2.4 Honey, honey

-x-o- Stef -x-o-

I rested my head on the door and Lena stood behind me rubbing my back. "This is totally screwed up." I finally whispered as I turned around to look at Lena who looked so sadden. "I spent most of Callie's life behind bars so Mike could be protected from what he created.. I had nothing to do with his death and they all knew it!" I screamed out loud as I walked over to the step and sat on it. Lena sat next to me and I rested my head as the tears fell down my eyes. "I lost the most important person in my life.."

"You haven't lost Cal." Lena whispered softly as she rested her hand on my leg and rubbed it. "Imagine how hard it is for Callie if this is hard for you.. It will be so much worst on her." I nodded as I wiped my eyes then the front door slowly opened and Callie slowly appeared around the corner.

"Callie.." I whispered softly as I stood up quickly and she looked at me heartbroken. I tried to give her a reassuring smile as the tears ran down both of our eyes. "This is such a huge mess." I whispered and she nodded a little.

"He is alive." She finally spoke as she ran her hand through her brown locks and sighed. "He has always been alive.. And.. And-And they fucking knew!" Callie swung her hand to the door to demonstrate the police and whoever else was involved in this sick joke. "They fucking knew they were taking my mama away from me and there was zero remorse from... Him." She stated after trying to figure out how she should call her father.

"It's going to be okay." I nodded as I spoke as I tried to close the gap between us but she took a few steps back as tears fell down from her eyes faster and faster.

"How?!" She screamed as her voice broke as she looked at me. "How is this ever going to be okay?" She started to show signs of having a panic attack but I couldn't get close to her to help her. "How-How can I-I-I be okay, Mama!" She cried as her chest went up and down fast. I quickly grabbed her and brought her crying body into mine. "How can I be okay?" She cried as I rested her into my body so she can feel my breathing as Lena watched silently realizing this was just my moment with our daughter. We gently fell onto the ground as she cried hard as I held her and Lena walked away to give us this time. I cooed, hummed and swung us side to side gently until my Callie girl calmed down. I put some of Callie's damped hair from her tears behind her ears and looked into my daughter's tired eyes.

"You will be okay, sweet Cal." I spoke gently as her eyes gazed into mine tiredly and I smiled sadly. "We will be okay."

"You never shot.. Him." She stated it instead of questioning it and she sat up to face me.

"No.." I nodded slowly and she nodded to that. "It's a long story that I've been wanting to tell you but right now.. I think we shouldn't.. Not when you are like this, sweetie." I reassured her as I rested my chin on top of her head softly. "Please don't make me explain this to you.." My voice broke as sobs left her mouth and I rubbed her arm gently.

"You.. Spent so much time in there." Her voice whispered and I sighed.

"Baby-"

"You spent my childhood locked in a jail cell." She cried out as her hands turned into fists and I held her tightly. "While he spent his time doing what?" I shrugged with another sigh coming out of my mouth. She pulled out of my grip and looked at me with angry brown eyes. "Mama, what was he doing? Smoking a joint laughing at a joke that only his mates and himself can laugh at?" She stood up but she looked weak as I quickly followed her up the stairs.

"Cal, we need to just calm ourselves down before we work ourselves into something uncontrollable." I pleaded to her as she reached Mariana and her bedroom. "Cal, please honey." I put my hands into a pleading sign as tears rolled down my eyes as I watched her storm around her room looking for something. Suddenly the picture of Mike and herself appeared in her hands. "No.. No matter how much you hate him right now.. Don't destroy that picture." I knew it was one of our favorite memories that I would always hold on to even if Mike became the biggest joke in the world. She looked down at the picture then looked at me like I knew the answer to what she was trying to ask. I walked over to her slowly and grabbed the picture out of her hands gently then nodded to her.

"Mama." She whispered as I placed it in the back of my jeans pocket and I looked at her with concern. "I want some time on my own." I nodded as she lied down onto her bed and I sighed again.

"I love you." I whispered softly as I reached the door and turned to look at her as her eyes closed but she didn't reply back. I sighed as I dimmed the light and walked away leaving the door slightly open as I walked to Lena's bedroom where she was sitting on the bed holding her head in her hands.

x-o- Lena -x-o

"Lena?" I looked up startled to see a sad looking Stef staring at me with concern and I sighed. "If this was a bad dream.." I shook my head as she walked over to the bathroom and took off her clothes. "What I do want to remember how well this shower works so I can compare showers when I wake up." I busted into laughter with tears rolling down my eyes as she did as she turned the shower on.

"Baby, only you could crack a joke in one of your worst moments in your life.." I whispered as I walked over and ran my fingers along her spine whilst she waited for the shower to warm up.

"Only because I never figured out how to handle things like any other normal person." She replied back as she stepped into the shower and turned to look at me.

"Callie seems to get that trait too." I whispered as I sat on the bathroom rug and watched Stef stand there in the shower with tears rolling down her eyes leaving me feeling hopeless.

"Oh god, my Callie girl." Stef whimpered as she washed her self and I looked away in sadness. "She was better off thinking I was a murderer than whatever this is.." I looked back at her as she looked up at the roof and I sighed.

"I don't believe she would be better off.." I replied back softly as I looked at Stef who was now staring at me. "Neither would you, love." She looked away with a sigh and turned the shower off as I stood up to grab her a towel. I wrapped her body in the towel and kissed her gently.

"Hm, taste like home." Stef whispered as she moved her lips with mine and I smiled.

x-o- Callie -x-o

I woke up in a sweat and I noticed it was early morning so I decided to get into my jogging gear to go for a jog to clear my jumbled mind. I grabbed my earphones and phone after getting dressed then quietly made my way downstairs and out the front door but a hand touched my arm to stop me. I turned around and came face to face with my mama who looked worn out. "Honey, where are you going?"

"I was just going for a jog.." I replied back with a small nod and she looked up then down to see my outfit then let my arm go with a sigh. "I need to clear my mind.." I added softly and she looked into my eyes with concern.

"Okay baby." She finally whispered out with relief in her tone as she pointed to my phone. "Do call if something happens and I will be there in a heart beat."

"I know you will.." I whispered with a sad smile and she looked a little calmer when I whispered that then she opened the door for me.

"I love you."

"I love you too." I said as she placed a kiss on my cheek and I sighed as I walked out as she followed slowly behind. I turned slightly to look at my mama with a soft stare. "I will be back."

"I know you will.." She whispered with a little wave then I popped in my earphones and started a slow jog to the beach with a sadness filling my insides. Why did I ever think she could do something like that?

x-o- Stef -x-o

I watched her until I couldn't see her any more then I let myself take a seat on the swing near the front door with a shaky sigh. Slow improvements like this made everything better but nothing could fix these horrendous 10 years and fix what I missed out on Callie's childhood. I let myself fall apart quietly on the swing as the pain and confusion caught up on me then I wondered if this is what Callie was doing too on this jog of hers. "Honey, honey." I felt Lena's arms go around me and I didn't realize she was even awake as she rocked the swing while she held me. "Cry it out, love. Cry it all out."

So I completely forgot to post 2 chapters up that I posted on Wattpad so here is the next chapter and I will post the next one asap!