"..." Noting came from him. Why hadn't I put the letter in the drawers of clothes or something?! Now he's read the whole thing, no doubt about that. I snatched the letter right out of his hand and ripped it in half, and half, and half again, until it was nothing but little white spots on the ground.
I was so scared right now. My heart was pounding against my chest, like some angry neighbor that just had your dog 'do its business' on their lawn. Where did that come from?
"Kaname..." I paused, tears escaping my eyes. "Why... Why did you read i-it?" He just looked down, without answering as I collapsed to the floor, sobbing so loudly that I'm sure the whole household could hear. But I don't care! I just wanna let it out...
"Why did you look at it?! Why?!" I kept sobbing as he looked at me, wide-eyed. I'm sure that's a look of disgust.
I just don't know what to do.
"I'm sorry." I stopped crying and slowly looked up.
"Eh?" What was he talking about? What did he have to be sorry for? "I should be the one apologizing."
He laughed bitterly. "I had been making you worry that you would be left alone by me, and yet I never knew." He kneeled down and hugged me tightly to his chest. "I'm sorry. It'll be okay. I won't ever leave you." I started to cry again, but because I was happy. One of my biggest fears in life, has now been lifted.
"D-Does this mean... (hick)... no more secrets?" He looked at me and nodded. I saw the few tears running down his cheek.
"Yes..." He smiled a little. I'm scared to tell him this... the one thing most people would find horrible and want to run away from you... because you're insane.
"Then... can I tell you something?" He nodded. "Promise not to hate me, or feel disgust?" He sighed.
"Yume, you could kill a thousand people and I wouldn't mind." I was still wary.
"Then... I... kinda talk to myself..."
He looked surprised. "What do you mean?"
Oh come one... What? NiNi?!
Well, duh. Just so you know, you shouldn't tell about me. He might hate you.
"He... He won't hate me... he said so!" Oops I didn't mean to say that aloud.
"Yume, are you alright?" I looked up at him, and then at the most interesting of things...
The ceiling.
Pun intended!
Nini... that's not a pun.
Oh.
Anyways... I sighed. "Kaname... I... Before you came here... I kinda mighta... createdafigmantofmyimaginationandithauntsmeinmyrabhitandmakesmedeppressedandIdon'tknowhowtogetridofit'causeI' 'thateme!" Wow, new record for talking so fast.
He just stared at me with more wide eyes. "Is that why you ignored me? Why you cut out your eye?" I buried my face into his chest.
"Only why I ignored you. She said if I ignored you, you wouldn't leave 'cause Kana-chan would want to know why." He stared at me.
"Just ignore her."
"But I can't! It's hard to ignore her... She bully's me if I do something she doesn't want." He looked up at Nini.
"Nini... right? Takuma-kun had told me your name." Oh, that's right. A few days ago, me and Takuma were reading more manga in the early morning, and. I told him what Nini's name was.
Eh?
He turned back to me. "Yume, I'll only do it if you want me to, but there's a possibility that I'll be able to hear Nini if you let me drink a little bit of your blood." I looked up at him and nodded. I don't really care if it's just some silly attempt to get my blood. He's had it since he said he wouldn't leave me.
Even if he's lying, I'm happy that he gave mine moment of happiness, of some sort of ignorance. "Are you sure?" I nodded again. "If I drink your blood, we might be bound in some way, one: because you don't drink blood and two: because this is the first time anyone's ever drank from you." I nodded again and held out my wrist to him. He seemed reluctant, not because it's annoying, but because it might... hurt me?
He outstretched his small fangs and lightly licked my wrist to lessen the pain, find the vain (or so I'm told) and bit into my wrist lightly. It didn't hurt so much as I thought it would. Maybe because I trust him. I don't know that much between the exchanges of blood except that there's blood involved. He chuckled lightly and pulled out.
He pinched my cheek and winked. "Is that how you always think?" I blushed slightly.
Blaaaah blaaaah bloooooo. Mic. (Microphone?) check, 1, 2, 3. He pulled away from me slightly and looked at Nini. "So you're Nini?"
I can imagine her nodding. That's correct, and you're the guy who stole my little Akumu away.
"Akumu?"
It's the greatest name that fits her, thief. She mumbled on the last part. After all, her life is all a 'bad dream' and she wishes to wake up, but to what? I believe this is the dramatic bullying part. And she is SUPPOSED to yell out, 'Nini, Nini!' and I come and tell her that the only one that'll ever want her is me! Not you, Kuran Kaname!
I tugged on his sleeve. "She seriously bully's you?" He smiled."Don't let her get to you, okay? I'll be here now, so you can just come to me whenever she's mean. You can't really get rid of something like her, but I'm sure you can get through it." I nodded and slightly cried into his chest again.
He patted my head while he stroked my back and buried his face into my hair. "B-But... what about my dreams? She's always there, too!" I pulled back and looked at me.
"Then you'll wake up and I'll comfort you. I'll do the best I can." I wondered if I could just destroy the rabbit. But then she might just be in my head or move on to something else.
"Wait, does that mean you can read my mind?" He shook his head.
"No. But if I use my powers just right and use the 'bond' we have, I can access a part of your mind, that being Nini." I just looked at him, still a bit confused. He sighed. "Think of it like opening a portal, but only opening a part where you can only hear."
"Ooooh." He nodded his head in triumph. "But doesn't that mean you have to concentrate all the time?" If it means draining energy, I don't want him to do that for me.
"No, just barely. After a few weeks, a can get used to the feeling." I looked at him sadly.
"Please don't drain your energy for me." He nodded his head.
"Okay, but only 'cause you asked." I smiled at him and hugged him tighter.
"Thank you!"
I was in Kaname's room today. I wanted to sleep in his bed tonight, and maybe it will help with 'Operation Nini'. Or at least, that's what I called it. It wasn't named for a specific thing, just anything that had to do with Nini. And it's more of one sided thing. Kaname doesn't believe in Operation Nini, or kind of. He still believes in Nini, obviously.
"Ne, Kaname?" He looked up tiredly from his position of stuffing his head into my small chest. I was wearing a black nightgown with a white ribbon and Kaname had a black shirt and shorts on.
"Mmmmm... What?" I wouldn't say it sounded harsh, more like 'Make this quick, I'm sleepy as hell.' I giggled.
Then I got a bit more serious as I stroked his head. "What would you do... if I really did attack a human? Or if I attacked Yuki or someone else important to you?" He gave me hard, straight look.
"Yume, I won't ever hate you. If you attack Yuki, I will have to forgive you, because it's not your fault, you don't want to suffer. Is it so bad to take the closest thing to you that will relieve that pain? Bloodlust exists to help survive. It ups our strength, because no one wants to truly die. No one. It's natural u instinct to want to live." I started to cry a bit.
"Then why do humans hate us so much? Why are we hated by vampire hunters? I don't want to be hated! I don't want to be such a monster! I don't want..." I started to calm down a bit as Kaname held my head and stroked my back.
"Shhh, it's all right." I continued to cry.
"I don't want... to have to watch... all that bloodshed." His eyes widened slightly, I could feel it on my head. "I don't want to be alone... I don't everyone else to die! If I'm immortal, then everyone else will leave me! I don't want to be alone! I want to have friends that love me, I don't want to be hunted!"
His eyes were closed. He held me tighter. "I told you... I promised I wouldn't leave you alone, no matter what." I know that, but...
Everything has to die...
But I'm not everything.
"Please believe me. I know that you think that every pureblood dies, falls into depression, but I won't. I promise! I don't need to have any other friend if I have you."
I stopped crying. "O-... Okay. I believe you. I..." I don't know if I want to say what's next.
"Yume."
"Hmmmm?" I wiped the tears off my face.
"Please don't cry." I nodded as he buried his face into my chest.
"Kana-chan?" He grumbled and looked up again. I chuckled. "I feel like we act as lovers." He just stared at me and put his face in my chest again.
"I don't really care if it's friends or lovers, just as long as we're together." I nodded.
...
"Kana-chan?" He bolted up and almost yelled, but I kept a straight face.
"WHAAAAAT?!" I smiled at him and put my hand on his head.
"Good night."
He sighed and just laid down again.
"Good night, Yume."
I smiled to myself as we both went into a peaceful sleep.
Dream
I opened my eyes to see myself back at the clock. I walked to the middle to see Nini mumbling to herself. She jerked up her head.
"Why did you allow him to capture you, Akuuuuuumuuuuuu!" She jumped on my legs and crawled to my back opi look at her in unison.
"W-What? Captu-"
She cut me off. "You let him drink your God damned blood, idiot!" She smacked me and I fell to the ground. I didn't know stuffed animals could slap and actually make the 'slap' sound. This is a dream, I guess.
"You created me for a reason, now don't just abandon me!" I stayed silent on the glass.
"I hate you!" She chuckled darkly.
"Idiot." She walked to the edge of clock. "You are me" she jumped off and after a few minutes, I felt a pain. The worst pain ever. My heart had stopped beating, my mind was barely just working. I couldn't see anything. I screamed out, but the problem was that I didn't know how. I felt no mouth, no legs, no head, no chest, no arms. I felt my body slowly and painfully reforming. I wanted to scream, but there was no breath. I looked around, eyes open more than they should and saw blood.
Blood was everywhere. I could no longer see the black hands of the clock, or the numbers that showed the fake time. Just red, along with chunks of my body in every direction. I felt something under me. It was squishy, liked chopped up jello.
I rolled of groaning in pain with my mouth open, still trying to scream.
I looked to where I was before. There was more red, but there was no bits and pieces of chunks that were my flesh, it was my whole body, minus an arm. I could still feel the slow reformations of my body. Now I understand.
'You are me.' It played over and over in my mind. It can't happen in real life, but in my dreams, Nini can hurt herself, and since we're one person, it affects me, too. But I wonder why it didn't do anything when he always fall.
I heard Nini's voice. "Its something that's supposed to happen, it's 'programmed' to not hurt."
I guess that makes sense. "Ow..." It's still really, really hurts, but I'm afraid to scream, now.
The clock started to fall again, and I was sent into another dream. But this one was odd. In the past few weeks, I had been having only dreams about the clock, but now I was in a beautiful field in a dead tree with a whole bunch of crows. I kind wanted to wave at them, but they knew I was saying 'hi' right now. They all turned to me and the a few flew down to the ground.
I tried to move my arms, but it felt odd. I looked over and saw a wing.
...
So I'm a crow now? I used to have these dreams a lot when I was a kid, only we were never in a tree, only on the ground in this white landscape. I like this one more, though. I looked around and saw a long brown haired man, he looked a lot like Kaname from behind.
Oh, wait that is Kaname. What was annoying about this body, was that it was harder to see, though I could still look straight forward. I already knew how to fly, slow I flew over and landed on his shoulder, I tried to speak but forgot I couldn't. He just stared at me for a bit, then smiled.
"Yume, it's you." How'd he know it's me? Ya know, one weird thing about my dreams is that they always feel like this actually happened, like real life. That's not supposed to happen, from what I know. I guess I'm just weird. Again, no wonder my names Yume.
"It must've been the blood that did it. Or me, I don't really know. "He held his arm out in front of me, and I took it as an invitation as 'hop on'. He started to walk somewhere, like he knew his way around.
"This is where I was when I 'died'. I saw from your blood that you never saw that part of... 'life'..." That's true. And vampires can see what someone is thinking by drinking their blood, but it differs with each rank. For example, Level E's would see nothing, Level D's could see small feelings if they had enough and concentrated hard enough, Level C's could see feelings clearly, Level B's could sometimes see memories if they concentrate and drunk enough, and can clearly see feelings, and purebloods could see almost everything, such as current thoughts, feelings, memories, etcetera. But pureblodds can also put up barrier type things to help protect those things.
He stopped walking and I saw a small empty patch of grass where we were standing. "This is where I usually slept. I had dreamless 'dreams' inside a dream. I didn't do much here, there wasn't anything to do." He laid down and put me on his chest. It was nice to lay in, for in the dream he was in his older form, so he was much bigger than a 7 year old. "Good night, Yume."
He had a small hand resting on top of my back and wing, as we both fell into a 'sleep', fast.
Okay, as most of you may know, I'm uploading this right after 4. Hope it's good. And I don't know if I really wanna put romance into it. Right now, there basically just good friends. What would you do if you found someone that was most like you? And if you need an example, watch Ouran High Shool Host Club or something like that, the twins have a pretty solid relationship, but they're not lovers. That's what this is right now. Now. I still don't know if I want to put romance, as said before. Also, more of the horror things will come in at Cross Academy, because high school seems to be the most eventful time in life, and I'm just following anime.
Oh, oh! I just thought of a good D. Gray-Man Fanfiction! I am sooooo writing it! Ugh... Damnit! I don't mean to keep talking about it, gomen 'na!