at my laptop screen reading through article after article about the Murder of my Father. I was trying to understand the things I yet understood but it hasn't helped what I feel. "Callie?" I looked up and saw Mariana there with a small, worried smile on her. "Are you busy?" I smiled at her and shook my head.
"What's up, Miss Thing?" I questioned placing my laptop on my desk closed. She sat on my bed next to me and she showed me a old newsletter article. I looked up at her. "Is that your biological Mother?" I asked seeing the name Ana on it.
"I found this hidden in Mum's files of Jesus and me." Mariana admitted softly and I slowly took my time to read the article. "I want to meet her." I looked up as my eyes widen in shock.
"You want to meet a druggie?" I whispered in shock and Mariana sighed as she grabbed the article out of my hands. "Why, Mariana?"
"Because she is my biological Mother." Mariana answered simply with a shrug of her shoulders. "It's been such a long time, what if she has changed and is looking for us?"
"Does Mum know how you feel?" I asked softly and she looked down at her hands, and the article. "Were you planning on to?"
"No."
"And why?" I questioned trying to get her to look at me but she was looking down. "Are you afraid that she will say no?"
"No." Mariana answered with a sigh and finally looked at me with teary eyes. "I am afraid she will think she isn't good enough or something. I just want to meet her once just to know why she chose drugs over her own kids." I smiled softly at her putting my hand on her arm.
"Talk to Mum.." I ordered sternly but in a caring tone. "She loves you no matter what." I reassured her and she nodded. I then gave her a side hug. "I am so glad to be able to be your big sister."
"And I am so glad I have a big sister even though I hate sharing rooms sometimes." Mariana admitted and I laughed as I poked my tong at her.
"You watch it you." I ordered gently in a joking tone which made her start laughing. She got up and fixed her skirt. "Tell Mum I can't come down for dinner. I have heaps of school work to finish and I am starting to feel sick." Mariana looked at me with a questionable look.
"Is this because of Stef?" Mariana whispered softly pointing down. I nodded with a sigh as I grabbed my laptop.
"Also because I do have heaps of work to do and I am starting to get a headache." I answered back as I swing my legs onto my bed placing my laptop on my pillow and crossed my legs. "Could you get me a glass of water please and panadol?" She nodded and ran off leaving me by myself. I opened my laptop and read the articles that I have read already making sure I haven't miss any information. I remember for some time that newspapers were coming in but Mum always made sure I didn't get a hold of them because Stef was on the front page. I shook my head and heard a soft knock at the door seeing Mum there with the glass of water instead of Mariana.
"Hey baby." She greeted walking in and handing me the panadol with water. She looked over at my laptop before I could close it. She looked at me with disappointment. "You can't read these."
"Okay, Mum." I sat up higher and looked at her big brown eyes. "You took every newspaper away when I was a kid because I was just a kid but now I am older, I think I can read the articles about Stefanie."
"Those articles don't hold the truth in the situation." Mum tried to explain but I just rolled my eyes as she sighed. "If you just hear her out, I think you would understand."
"Understand?" I growled now feeling angry again and took my laptop off me placing it on table. "What is there to understand, Mum! She got a gun. She pointed it at my Dad. She pulled the trigger three times causing my Dad's death." I slowly said and stood up. "I think I understand it perfectly."
"That is what was thought at the time because that was what made sense to everybody." Mum explained softly staying calm as a cucumber. "Just let your Mama explain." I shook my head and suddenly a sharp pain was felt in my head. I walked over to where my water and panadol was, and took it.
"I really think I should just keep clear from her." I replied to her statement placing myself back on my bed. "It's for the best for everybody if you just keep her away from our family."
"I think we have talked enough. Lie down and sleep." Mum whispered as I lied down and she tucked me in. "You don't have to have dinner tonight but tomorrow and any other day, you are to come to dinner and every family meal." Mum ordered softly as she kissed my forehead. "And your Mama is staying. She has no where else to go."
"Pay for a hotel or motel." I replied with a roll of my eyes.
"No. No arguments. She is family and she is not going anywhere." And with that, she walked out dimming the lights. I sighed and turned my body to face the wall, and fell right to sleep.
x-o- Stef x-o
"Is she okay?" I asked as soon as Lena walked down the stairs and sat back down next to me.
"She is just feeling sick." Lena replied with a smile and I looked at her not convinced. "She has gone to sleep and won't have dinner." She added and I nodded feeling sadden by the thought of her avoiding me. "If this makes you feel better, I told her this will be her first and last time skipping a family meal." I nodded again.
"I wish I could just go up there and tell her the truth." I confessed sitting back into the chair with my beer that Lena had brought just for me knowing I love having a can a day. "But knowing she will just ignore or push me away.. It is impossible to do." Lena gave me a side hug.
"Have you thought more about what your lawyer said the other day?" I looked at her and sighed.
"About me fighting the court again for falsely accusing me and having to find evidence from 10 years ago to back me up?" I asked with a sad tone and got up. "It won't change how I had to spend 10 years in jail away from my little girl who needed me at the time she needed me the most."
"But the truth will be finally believed, Stef!" Lena replied standing up too and look at me with a small smile. "You will finally get justice." I shook my head.
"I told him I will think about." I replied back softly and decided to finished the beer off. "I am really tired and I am craving a good night's sleep."
"You don't want to have any dinner?" Lena questioned softly with a sad frown on her face. "I was hoping you would so the other four can adapt to you and get to know you." I sighed and nodded.
"Alright honey, just for you." I said as I kissed her which she returned. We walked into the kitchen. "What are we making?"
"I was going to order take out." Lena replied pulling out a folder full of take outs. "Once in a blue moon this happens so they will be happy campers. Here you choose one while I go to the loo." I nodded and looked through it. What will they all like.. I stroll through it and closed it in defeat. I want to get something they like. Lena walked back in and laughed. I looked up at her.
"What are you having a laugh about?" I asked and she stopped with a big smile on her face.
"Your thinking face is so adorable." She replied mocking me by doing the thinking face. I rolled my eyes at her and after having a laughing fit, she finally asked me what I wanted.
"What would the kids eat?" I asked going through the folder again.
"They love all those take outs hints why they are there in the first place." Lena replied like it was the most obvious thing. "But if I had to choose the one we have the most it would be the Gourmet Pizza Man. They adore the pizza there even though it never is healthy." I giggled and got out the take out for Gourmet Pizza Man then handed it to Lena who already grabbed her mobile. "I will call them and tell them to drop it here. I will be right back." I nodded and watched her walk out to the back yard. She was such a goddess. Her tanned, brown skin was so elegant. Her big brown curls that bounce every time she walked. Her perfect personality. I was glad she was the one who took my heart.
"Oh. Hey." Mariana greeted me as she grabbed a banana then her smile widen as she saw the take out folder out. "Mum is ordering us take out?" I nodded with a smile as she squealed. "I hope she chose Gourmet Pizza Man."
"I think that is what we chose!" I answered her making sure she knew I had a choice too. She smiled at me as she put the banana back.
"Got to leave room for that pizza." She explained and I nodded as she looked to where Lena was on the phone ordering. She then looked at me which I gave her a welcoming smile. "Can I ask you a question?" I nodded.
"Shoot."
"Is is hard to be a Mother?" She whispered softly and I gave her a questioning look trying to think why she would be asking such a question.
"Easy doesn't give you a reason to get up in the morning. Easy doesn't give you the kind of hope that doesn't go away. Easy doesn't make your heart jump. It is worth the struggle though because having a child is the best thing in the world." I replied quoting the first three sentences from one of the many soap operas I used to watch before I was sent to jail.
"But, it must be hard when your daughter doesn't want anything to do with you.." Mariana whispered with a frown and I tilted my head a little. "I mean, that is none of my business."
"No. It's okay, Mariana." I replied with a small smile. "I have a feeling that question was about something else and, not about Callie and me."
"Yeah.." Mariana trailed off looking away for a second then looked back. "Can I tell you something and can you swear you won't mention anything to my Mum.."
"I pinky promise." I put my pinky out for her to wrap her pinky around which she happily did. "Okay."
"I need to find a logical reason in why my Mother, my birth Mother chose drugs over me and my brother." She slowly whispered looking down at her hands and I sighed. "And I wondered if it was hard for her and that is why she did what she did." I looked at her with a frown.
"Maybe talking to your Mum would help you to find out that answer?" I whispered looking to the outside seeing Lena still on the phone. "Instead of overthinking and making yourself sad." She looked up.
"That is what Callie wants me to do because I told her I wanted to meet her." I nodded at that and saw Lena hanging up the phone.
"You can do it.. She loves you kids so much." I whispered as Lena walked in as soon as I finished the sentence.
"Hey you two." She greeted us with a big smile. "I ordered your favorite take out!" She smiled and nodded at Lena.
"I will be in the living room." I said as I got up and made my way to the living room. Mariana is such a nice, polite young girl. I thought I was going to be hated by everybody.. Maybe not..
I have edited chapters and added lines to when the scene changes which I will do to every other chapters I post beforehand! :D -Shaz