By the time Sen got me to my room, I had stopped crying. I could sense her worry, but I kept quiet, as well as she did.
She put me on my bed and put the blankets over me. She closed the curtains and spoke for what seemed like the first time.
"Good Night Hime-sama." I did nothing to acknowledge her smooth voice.
I thought I'd never sleep that night while I cried myself to sleep, wishing for it to all be over.
Dreams
I opened my eyes to find myself floating in the middle of black. I could see my body, but nothing else. If there even was anything. Wait, no, I'm standing. On what? I looked down to see a silver pocket watch, the chain leading up into nothingness. The glass was cracked and the clock was still working, though it made no noise. And, of course, it was of no ordinary size. Maybe about, 5 meters by 5 meters?
I noticed Nini sitting in the middle of the watch, and I was on the edge. A swarm of crows overhead came down and landed on the watch. Crows are my familiar, so I'm not surprised. They usually follow me whenever I go outside and sometimes are inside reading with me. I walked over to Nini and kneeled down as I grabbed her and hugged her to my chest while I started to cry.
"Nini, what did I do to deserve this?" Nini suddenly yanked her head up to look at me.
"Did you listen to Julia and Suzaku? You were born. Your a disgrace to purebloods, to vampires." I started to cry harder. I looked into Nini's eyes with tearful brown ones and spoke, mor like hiccuped. It's weird how this is the most normal dream I've had. I am starting to miss Kaname's memories.
"But I don't get what I did that was disgraceful! How could it be so disgraceful that they would throw me away?!" I cried harder now, if that was possible.
"You're young, you don't get it. The purebloods are depressed and there's only seven clans left, that means the vampires are close to extinction! You may be immortal, but how does that help if you can't reproduce?" I just shrugged slightly.
"B-But you're me! How can you know what I don't?"
"You just denied it, idiot." My sobbing stopped with that. My eyes once again lifeless.
"How many more tears do I need to shed before anyone will take my hand and lift me from the hole? I'm tired, it's all been happening so fast." I continued, "I'm alone. And really I'm just talking to myself. You're a stuffed rabbit."
"Maybe. But don't worry, you have me and only me, even if I'm just a stuffed rabbit." I just slightly narrowed my eyes at her.
"Me comforting me, I'm not sure if that's how all the good people start." I chuckled emptily.
"You're not supposed to be good. If you think about it, the vampires have been reproducing and reproducing for nearly ten thousand years, the numbers are growing, and yet all you can do is kill, you were made to bring those numbers down, to interfere with all the work we have been doing for so long."
"But I'm not sure if I want to. I want to be good! I want to try being a good person and try to be happy, like Kaname!" Wait... where did that come from? Kaname isn't very happy with his life.
"You don't want me to comfort you?"
I almost fumed at her."No!"
"'No'? How rude. You do realize that I'm you, right? I may be your only hope."
"Of course I do!" I want to yell at Nini, not that I wasn't already. "But I don't want you to be me! If you want to comfort me, you have to agree with me, or me to want to agree with you!"
"Fine." She sighed almost inaudibly. "Me and me together, I guess. You're lonely, but not when I don't want you to be."
"Me and me together?" She nodded. "That means I won't try to argue with me anymore." She nodded again.
I looked at her skeptically. "It's not like I can cross my fingers. I don't have any." A noise made its way to my ears.
"What was that?" Nini didn't move or talk, just fell from my arms onto the watch. I looked up and saw the chain about to break. "Ni-" the chain broke and we started to fall. I tried to scream or call out, but nothing came out. I tried to hold on to the chain dangling a few inches bellow my face. I grabbed it and made my way down to the rim of the watch.
We're gonna die! Wait, this is just a dream, and if I'm really immortal, it'll just be really, really, painful.
Ow...
I finally started to see ground. It looked like a few different dirty colors made it up, but the most of one color that I saw was maroon.
That and light red is my favorite color! I wonder why?
When I got closer, I saw that it wasn't a floor, it was bodies. A giant pile of bodies. I can't even see the edge.
As soon as we crashed, the watch had disappeared but made a loud crash sound, and I wasn't hurt, but I felt it. Not pain, just like tripping and catching yourself. "W-Where are we?" I received no answer, let alone an appearance. But really I wasn't paying attention to that, I was concentrated on something else.
I wasn't scared of the bodies. Or disgusted. I was actually...
Drooling.
The smell of fresh flesh made its way to my nose. Never in my life had I smelled something so... amazing. Wait, what am I saying? These are dead PEOPLE! PEOPLE!
The words 'eat flesh' appeared in my mind. That's right, Julia said that I am supposed to eat flesh. But how am I supposed to do that? I don't want to kill anyone! I want to be good!
"You're probably thinking that it's bad to eat flesh, right?" I jerked my head to look at her, wiping the drool quickly off my face before nodding slightly.
"From here, you'll go to Kaname's past. Ja ne, Akumu."
"Akumu?" Akumu meant 'Bad Dream', whereas Yume meant 'Dream' in Japanese.
"Your new name! It suits you better than Yume!"
"But-" I was suddenly on top of the pocket watch again. The pocket watch collapsed quickly and I fell. Or, we, as I should say. The crows were chasing after me. Instead of holding onto the watch, I just watched as everything fell as I was bellow it. Wait, why am I bellow it this time?
I had no more time to think as I remembered where I was as I fell into a room. The crows and pocket watch were, once again, gone.
I recognized the room as the dining room of the hidden basement in the Kuran mansion. The Kurans were eating, more like slurping, Yakasoba noodles. They were laughing and joking about how sloppy they eat their foods. I looked at Kaname. I could feel that he was just slightly acting, yet was also having fun.
I'm glad he likes eating with them. I smiled as the memories continued in almost fast forward and slow motion at the same time.
Dreams are weird.
I woke up slowly as small lights made its way into my eyes. I wondered what it was until I looked to my right and saw that it was 15:31. It's not even the sunset. I saw Nini on the floor where I left her yesterday as I got up and off the bed. I didn't really know what I wanted to do, so I just unpacked my things.
Books filled the empty bookshelves. Pictures on few of the empty walls. Clothes in the empty closet. Stuffed animals on the empty bed. This will be my home. Or 'home'. The only person here that I would call my family is Takuma.
I went over to pick up Nini and looked at her. I paused for a moment. "Should I wake up Takuma?" She didn't move.
I'm not a Magic-Eight Ball. I just stared at her with an empty face.
"I know."
Fine, I guess you can go wake up Takuma. And, by the way, it's not like I can stop you. You made me up because you were lonely, A-ku-mu.
I growled at the name. "I'm so insane."
I was at Takuma's door. I softly knocked just so he could hear me. He opened the door and saw me. "Ohiyo Guzaimasu, Hime-sama."
"Ohiyo." There was a long silence before he spoke up.
"Did you just wake up? You're still in your night gown." I looked down and saw that he was right.
"Oh..." There was another long pause.
"I came to ask if I could read manga with you." He looked surprised at my answer. I could imagine, since Ichiou and a lot of other people didn't appreciate him reading Manga. I could see why, since most people think that anime and manga is just shounen.
"You like Manga?"
"Half and half. I don't find very many manga at the Tsukiku library."
He gave a small 'Oh' and let me in to see his bed have ten volumes of D. Gray-Man.
I really like that manga and anime, though, sadly, not many people know about it, much less watch it.
"Since when did you stop looking so happy?" I almost couldn't hear him. Almost. I just shrugged.
"I like D. Gray-Man. It was the first manga I read." I picked up volume 1 and started reading.
"Really?! Me too!" I looked up at him and smiled half-heartedly.
For most of the day, we read all sorts of manga we had and talked sometimes while doing so, or shared theories about unfinished anime and manga.
I had just got done eating dinner with Ichiou and Takuma. I was heading back to my room for some rest. I was not excited to see Nini. Our first encounter made me feel even more lonely and depressed. She wasn't very good at making me feel not lonely.
As I got into my bed, it took me about 45 minutes to actually sleep, but it happened.
Dream
I opened my eyes to see myself on top of the same silver pocket watch from last time. Nini was in the middle staring at me. She started to speak. I could almost hear the smile in her voice.
"Me and me together."
Okay, so, I wanted to upload the second chapter. I was really excited to and I'm just really excited! Also, D. Gray-Man IS a great manga/anime. And I'm sorry that this one is short. Just so you know, I don't rush my chapters. I actually have a tablet that I just write on when I'm bored, then I send it to my email, copy and paste, blah blah blah, you don't ACTUALLY need to know that. And I put more information about the story on my, ummmm, page thing, I can't remember what it's called. Anyways, thank you SO much for reading, I hope you enjoyed it.
Any positive or negative criticism is welcome, unless you're just being an idiot, I think you get what I mean if you read the author's note on the last chapter.
I do NOT own Vampire Knight. I own only the words on the page/story and my OCs, Tsukiku Julia, Suzaku, and Yume/Nini.